Didn’t have a great sleep but feel rested today. Definitely feeling the need to go back to the chiropractor. My back needs adjusting.
Wondering what happened to the predicted sunny day as grey clouds have filled the sky. However most of my day will be spent inside anyway getting business stuff sorted out.
Lots of frustration still filling my head today due to the conflict we’re having with my oldest. Becoming more aware that this may be why the first part of this post was leaning more on the disappointments lately.
It will feel good to get the business stuff behind me, and perhaps I can find the time to get some of the smaller household things that need to be completed. I find it hard to organized/prioritize things/scheduling… Maybe my wife’s side comment about me having ADD is potentially accurate, or is it the fact that there is so much stress lately… Who knows?
Either way today will be productive, joyful, and sober. Wish you all the same and more!
My building was built in 1904. Making peace with what lives in the walls is about all you can do as you said, they’re just surviving too. Idk if you have any pets, but my cats seemed to have convinced them to no longer enter my actual living space, so that’s a win
Big fat long day of working for my in law to help out. Batch cooking, tidying and cleaning etc. Squeezed in a nice walk as well this am. Was really chilly and super frosty out, the sun luminous and the sky as bright as the med sea. So beautiful. The moon is huge and bright, and the stars are out and clear in the crisp dark sky.
Day off on day 647. I made it out for groceries and now we are getting our first snow of the year. I’ll spend the day in catching up on books, writing out my planner for the new year and cooking and cleaning. A sober cheers from my cozy home to yours.
Day 11, had a good morning. Went and got autumn ears pierced at a professional shop she was nervous but did so good. Then we all had lunch and dropped me off at my apartment, I took a nap and at 3 was supposed to have a phone call with two sisters from a church. I’m waiting for them to call me back and possibly tomorrow I’ll try going to church, it’s hard trying something different but I really want to change. Tomorrow I’ll also see if my buddy wants to do a gym session and looking forward to my interview Tuesday. @Englishd congratulations on six years man
Checking in again day 9. It’s been a rough day. I’m such a people pleaser that I feel guilty when I try to set and enforce boundaries and the person gets upset. I’m craving a drink but I won’t go out to get something. Already in my pjs. Going to have ice cream instead.
Started a new job today. It was fine… A couple things I found a bit weird which I’m not going to detail just yet, I’m going to see if it continues. Or, I’ll listen to my sponsor and think “So fucking what?” the bills will be paid.
I missed the Saturday morning meeting this morning because I didn’t turn the sound back on on my phone after last nights meeting so that was a bit fucking annoying. (I say, yawning like an absolute motherbitch.) I’ve been up proper late the last few nights writing music so I probably needed the sleep.
Girl you are amazing! Saw your list of substances you are clean from and your clean time – you are so strong and I love your determination. Grateful to be on this journey with you my friend. Just saw your post with quote and YES – you should keep that upfront and remind yourself of how far you have come. So proud of you
@anon84358113 love seeing you do so well on your journey! 14 days – that is awesome my friend. congrats on your 2 week milestone. @starlight14 Ah hell nah – I’m sorry but he is a total prick Kelly. I am grateful that you were able to get stuff for your daughter and keep your composure when you saw him (I may not have). Hope you were able to spend the rest of the day resting and taking care of yourself. @karenkw I am sorry for the emotional days you have endured. Grateful that you reached out here. You are not alone in this. Ice cream is a great way to end a stressful day. Very proud of you and sending you strength in enforcing those boundaries. @sabrina80 grateful that you are already feeling calmer with the meds. Do give them some time to regulate. So grateful that didn’t give into those circling thoughts. You are strong my friend! Doing amazingly well with your 420 days AF – keep up the amazing work. @mossy91 Great to see you keeping active here. It will get easier – just hold tight and keep doing what you can to distract yourself. We just have to get through the cravings and keep moving forward attacking each craving one moment at a time. @mbwoman SO excited for you – yeah love , less than a week to go for your quadruple digit milestone Looking forward to celebrating YOU and your accomplishments. Congrats on your badge! @icebear and @rob11 sending strength as you acclimate to your new meds. @englishd Way to go! Happy official 6 years of sobriety! @mindofsobermike Change is hard but sometimes can be so rewarding. Grateful that you are trying out new things. Sending good vibes for your interview
Checking in on Saturday night
339 days free of alcohol and weed
754 days free of cigarettes
Its been a crazy few days. At first i was worn out from all the socializing. DIdn’t sleep much at all Thursday night and started a regime that is supposed to help with reducing the ovarian cyst naturally. Unfortunately, it has taken a toll on me physically and i am worn out. Other symptoms are also feeling intense.
