Bad cravings. My emotions are raw and intense. I don’t feel like I have anyone I can talk to. I’ve been dating someone but that’s turned into a source of stress. I feel like my kindness is being taken advantage of. His life is a mess and I’ve been trying to be supportive but it’s like he’s not even trying to improve his situation.
I know drinking won’t fix any of that. I just want to check out for a while.
And I’m stressing about new job offer. It’s a big step up in responsibility and I’m full of self doubt. The pros of taking it definitely outweigh the cons, except for my horrible insecurities. I worry I won’t be able to do the job. I need to give them an answer tomorrow.
Just wanted to jump on and say thanks to everyone in the community for help keeping me accountable and inspiring me do not only stay AF but also to be better as a person day to day! ODAAT Team.
Day 40. Productive day. Had a good get-together with my sponsor. The plan is to approach the 4th step with a focus on why I went back out. I haveva few ideas on the why so I need to do some deep searching so it doesn’t happen again. Have an awesome night my friends!
12 years no smoking!! Hoy smokes This is amazing friend and your 265 AF days – totally crushing the sober life! Sorry to hear about your new car. Hope they fixed the issue and you will have a safe vehicle.
Karen I am wishing you well with all the stress you have going on right now! It’s hard when you don’t feel you have someone in your real life to talk to when the going is rough. You can vent here and reach out and I’m glad you are doing it and protecting your sobriety, but I know it isn’t the same. Keep strong anyway. You deserve happiness and peace of mind . I do hope all goes well with the job offer. Keep us posted! Love and strength to you.
Checking in on day 162 AF
Wow who would have thought? It has not been easy but I’m here. 5 plus months sober. The changes that have occurred in my life have been small but huge. I set boundaries with people daily, I feel mentally clearer than I have in months, I’m dating someone that has all the traits of an excellent partner. I’m having to Examine areas of my life I put on the back burner.
Life for the most part is good. There are days I’m in pain and some not so much. I’m proud of the changes I’ve made and the progress I’ve made. Everything that is good in my life is because I’m sober. I’m sober because of this community and everyone that is a part of it.
Sleep well everyone! #soberlife
You seem to be moving forward and doing the next best thing for your recovery. This includes being honest. I enjoy going to church service on Sundays with my children. I enjoy the message delivered by the pastor as well as the fellowship and praise music.
I have faith you will go to Church when you are ready. May I suggest possibly watching an on line service of the church you attend to go to or another church service…to get familiar with the service structure.
Today was a good day. I slept til almost noon! I was supposed to work this morning but they called people off yesterday and even though I need the money, there wasn’t much to make.
I got to some of that cleaning I wanted to. Scrubbed the kitchen floor on my hands and knees so that should be good for a while Trying to organize some things before I get out the Christmas decorations (not that I have a lot). I figured, even though I’m worried about making it through the winter financially, at least I can make my house look nicer and feel more comfortable to be in. There’s many forgotten projects hiding in corners that can come to good use when I can’t afford to go out and do things.
Anyway. Hoping to get tired at a reasonable hour tonight so I can wake up easier. I have this weird feeling that I have something to do tomorrow but completely forgot what it is. Maybe my daughter knows. Or maybe it’s nothing. Yay surprise! Have a great 24hrs everyone!
Went to my nephew’s 21st bday party last night. It was a small family gathering, nothing crazy. Ppl were drinking, but there was no drama. I had water and a cup of coffee. We danced at the end of the night and I actually had a good time. Yes, you can still have fun without booze. Went to the store today with the wifey, watched football, and bout to crash. It’s back to the grind tomorrow, and my eldest is back to school. I hope y’all have a goodnite! Take care. ODAAT
Thank you
My car got fixed on the road, thanks to the other AA (the yellow flashy van AA in Britain)
Some fuel inlet thingy wasn’t assembled correctly. So no matter how good german car engineering claims to be, quality control can still let you down!
Hit one week today 🩷 my poor little guy…my patience has been nonexistent I feel so angry and exhausted and emotional. But like I told my best friend today, at the end of the day—I’m still a better mom because I am completely sober. I also made sure to apologize to him for being snappy. It just makes me sad because my son is severely autistic/nonverbal so I’m not sure how much he really comprehends. But I know he understands energy. I love on him all the time and tell him constantly how much he means to me so I know that he knows his mama loves him so much. I just can’t wait for it to get better, my emotions. He deserves the best of me.
I at least got him to the park today and then drove him around in his remote controlled car outside when we got home.
I’m looking forward to him getting back to school tomorrow after a long break for both of our sakes
What a weekend. Zero complaints! In Mesquite, Nevada Saturday night and then down in Las Vegas Sunday for the chiefs vs raiders game. Great weekend, good game, happily sober!
Having my coffee on my day off. Not quite sure what to do today as I’d like to be outside but I see the rain slowly changing to sleet. Let’s take my time and think of some stuff to do. I dreamt about clearing out a garage. Not mine but it was my stuff, including the rolled up carpet that was on the floor in my room when I last lived with my mum some 45 years ago .
Anyway. I am sure I’ll remain sober and clean today and I expect the same from all of you. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love. Pic is a reminder of warmth and travels and friends and kitties.
Nighttime check in 648.
Today was my seven year marriage anniversary with my husband. We’ve been together for 18ish. We spent it how we normally spend days off; cleaning, relaxing and shopping for the week and ending the night with a movie. We cooked Thanksgiving sides for dinner and a tiny lobster tail as our anniversary treat.
We also decided to stay married for another year at least. It may sound silly but on our anniversary we talk about it. We love each other and we know that at any moment one of us could decide to go. We decided to stick with it today.
Just like sobriety you could always choose differently. Today I choose to keep trying to love better, both my husband and myself through sobriety. Keep choosing.
This is amazing friend and your 265 AF days – totally crushing the sober life! Sorry to hear about your new car. Hope they fixed the issue and you will have a safe vehicle.
Trying to organize some things before I get out the Christmas decorations (not that I have a lot). I figured, even though I’m worried about making it through the winter financially, at least I can make my house look nicer and feel more comfortable to be in. There’s many forgotten projects hiding in corners that can come to good use when I can’t afford to go out and do things.
Have a great 24hrs everyone!
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