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I thixed button mapping on my ‘‘Sobriety Portal’’ 
Now it’s working correctly. All buttons doing it’s job. It also has backwards buttons to go back and to not get lost. Main idea is to give sort of rewind through all the journey. Ofcourse I hope to add more in the future, but for Today, let’s keep it to the point.
''One Button at a Time" 
Day 77 … still sober
Lots of work making all those buttons work! Congrats on 63 zzz, keep going.
568, checking in.
Day 7/8
At a meeting right now as I work. Good listens to strengthen the heart.
Will eat well, drink water
Run and gym later
Early bed and recovery sleeping. My sleep is Soooo good lately. Loving it.
Monday is always a bit gritty, but friction makes smooth surfaces. Keep scrubbing.
Day 2. Listened to sober podcast. Drank coffee. Posted items. Feeling physically unwell but taking the right steps. Looking at AA groups to go to. Looking at group therapy sessions. Journalled. Booked therapy session 1 to 1 for tomorrow. Booked Doctors appointment. Just slowly seeing what I need to do for my health today. Messaged a friend I am meeting on Weds about my drinking so she knows where I am and I don’t have to explain it on Weds. Feel like I need to take as many pre-cautionary steps.
Good luck to everyone today on a Sober Monday.
Day 1,263 clean and sober today if I did the math right lol. Been awhile since I’ve been here and I hope all is well with everyone. Life got pretty dark again for awhile but I believe I’ve found the right medication combination to help alleviate my depression etc. I hope everyone has an amazing day, love you guys 
Hey buddy!!! WOW is it great to see you back. We were all worried about you 
On an unrelated note, I’m checking in on day 1261. I hope everyone has a good one!
Good to be back @Nordique!! I’m trying to figure out my sobriety days lol. Wasn’t I like 2 days ahead of you? Or 1 something like that. I’m glad you’re still here bro, well done!!
It’s great to see you Robbie. You’ve been missed. A lot. 
150 days - sober
2 months - intermittent fasting (with some cheat days here and there during neck pain, last 5 days back on 16:8 track)
5 days - meditations, morning if possible plus before sleep (guided, using Insight Timer)
Still no working out, no running. Maybe today…
Awwww thank you Mno I’ve missed you all too!
Thanks man! It’s great to have you back.
Yea I am 99% sure you were 2 days ahead of me so that would put you at 1,263.
Awesome bro thank you!
Yeap that was quite of a trip
Great job on doing IF for 2 months!! I did intermittent fasting 16:8 20:4 for 6 months December - June. Helped me drop 30 lbs and go from a 44 waist to a 36. It most definitely works!!! I’m Jump starting my weight loss again starting December 15th. Trying to drop another 30 by the summer doing the same method but adding 3 to 4 days a week of weight training. Keep up the good work!
Day 116,
Just checking in. Kind of a odd feeling this morning. I’m feeling a little uncertain but i’m appreciative of what i have. My family is on the mend, so i’m thankful for that. My heart (for Pvc’s i’m having) worries me, but i’m doing everything i can with that. With everything that’s happened, we had to postpone our cancun trip, i really hope it still happens 6 weeks from now. We’ll see. My job situation (do i stay or do i go) is still up in the air. I have alot to consider and pray about. In the meantime, i’m going to listen to a good book and good music today. Just wanted to check in.
Day 455
Still showing 2 lines on my covid test but feel alot better, i have lots of excess energy…ive been dancing in my living room with my music on lol my mind is running wild, think i have cabin fever…my spirits and confidence are up… im feeling like changing something about my appearance but i dont know what…
So good to see you Rob
Love the numbers.
You been missed.
So happy to hear you been taking care of yourself.
I have to watch my stress levels and make sure I don’t have a nervous breakdown… Just been feeling under pressure lately to continue my sobriety and stay ontop of my life. Pressure mainly to live up to other’s expectations socially when I feel like some time out My cousine who I’ve just met for the first time is visiting atm; a good friend of mine hosted an eat out somewhere to farewell his visiting parents tonight and they’re all foreign but me (language barrier); a girl I like didn’t reciprocate interest but we still encounter each other; a different girl who’s endured trauma but doesn’t want to see a psychologist needs help and I’m one of the few in her life; increased stress is resulting in a lack of appetite which is bringing back bad memories/feelings of an eating disorder I used to have in my childhood due to stress; I’m still unsure what to do with my life in general… I just want some time out or therapy or something instead of being pushed into all of this responsibility outside of my control, which at the beginning of my sobriety was fine, but now with the initial sobriety confidence boost receding, keeping up that energy can be draining…
Perhapse that’s one of the reasons intimacy isn’t easy for me, as I’m afraid of responsibility and letting others down? I feel inadequate? And yet others don’t view me that way… But only because they don’t know when I’m in a good mood and when I’m going through something and need more space… It’s not necessarily their fault. People can sense unease if it gets noticeable enough though and that’s a turn-off.
Is this a case of learning to say no? Embracing discomfort? Time? Exposure? Just figuring it out?
The ironic thing is, I know that just retiring to my room and browsing aimlessly on my phone, feeling down, likely eventually relapsing or whatever I may do won’t make me feel any better. Worse if anything.
So what’s at the root of my feelings? Anxiety? And what do I need to do? Therapy is not an option right now as I’m no longer registered, and over 25, so not only would it take many months before that ball could get rolling, but it’s kinda out of my budget as a student without the under 25 healthcare subsidy.
I let my last uni term go this year, paid but didn’t even touch it as I wasn’t in the psychological space to do so whilst figuring myself out… And that despite the topic ironically being highly fascinating and relevant: learned helplessness…
I’ve always been alone up until now due to my childhood trauma and persisting addictions, and wonder if I’ll ever find a partner now even if these are improving? I may not be awkward, but am not your confident flirter either.
I’m growing so much but still not ‘free’ if there is such a thing. And I’m afraid of failure.
But I want to push through so much! I know I can handle this and it’ll pass if I give it time spent wisely… Maybe just start meditating and practicing mindfulness again for more clarity when my mind is cluttered…
Much love sober legends
