Nothing good to report and no will to report nothing good. 
I donāt even think that makes grammatical or linguistic sense. Still here, still Sober, no intention of changing that. Just dealing with fucking idiots takes a lot of my brain these days.
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Checking in.
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@maxwell Welcome back 
. Everyone belongs here if they are struggling with addiction, and want to be supported, and support others when they can.
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Checking in Day 10)
Hey everyone. Thereās some pretty big milestones on here today, congratulations everyone 
I have a good friend who is a heroin addict over 23 years clean and I always tell him āI hope I never catch you upā and I say the same to you guys
Something just came to me that was somewhat profound. What do I miss about the things Iāve had to give up? Reliance? Trust? Maybe just a bit of temporary comfort? Truth be told, no-one gives up the things that are good for them; exercise, healthy eating, boundary setting etc ā¦ I just miss the temporary feeling these things give me despite the fact that itās not even real.
Iāve been thinking to myself āWho do I want to be? What do I want to achieve? Where do I see myself in a year?ā - Some people might be uncomfortable at the thought of a year and tell me to stick to ODAAT which believe me, I do but my great grandmother years ago always had this mentality of ālook past the obstacleā and itās always been thereā¦ So who do I want to be? Well, I want to be reliable, I want to be successful, I want to be a go-to person again.
I realise I can only do this by staying off alcohol. Alcohol has held me back so fucking long now and the only example I have of being able to achieve the things I wanted to was during my last period of sobriety. If thatās the only example I have to go on then thatās the example I need to use. The loneliness of sobriety has always made me search for the approval of others and to try and forge relationships that I otherwise wouldnāt have - I think everyone knows what Dutch courage is like. While I process my thoughts and learn to let things go, itās becoming even more apparent that alcohol and all the extra curricular bullshit Iāve been associating with it is not actually going to do me any good and it doesnāt make me happy - and whatās more important to me, the approval of people who are temporary or my inner peace and happiness knowing that I have to live with myself forever?
Enjoy your day people
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Day 1175
A bit related to mnoās post, I tend to go through phases when I get frustrated with my small life and try to join stuff and make connects; recently I applied to a public run and a cooking class at my daughterās school. But usually nothing comes of it, if I am lucky a random chat or two, and then back to my normal pretty isolated life. But then I usually have work and kids stuff, plus my introvert need for quiet time, and I couldnāt fit much in anyway. Yet I still feel lonely. It is a strange contradiction. Anyway, must be grateful for what I do have instead of focussing on what I donāt.
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Day 45! I think I forgot to post yesterday because I slept in after a very fun night out dressing up for Halloween. Had a blast!
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I so get what u mean about physical connection and touch, im a real hugger and miss that as i dont have a partner, i thankfully get hugs from my daughter but if i didnt have her id feel alot worse about it, reading your post has inspired me too to go see some friends very soon, thank you xx
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Wow! Congratulations on ur 1 year!!!
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Sending you hugs Menno. I pray that u find the connection that u seek within ur town. Online friendships/relationships are great but its not the same as in person. I totally get that. Hope ur day improves friend 
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@DresdenLaPage congratulations on double digits josh!
@Mischa84 congratulations on ur 4 months of freedom!!! Way to go!
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Checking in on day 148 AF.
I have workmen in the house installing a new window in my studio, so Iām hiding out in the kitchen. Iām browsing through The Artistās Way and waiting until I can get back into the room and do the tidying that Iāve been putting off for the past couple of years. I need to get back into a routine of being creative every day.
Mood wise Iāve been pretty good lately. My appetite is much better as is my sleep.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
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Day
0.44 no cbd or weed
173 no alcohol
104 no vapes or ciggs
Checking in sober
Had some gummies yesterday
Reset the clock to midnight lastnight
I feel stronger then ever 
The wifey got me some headphones just for online meetings
Shes very thoughtful
Ill be hitting up a meeting after work today
Reach out Spread love 
We all could use some
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Checking in on day 110. Love to all.
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Checking in day 421! Went to a concert and had a great time last night, but very sleepy and groggy today. Busy, fun weekend overall. No idea how I ever did any of this hungover- so grateful to just be tired on a Monday like a normal person Ready to get into the swing of the week- done training at the new job and have my first clients starting Wednesday. Looking forward to that!
Wishing you all a magnificent sober Monday 
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Happy sober Monday. Day13.
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Day 88
Just checking in
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Morning Check In
Day 624
Good morning everyone! Its a crisp winter day here in Alberta. I am already out and about running errands. Heading to the grocery store for 2 weeks worth of groceries and halloween treats for tmrw. Then will head home for a workout. Would like to do something recovery related todayā¦ maybe some meditation. And of course will do some tidying up in the apartment. Thats about it for me today. Have a great addiction free day everyone 
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Good morning sober folk. Today is day 621 free from alcohol and day 1 of my husbands vacation. I didnāt sleep great last night because I kept waking up. It feels safer with him here. Co-dependent or not he was happy to hear that too.
Today is my day off from working the weekend and I donāt have huge plans. I think Iām going to make chicken and noodles inspired by the cooking thread, clean the house, do something crafty and hopefully manage a walk before my 12 hour shift tomorrow. Regardless of what I choose to do with my day drinking alcohol will NOT be one of those choices.
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Checking in on day 127, getting to the end of my work week which is nice because I feel like my brain has been half asleep the past couple of days.
Have a great Monday everyone! Sending strength and good vibes 
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@Just_Laura I definitely notice more migraines and insomnia around full moons too, you are not alone š©µ enjoy your 3 days off 
@Maestro congrats on your year 
@Mischa84 congrats on 4 months
@Mno youāre not alone friend maybe there are some social groups you could join in your area, hoping you find something, sending strength in the meantime š©µ
@DresdenLaPage I live in Cambridgeshire, UK too, small world congrats on double digits
@KarenKW stay connected, and keep trying š©µ
@lorelai @Kimpantera @happyfeet @Butterflymoonwoman thank you all š©µ
1176 days no alcohol.
641 days no cocaine.
156 days no vape.
Today Iāve had no energy again. Same symptoms.
Iāve just attended a webinar on dissociation with the charity Iām waiting for therapy with.
Tomorrow I have my first session with the psychologist around boundaries. Then Iāve booked a haircut at the barbers I used to go to before I moved.
š©µ
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