Thank u everyone for the suggestions and comments. I really took alot out of what everyone said
@Misokatsu thats actually a fantastic idea! I think some sort of group wpuld be helpful for me right now. I might attend some online meetings until the Bible group starts up again at least. Thank u for the suggestion @Sabrina80 thank u so much Sabrina for reminding me of this. I sort of forgot that to be honest. Lately ive been feeling as if that spiritual connection is something that i can only achieve thru prayer but ur absolutely right… its all around me. I truly do think about nature. I havent gone out in nature in months. I think it might be time that I do that. Thank u so much for ur insight @Starlight14
This right here I agree with this statement so much. I think ur right. Ive been trying sooo hard to just not have these thoughts that im forgetting to just be. I think im trying to hard but its backfiring. And u make a good point about hobbies. When i do certain hobbies, like make dreamcatchers, i usually feel connected to something. Thank u friend for ur input @tragicfarinelli thank u for support friend. I really appreciate it
Your most welcome Dana, sometimes we need a little outside perspective…id go as far as saying its also a possiblity that its yourself you are feeling the dissconnect with, your HP is always there and always will be, keep the faith
Checking in on day 140 AF.
I’m feeling so much less anxious than recent weekends and an awful lot less depressed but I’m feeling quite unmotivated today. There’s one more day off school for the kids tomorrow so it’s long weekend here. The sun is shining and I’m sitting with a coffee in the sunlight by my window.
One Day At A Time.
Sunday 10am check in. Been in work a few hours now. Not a ton going on. Hope it stays that way. Gonna see if the wife wants to go out for dinner tonight. Italian, Chinese, Seafood, Burgers. . Not a clue what Im even in the mood for.
In a sense i do feel disconnected to myself. That feeling comes and goes tho. But i do feel like something is missing from my life. This week i will definitly be reflecting on this how are you doing?
Take it easy on yourself Dana, take some time for u…i know thats not easy sometimes but try and try to stop putting so much pressure on yourself. Im ok thank you kind of just mulling along at the moment, ive had some health issues but im getting to the bottom of those now i think, i start some B12 injections soon as i was found to be deficient so fingers crossed, thank you for asking
I didn’t drink a drop at the wedding last night, and had a great time. However, my out-of-town coworkers wanted to hang out afterward, and I of course went with them. I had two drinks. I had eaten so much that I didn’t even feel the drinks, but that didn’t matter because I had them. My alcohol loving brain convinced me that one or two would be okay - that evil, evil brain.
Morning Check In Day 616
Moooorning TS fam! Hope everyone is enjoying their day so far. Im doing a bit better than i was yesterday. Everyones comments really helped and sort of gave me some direction.
Today consists of work, which Im at now. Will attend an online sermon if I can. And then some self care later. Thats about it I think. Just want to say how appreciative I am of TS and all of you that are in it. You all mean so much to me
@danam56 grateful you are feeling better now and had a wonderful time with your friend. Yes – definitely some great guys out there @looking4support How are you doing today James? I know the situation is overwhelming and do hope you are able to see your brother soon. Sending you healing thoughts my friend! @SCORPn so grateful to hear that you took the day off and are able to rest today – you so deserve and need it. Much love my friend –
@lostinmind welcome to the community Mustafa! Great job on day 1 and grateful that you are getting back on the sober track without beating yourself up. It is a nasty disease and we just need to work on it one day at a time. I find that keeping a clean house, changing up routines and social circles to avoid triggers and keeping myself busy (mentally and physically) help keep me focused on sobriety. This community has been super supportive and helpful to me on this journey. Hope to see you around. @jasty2 back at work on a Sunday – you are the warrior. Hope you and the wife enjoy a lovely relaxed evening tonight @marlowe that addict brain is evil -welcome to day 1 — we know that moderation is not something we can do and even one takes us down a spiraling path. Great job on jumping right back on the sober path.
Checking in on Sunday morning -
chilled day - about to eat some pumpkin pancakes and enjoy a mindless afternoon watching movies – hope one of them is truly horrific
Wishing everyone a wonderful chillaxed addiction free day! Sending you so much love
Experiencing quit some stress, tension, trauma reactions in my body. My eyes are ignited, always in this time of the season it seems the last years. Realize it’s today 3 years since a bender that chased my fiancé away. Tried to push the feelings away. The time until the detox (18 Dec) was an attempt to end it all. My body seems to have remembered it all. Guilt feelings are getting the best of me right now. But I’m still here and working my ass of te become a better version of myself ODAAT. Yesterday was a good day, just today not, tomorrow is again another day.
Edit: spook it out to my sponsor, should do that more often, relieved a lot
Yeah, even thought I was able to do it last night, I’m under absolutely no illusion that I can moderate. I had a “what the hell am I doing?” moment and went home.
You know neither SH or alcohol would help with anything Julia. Except very temporary relief. Hang with us. Stay connected. Don’t turn in on yourself. Hugs.
Thanks for sharing this, this is why I go to meetings etc to listen to people who test the waters for me. Never heard of one person go back out there and tells me it’s great. Write all you are feeling on a piece of paper and stick it in your wallet beside your drug money, next time you go to pay for your drugs read the note.
Hey love – i am so very sorry that you are feeling these intense feelings today. Girl - i do hope you are able to read these messages before you leave and are able to find something to do that is just for you - show yourself some compassion and love today. You deserve a painless addiction free life.
giving in to these urges will only make you feel worse and do not give this power to anyone else – to take away all the progress you have made. you are a superwoman rockstar. stay connected here, reach out to your recovery group if possible - go for a lovely walk or swim.
I agree with this statement so much. I think ur right. Ive been trying sooo hard to just not have these thoughts that im forgetting to just be. I think im trying to hard but its backfiring. And u make a good point about hobbies. When i do certain hobbies, like make dreamcatchers, i usually feel connected to something. Thank u friend for ur input 
. Not a clue what Im even in the mood for.
Morning Check In 
