357
Been up for a couple of hours, the rest of the house is still asleep.
One hellacious gym sesh coming up. Then watching my team on the TV this afternoon.
357
Been up for a couple of hours, the rest of the house is still asleep.
One hellacious gym sesh coming up. Then watching my team on the TV this afternoon.
Day 1860
Had a party yesterday in a pub and a lot of drinking was involved. I drank water but they served it in a whiskey glass, donāt know why.
It looked fancy though
Our youngest son of 20 was with us. He drank a couple to much and I heared him telling my sister in law about me being sober for more then 5 years. I did not liked that. Itās my story and my descision to make if I wanna share it ore not.
Iām open about it with some, but concider that sister in law not as my inner circle.
Otherwise he is proud of me I guess and I do not have to make a deal about it.
Today?
Some more chilling on the couch and after lunch a long walk somewhere. Having the day off tomorrow as well
Day 281.
Among the downfall of living next door to the neighbours (my parents) is that itās hard to skip family gatherings. My aunt wants to do a family meal / barbecue to honor my uncle.
While I firmly believe in the mantra āDonāt ever argue with a grieving person,ā I wish they would have told me about it earlier in the week.
Sundays are my busiest days, have been for months. Iām looking at least 10 hours of carpat tunnel inducing fun, so itās gonna be a late one. It was already going to be a late one. Now it just got even longer.
And I canāt even sleep in tomorrow because my husband has a gout flare-up, so Iām in charge of all the dog walks. Normally, heād do the morning one when Iām up late with work.
Fuck. My. Life.
I feel this, although we donāt believe the same.
You know, whatever created us is almighty, right?
So itās always there. Itās in us and around us.
I understand that you need the community, the other people. But maybe my words do help you a little.
Weāre never really alone. Youāre able to get that spiritual connection. Keep on trying.
This so sounds like me, it will be a self fulfilling prophecy if you stick this reasoning into your mind. There are other options still, since it is not yet Tuesday. You can grap your focus on it and get it over with. I donāt know the assignment but probably will take less time than you have already been thinking on it. Another option is to contact the teacher and discuss the situation and see what can be done about it. I would suggest the first one, since it gives the most reward.
Will done so far by the way, proofs the me you are on the right track and you can succeed on this. Donāt let your head tell you otherwise. I hope this doesnāt sound to harsh, thatās not my intention.
Get on with it
Day 377
I am taking the day off. I told my boss I just canāt come in today. I am not scheduled, and am turning my phone on do not disturb.
Hope yāall have a good sober day
Hey all, checking in on day 1225. I hope everybody has a good one!
Good for you. Mental health day.
Sounds like itās time to dig in and get to work on English bro. The only quit in you should be used on drugs and alcohol . You can do this.
#1
After 7 sober days, I fell off the wagon yesterday. I was triggered when I saw people having fun on my way home after visiting family. By the way, I live on the bar street in Kadıkƶy, Istanbul lol. I couldnāt resist and went to the liquor store and bought something. After it was finished, I ate one and a half medium pizzas, even though I wasnāt hungry at all. I passed out without brushing my teeth. I woke up this morning with a headache and a disgusting bad breath. Itās really funny how much difference there is between the drinking and non-drinking versions of a person. Still, Iām not angry or sad. I reminded myself what a useless habit alcohol is. I wish you all a pleasant Sunday on this first day of my sobriety. If you have any suggestions for healthy habits that will make me excited to go home in the evening, I would like to hear them. Thank you for reading.
Welcome to an awesome sober community @lostinmind write out a list of why you want to quit. Write out a list of how your life will improve if you stay quit. Refer back to these when you have cravings
Welcome to Talking Sober Mustafa. I think one good thing you already have done, is to reflect on what drinking brought you. Which was nothing good right. Itās all lies. We can have all the fun we want without having booze or drugs. Thatās something we have to learn and experience though. We do have to change our habits, and maybe, probably, change our social circle as well.
One thing I needed I have found here, which is contact to my sober peers. I truly believe we need each other, to learn from and support each other. I isolated myself from a very young age, and my drugs and alcohol habits only reinforced that ever further. The people I hung out with when I drank turned out to be only drinking buddies, not friends. In truth drinking only isolated me more.
Anyway, as Iāve learned, the opposite of addiction is connection. And that is the main advice I have for you. Look for connection, to yourself, to others, to knowledge, to feelings and emotions. Work on that and youāll be fine. Wishing you all success friend.
BTW, I was in Kadıkƶy exactly one afternoon some 15 years ago. I do remember the street you live in. Alcohol is everywhere in our societies. We need the right mindset not to fall for its false allure.
Thanks a lot Menno
If you happen to be here, let me know. Iād like to buy you a coffee.
Thanks a lot Patron
532, checking in.
Thanks Mustafa. I will. If you ever come to Amsterdam, Iād like to do the same for you.
Day 42 n about to hit the Sunday morning meeting
@DresdenLaPage Welcome back. That realisation is the first step, and it takes away so much inner conflict. Donāt be freaked out. It is just one category of liquid. There are plenty of others.
@Butterflymoonwoman Sending you strength. Could you look into some AA NA groups that are more overtly spiritual if the Bible study doesnāt start up again?
@Bones_80 Hope you get better soon.
@Mindofsobermike Hating yourself will not make you a better father. Children need love and openness. You have those.
@Wunderbar That is wunderful! (I wonder how many people before me have made this joke!)
@lostinmind I hear you about the sober you and drunk you being entirely different people. Glad that other person is nonexistant these days.
@Looking4Support I did lots of being there for my friend when she was in hospital during the height of Covid, so no visitors. Video calls, etc, can allow you to be there.
Thanks a lot Flo
Day 37 with no alcohol.