Day 1. Again. I know I can’t keep drinking.
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Whoo hoo! Congratulations 
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@HoofHearted and I had lunch in Seattle a few years ago. @Jowieseff and I went and played guitars for hours in Guitar Centre in LA … There’s no reason I can’t do a hop to ‘Dam in the future 
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I hear you. Oddly enough, I spend a lot of time with people, my students, my kids, family in law. But I hang out with an actual ‘friend’ maybe once every two months. And it is often a quick catch up and then finished for the next month or two. In the end, not much depth. Making friends as an adult is hard. People are busy, real connection hard to foster. Anyway, didn’t mean to make it about myself. Good luck getting out there and finding your people.
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Nothing good to report and no will to report nothing good. 
I don’t even think that makes grammatical or linguistic sense. Still here, still Sober, no intention of changing that. Just dealing with fucking idiots takes a lot of my brain these days.
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Checking in.
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@maxwell Welcome back 
. Everyone belongs here if they are struggling with addiction, and want to be supported, and support others when they can.
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Checking in Day 10)
Hey everyone. There’s some pretty big milestones on here today, congratulations everyone I have a good friend who is a heroin addict over 23 years clean and I always tell him “I hope I never catch you up” and I say the same to you guys
Something just came to me that was somewhat profound. What do I miss about the things I’ve had to give up? Reliance? Trust? Maybe just a bit of temporary comfort? Truth be told, no-one gives up the things that are good for them; exercise, healthy eating, boundary setting etc … I just miss the temporary feeling these things give me despite the fact that it’s not even real.
I’ve been thinking to myself “Who do I want to be? What do I want to achieve? Where do I see myself in a year?” - Some people might be uncomfortable at the thought of a year and tell me to stick to ODAAT which believe me, I do but my great grandmother years ago always had this mentality of “look past the obstacle” and it’s always been there… So who do I want to be? Well, I want to be reliable, I want to be successful, I want to be a go-to person again.
I realise I can only do this by staying off alcohol. Alcohol has held me back so fucking long now and the only example I have of being able to achieve the things I wanted to was during my last period of sobriety. If that’s the only example I have to go on then that’s the example I need to use. The loneliness of sobriety has always made me search for the approval of others and to try and forge relationships that I otherwise wouldn’t have - I think everyone knows what Dutch courage is like. While I process my thoughts and learn to let things go, it’s becoming even more apparent that alcohol and all the extra curricular bullshit I’ve been associating with it is not actually going to do me any good and it doesn’t make me happy - and what’s more important to me, the approval of people who are temporary or my inner peace and happiness knowing that I have to live with myself forever?
Enjoy your day people
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Day 1175
A bit related to mno’s post, I tend to go through phases when I get frustrated with my small life and try to join stuff and make connects; recently I applied to a public run and a cooking class at my daughter’s school. But usually nothing comes of it, if I am lucky a random chat or two, and then back to my normal pretty isolated life. But then I usually have work and kids stuff, plus my introvert need for quiet time, and I couldn’t fit much in anyway. Yet I still feel lonely. It is a strange contradiction. Anyway, must be grateful for what I do have instead of focussing on what I don’t.
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Day 45! I think I forgot to post yesterday because I slept in after a very fun night out dressing up for Halloween. Had a blast!
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I so get what u mean about physical connection and touch, im a real hugger and miss that as i dont have a partner, i thankfully get hugs from my daughter but if i didnt have her id feel alot worse about it, reading your post has inspired me too to go see some friends very soon, thank you xx
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Wow! Congratulations on ur 1 year!!!
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Sending you hugs Menno. I pray that u find the connection that u seek within ur town. Online friendships/relationships are great but its not the same as in person. I totally get that. Hope ur day improves friend 
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@DresdenLaPage congratulations on double digits josh!
@Mischa84 congratulations on ur 4 months of freedom!!! Way to go!
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Checking in on day 148 AF.
I have workmen in the house installing a new window in my studio, so I’m hiding out in the kitchen. I’m browsing through The Artist’s Way and waiting until I can get back into the room and do the tidying that I’ve been putting off for the past couple of years. I need to get back into a routine of being creative every day.
Mood wise I’ve been pretty good lately. My appetite is much better as is my sleep.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
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Day
0.44 no cbd or weed
173 no alcohol
104 no vapes or ciggs
Checking in sober
Had some gummies yesterday
Reset the clock to midnight lastnight
I feel stronger then ever 
The wifey got me some headphones just for online meetings
Shes very thoughtful
Ill be hitting up a meeting after work today
Reach out Spread love 
We all could use some
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Checking in on day 110. Love to all.
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Checking in day 421! Went to a concert and had a great time last night, but very sleepy and groggy today. Busy, fun weekend overall. No idea how I ever did any of this hungover- so grateful to just be tired on a Monday like a normal person Ready to get into the swing of the week- done training at the new job and have my first clients starting Wednesday. Looking forward to that!
Wishing you all a magnificent sober Monday 
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Happy sober Monday. Day13.
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Day 88
Just checking in
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