Kids are sleeping now, finally quiet… I’m so grateful I didn’t drink (there is always some alco at home), I’m so grateful soon they go back to playgroup and school. I love them so much but man, what a pain in the ass the can be sometimes. I must start thinking ODAAT about raising them as well I think 
Its giving me thrills when I think that they are now not even 5 and 3yo and it only gonna get worse (noise, fights, big mouthing etc). For sure would be easier if with hubby we would play in one team. Cause usually it feels like we are not. Well, today I won’t drink. Tomorrow probably also. Gonna watch something on Netflix and go to sleep.
ODAAT
Love you guys 🩵
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What a day you had Mischa. I’m so proud of you for not picking up. You are a super mom. I bet it’s exhausting. I Hope tomorrow is a better day. Enjoy your Netflix rest and I hope sleep comes easy for ya.
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Tomorrow is my birthday
I’ll be 33 years old
I WILL stay sober in the moment
I have too much going good to eff it up
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Happy birthday for tomorrow 
And you have a baby on the way? Exciting times.
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Sleep well friend. Very glad you made it through today. Good days and bad ones. Drinking never helps. Dikke knuffel x
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The fact that your girls are still doing this says that it is not too late and that you’re not a piece of shit in their eyes. You can be mad at your choices but don’t hate yourself… Getting clean and sober is tough, ups and downs… you know it, you’ve lived it. You have what it takes, believe in yourself bro.
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Yay Jess! Growing each and every day 
. Just keep going. Nothing will stop you. 
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Wow! Way to go for working thru that difficult moment! So proud of u!
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Thank you!! 
I am putting the work in and seeing all the benefits from it. I appreciate you and your encouragement 
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It’s been a couple of days, but checking in on day 118. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs lately, but overall, I’m doing the best mentally that I ever have. Thoughts are clear and much more logical.
Sending strength and love to all 
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Day 385 alcohol free
Day 6 social media detox
I completely forgot to eat today, fixed that with some scrambled eggs, leftover potatoes and sausages. I threw everything in a pan and fried it. Now my stomach is happy, and so am I 
1-2 pieces of chocolate and then I’ll hit dream land 
I felt bored today, not all the time but often.
I used to lay on my couch and doom scroll on TikTok. Absolutely a waste of time and yet I miss it.
Our brains are interesting 
Good night fam, stay strong y’all 
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Sober day 16.
Didn’t give in to cravings yesterday. Instead I crawled into bed and cried myself to sleep. I’m an emotional mess.
OFDAAT
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333 back in hospital 
Happy sober Saturday everyone
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I start my day with an uplifting podcast then a brisk walk. Keep occupied and have faith in yourself that you can and will beat this thing.
I know the struggle is real, everyday, but so is the reward. The pride you will feel in the end result beats every urge.
You so got this!! 
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@mischa84 how are you doing today love? Hope you were able to get a good nights rest and enjoyed your Netflix. You are a great mom and anyone would be exhausted running around with three toddlers. Hopefully playgroup and school start soon for you so that you can get some restful moments to yourself.
@noshame 2 week milestone is amazing! Congrats on the baby (such thrilling news) and a happy birthday! So much amazingness my friend! So happy for you! Keep being awesome
@mindofsobermike You are a great father my friend and I know your girls love you so very much. They still look up to you. It is not too late Mike – your day one starts today. Don’t let the self hate and shame overcome you. Much love to you Some great advice here – keep connected as it helps us support each other through the tough times.
@sleeplessmoonlight Way to go on 2 weeks! Amazing work – keep it coming
@juli1 completing day 50 like a rockstar! Oh love I am so very sorry to hear about the SH or wanting to get smashed urges. Grateful the rental cat and sun helped you overcome these moments. So proud of you Jules :woman_superwoman:
@looking4support Congrats on your application being successful! Excited for you! Oh man – just read your update. I am so very sorry my friend. I do hope that you are able to have your visit with your brother in a few weeks. Sending you love, comfort and support. Many warm hugs for you James
@karenkw oh love – grateful you did not drink and are on day 16 when do you see your therapist next? I know it’s a battle dealing with all the raw emotions. You are doing great Karen – I do hope the days get easier for you 
@bones_80 great to see you Ian. 333 is beautiful! I am sorry you are back in the hospital – any relief with the pain? I do hope you are getting the treatment you need.
Checking in on Saturday evening
I am grateful that I was able to go into work today and it was a slow day to ease my way back into it. It was a tiring day and i’m grateful tomorrow is Sunday - planning to sleep in LOL. Grateful i did not give in to any urges that helped with being tired after a long day. Nope - we have healthier ways to coping.
Hoping everyone has a addiction free day / evening! Sending you all so much love
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Evening Check In
Day 615
Deep breathing and playing the tape to the end is what im currently doing. Just finished having a really hot shower, cried, tried to pray but didnt feel really connected, and now just getting my son ready for bed.
I contacted the Bible group leader today asking when the Bible Studies via zoom will occur. They ended over the summer to do another program and so now that this program has ended, I was hoping for the Bible Study to begin again. She mentioned that it should be starting up within the next few weeks. I cant wait! I need them. I need that spiritual connection. I never crave drugs when im spirituality connected. Im just beyond tired of spending hours every day thinking about using and then its exhausting combating these thoughts. My addiction is trying to pull me down but im not letting it. Ive been trying to pray but it feels like theres a wall there or something. Like my prayers are just words. Anyway, ill get thru today clean and sober. Hope everyone is having a good evening 
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It is hurtful news and it’s okay to feel hurt. I am just sorry that you are going though this. Grateful that you are not in fear of relapse my friend.
I have no words - i can imagine how painful this situation can be. just sending you hugs and comfort !
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Thank you so much! I needed that
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Evening check in.
Today I poured out an expensive bottle of wine that had sat on my counter with a cork in it for a week with one glass out of it had by a friend who was here last weekend.
Not too long ago, I would have had all of it doing dishes that night.
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Wow way to go on such a positive decision! Proud of u for that!
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