Well, I tested positive for COVID. Ugh!!!
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Hey jaz thanks for checking on me. Iām having a hard time, just really struggling to understand some things even when I tell them I donāt understand it and they try explaining a different way I still donāt understand. Not really in a good headspace, missed class yesterday and then beat myself up for it. Just feel overwhelmed, then department of social services sent me paper work that I have to have my professors fill out all the way back untill August when I started school. Itās not a big deal but it just feels like a lot, I was so proud of myself and then now Iām being down.
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You could literally spend your evening throwing poop up a wall and it would be more productive than drinking lol. Be proud girl. You are having-what seems like anyway- headaches a lot. Iām not sure if thatās something you suffer with anyway, but might be worth getting it checked.
I too have made myself feel so bloated and ill eating wedges. I decided to made wedges out of the spongey sad potatoes left in the spud sackā¦ To go with my salad and leftover chilli and cheeseā¦ Quite a lot of leftover potatoes, but hey Iāll do them all in the ninja and freeze them right?
No. Iāve eaten the lot. Too delicious and crispy and tasty at the time, now I feel like Albert Bartlett himself.
Letās call it carbing up, Gym bud 
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Throwing poop up a wall 
My bath and book sounds a lot better than that or drinking.
Yes, have always had headaches, but this is ridiculous. I do need to try and do something about it but hate the fuss of the GP.
Sounds like we both ate too much potato (mine was cheesy chips). No regrets, especially now you made it seem like an intentional part of my gym routine 
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This made me laugh x
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Checking in
Day 598
Wow i cant believe my timer is almost at the 600s! For some reason this is really baffling me 
just the number itself is mind boggling when to think at one point i couldnt get past 3 days clean.
Today i woke up tired (as usualā¦ will need to figure where the issue is). I even tried melatonin last night and it did nothing 
Got my son on the bus and then attempted to lay down until 11am. But phone calls and text messages kept me awake. Got up and decides to exercise. I finished another virutal Conqueror Challenge. Im doing the Marathons to Athens challenge and i finished it today. All 42km was done on the elliptical. Cant wait to receive my medal! Hubby is going to get me another one in a bit. Im thinking of doing the New York Challenge bcuz ive always wanted to go there.
Did some tidying up in the apartment and made sure to do my prayer this morning too. All in all today is going well. Hope everyone is doing well too! 
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Late evening checkin.
I did hard work today, laying a carpet in the hallway and staircase of my parents house. 
I killed it
Later I met my niece 
Sheās just such a cool and taff 10 year old.
I had thoughts about drinking. Itās the āforeverā thing.
But I am sober now.
Tomorrow I can stay sober too.
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Oh Mike Iām so sorry that you are still struggling.
Please do not be hard on yourself. You should still be super proud of how well you are doing. Not that your teacher is a bad teacher but for some we need a different teaching style or different examples to make things stick.
Have you tried looking up examples on Google or YouTube for clarification?
Were you able to find a tutor?does the class have a TA that could be available for a one on one?
Are you chummy with any other students who may be able to help with a different perspective?
Do not be so hard on yourself. I see you putting in the effort. I do know that English and writing is not an easy subject. I was always a math and numbers / equations mindset so have not had to deal with the reports you are dealing with.
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Checking in on day 101, a little worn down from work but feeling hopeful today.
Hope you all are well 
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OH man - iām sorry love ā I do hope you donāt have any severe symptoms. Get plenty of rest and fluids (i do hope someone can help take care of you). Wishing you a speedy recovery 
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@JazzyS Thank you so much for your heartwarming welcome! 
Day 3 here, and everythingās okay. It gets a little bit harder in the evening, because thatās when I used to have some wine with my husband after dinner. But Iāve replaced that drink with zero-sugar flavored water and chamomile tea, and so far so good.
You guys are awesome, and just reading your stories is truly a huge encouragement!
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Thank you 
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Oh no! That sucks. How are you feeling?
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Welcome @MyLife21 and congratulations on your 3 days. Good job replacing the wine. Be aware of your triggers and break the old habits.
Youāre doing great!
@Cp25 awww Cynthia Iām sorry to hear about your COVID. Hope youāre better soon.
@Butterflymoonwoman hi Dana itās so good to see you posting about your Conqueror Challenge. Iāve got this app too and I love it!!! It really made me walking out of my room 
Iām doing the Nort Coast 500 at the moment. Do you do the 2023 challenge as well. Iām so excited, Iām sorry
I guess we should start a The Conqueror thread 
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Thank you so much @happyfeet !
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Checking in from Mexico on day 239 sober.
Fly back home Friday.
Looking forward to being home for a couple weeks.
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Looking forward for Day 30!!! This time itās for me, last few times it for everyone else in my life.
I want to be the person I remember before everything got cloudy and it was just trying to get through the days!
So excited to start this new chapter of life,
Not gonna get to excited cause I have failed in the past but if I get to 3 months it for sure a new tattoo!
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@Rob11 Step 4 and 5 are great. I felt much better after my original one, and am doing a āone yearā top up right now, and feeling better again. Looking at your resentments / defects and seeing patterns and what you can do about it makes you feel productive and like you are actually moving forward.
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hello darlings 
checking in 24 days alcohol free, hiked to a waterfall today with my baby and my brother (not blood brother but he might as well be), so nice to enjoy these very last warm days of the year 
sober!
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Today I am 595 days free from alcohol and I just reached out to my old therapist. It is time to crack open my brain and stir. My deeper issues are not miraculously going away so it is time to bring them into the light.
The person that I posted about dying earlier was my first real boyfriend and my first sexual partner. He was sweet and funny and troubled and artistic. Now heās dead, because he succumbed to his alcohol addiction.
Fuck. That.
Today Iām angry. Iām angry that Iāve hidden myself behind addiction for so long and Iām angry that I always have chosen addicts to love.
Forward.
That is the direction I am choosing.
R.I.P. Lucian I hope you are surfing a peaceful California wave right now.
Fuck alcohol.
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