Grateful for my family - my aunt has gotten me an appointment with a Chinese specialist for next Monday. My mom was able to secure an OB appointment for Tuesday for another opinion.
I did reach out to a few friends via text / WhatsApp… was nice to connect
Another day conquered - no urges and no giving in to our past habits.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
It’s great to see you back I’m glad you’re changing things up. When I quit back in '19, the first thing I thought I should do for some reason was go to church. I just knew I needed something different. It was such an emotional experience for me. I couldn’t hold back my tears. It was like I felt God for the first time. Hope it works out for you
So, I drank some alcohol at work today. I didn’t see it coming and ended up feeling so disgusted. It was the beginning of what turned into a pretty shitty night. I went for a sip of my water and immediately knew I had the wrong cup when it tasted sweet. I swallowed half a mouthful and thought “oops, that’s definitely not mine. But wait! Wtf is this?!” It wasn’t any pop that we have on the gun, yet it was familiar. It didn’t initially taste like alcohol, as I usually stuck to the heavier stuff, but I realized it was a hard cider. My mouth went bitter and I felt sick to my stomach. The taste on the back of my tongue was repulsive.
I wondered who’s it was. There were 6 of us. Me, my friend and 5 years sober bar manager, the chef’s girlfriend who is also sober(chef is as well), our 22yo manager, and the two 23yo guys who go out every weekend. I asked the boys. I didn’t think they would lie bc they know I don’t care whether they drink on the job or not. We’ve all been there, but they said no. I left the cup and kept lifting it to see if it was going down. It was gone by the end, and then thrown away, but I didn’t see anyone touch it. I don’t know what to think. That the boys lied to me? It was our managers? That the other one isn’t actually sober? I told my friend at the end and she didn’t know what to make of it either. She was just relieved I handled it so well. Not resetting my counter btw.
I’ve just been relaxing at home since I got out. I’d like to get some cleaning done tomorrow so I’m off to bed. Goodnight
Back to work today, starting a little run of late shifts. I’m OK. Just wish we had a few days without precipitation for a change. I want to ride my . But not in the . I guess I’m repeating myself but it’s frustrating. Well, if that’s my biggest problem life ain’t that bad at the moment. The it is for me.
The birthday dinner at my sister’s didn’t happen as she caught covid again. But I did have coffee with an old friend. Who quit smoking her joints when I’m around, but still hasn’t found a way to quit. It’s how we met some 40 years ago, smoking joints together in a coffeeshop. Whoever’s saying cannabis isn’t a serious addiction is lying.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. I will. Love.
We travelled back to London super early this morning; through the frosty countryside and silly pheasants playing chicken in the glittering roads. There’s truly something magical about everyone being asleep as we drove, and us in our warm car enjoying the green fields flash by, transitioning into industry, then bleeding into gray sleepy concrete and a rush of rubbish and earnest disregard for aesthetics in the city proper.
London is unbearable to drive around apart from pre dawn or as pub chuck out time nears. I think sexy ugly fits the bill
Anyway, I feel rejuvenated and warm from a family weekend and sometimes I wonder how much of my issues are the underwhelm of love from missing a family unit. At least I have this married into family member, a tee total, playing, gardening fanatic. We all need them in our life.
Thank u for all of ur valuable shares here on TS. They have always helped me.
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I’m glad you’re changing things up. When I quit back in '19, the first thing I thought I should do for some reason was go to church. I just knew I needed something different. It was such an emotional experience for me. I couldn’t hold back my tears. It was like I felt God for the first time. Hope it works out for you 
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playing, gardening fanatic. We all need them in our life. 