I was the exact way, I even posted a question on here about it cause I just felt horrible no matter how much sleep I got. It got a lot better around the 2 month mark. Hang in there 
6 Likes
2 Likes
61
15 Likes
Day 420 af
Social media detox: on hold atm 
Day 3 of anxiety medication. I feel the side effects this stuff has, but Iāll push through. I know it can take up to 2 weeks until you start to feel it, but today I had a pretty good start tbh. I still slept way too long but I think this will get better eventually. I was grocery shopping and felt a little better while doing so. Now Iām calmer also with a calmer mind.
The next high stress day could be tuesday when I have to go back to my Dr to get my blood checked and get a 24h bloodpressure monitor. I hate both, but it doesnāt help. I want to do that now, all of it, even if that means that I maybe need meds for my bloodpressure also. So what? I donāt want to damage my body, this is my home. I want it to be and feel good as long as Iām here.
I was struggling for 1-2 days with alcohol and thoughts circling around it. Today Iām safe again. I know it would only make everything worse, and drinking while Iām on Escitalopram is a very very bad idea.
The social media, wellā¦I try to not misuse it. But I canāt reduce it to zero right now.
Thatās all for now, have a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
24 Likes
I have been feeling lot better in the last few days. I know itās due to a not healthy coping mechanism, but at the moment I donāt care, Iām just glad I got myself back, itās like coming out from under the water. I started to read again, did some errands and chores and kinda enjoy the days. I still procrastinate meditation though, although I know it would be really helpful. Iām grateful for this thread as it helps me feeling grounded, focus on my days and see them from a different point of view, and be more mindful on a daily basis.
20 Likes
Sheās the sweetest cat! 
I have two tortoise shell cats. The other one is full of attitude! 
Iāve been journaling. I donāt really have anyone to talk to other than my therapist. Thatās part of the problem. I feel so alone, even when Iām with people.
7 Likes
Checking in on the morning of day 897. Having a quiet coffee and listening to something scritching in the walls. I live in a very old house, and have to make peace with coexisting with the mice, I guess. They are just trying to survive as well. In the first week of new depression/anxiety medication (solidarity @Sabrina80!) and not sure what to make of it yet. Time will tell.
Have a wonderful sober Saturday, friends 
24 Likes
Saw this today! Not 3 years sober yet, but inching towards 1,000 days. I donāt post as much as i used to, but I read daily. This place saved me.
25 Likes
Damn! That sucks. Sounds like itās time to register his behavior at the FRO threadš” sorry you are having to deal with this and people who stare at you when you wear a face mask can FRO too.
5 Likes
Checking in on day 136. Appreciate all the folks here, such a wonderful community!
20 Likes
I just want to scream at him GET YOUR EFFING ACT TOGETHER, what more does he want me to do for him i already do everything apart from spend the actual time with her for him
4 Likes
Yes, thatās true. Healing on a whole new level. For a very long time I tried to do everything on my own, I thought I can do that alone, others can too right? Seems I canāt, and I donāt have to. There is help, and now Iāll get that.
Solidarity with you as well @icebear , weāll get better 
5 Likes
Checking in on day 242!!
āāā
Clean and Sober!!!
āāā
21 Likes
Day 1071,
Lazy day, slept in. Had to cancel to go watching my sonās soccer match in a long time. He called right after the match, really enjoyed that. I need to get used to my medication. Geus Iām in the same boat as @Sabrina80. First day went really well, so I was like āif this is allā, but bit tired now and need to watch my boundaries. I wanted to go to gym tomorrow morning but I donāt think I must stress my body to much right now and listen to it, a walk will do as well.
Greetz 
20 Likes
Although itās been a few weeks I didnāt get my chip until last night. And we all know itās not official until you get your chip 
35 Likes
Day 114
Morning check in.
Running arens this morning.
Gotta go to my aunts funeral today. Iām not close to either sides of my family so itās always weird and akward around them. But my dad called me this morning, if anything i want to be there for him. I have to constantly fight that feeling of, Iām so selfish, why arenāt i close to my family. Then i have to stop that thought.
My phone number has been the same for many many years. They havenāt invested in me, and i havenāt in them.
At what point can you be 100% content and appreciate what you have and bring to the table. You are so blessed and have so many friends other family you ARE CLOSE WITH. TAKE A DEEP BREATH, SMILE, AND APPRECIATE LIFE E.
Now LETāS GO TO STARBUCKS AND GET SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME HAPPY.
17 Likes
My plan yesterday was to start a very easy workout, but wasnāt able to. I take my meds in the early evening so I donāt have to deal with side effects the whole day.
I felt sick and my stomach was pretty messed up. Today: all fine.
We need to be patient with us now I guess 
5 Likes
Checking In
Day 650
Today is a work day. Almost called in bcuz i was soo tired upon waking up. But didnt. Im here now and the day has been okay so far. No complaints. Have a few things to do once home. So it will be a busy evening. Just grateful for my recovery and how far Ive come. It has taken many, many years to get to this point. Grateful for all that I have today
22 Likes
Fantastic! Congratulations on 6 years @Englishd! 
Thank you for your awesome contributions to the forum.
Youāre right, getting that chip makes it official.
The celebration on the day I get my chip is so much better and realistic than my actual anniversary date. Oh how I look forward to meetings the last week of the month.
8 Likes