Day 125
(4 setbacks)
Just checking in.
Really really good read.
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Day 431 af
I fell asleep at 5 am last night and slept the most time until now, 8 pm. Holy cow. On top of the side effects lucky me has to deal with the period too. I look and feel like an exploded chicken 
My mood is good tho, Iām annoyed but still optimistic. I know I still have to be patient. I didnāt know 2 weeks would feel that long.
Iām having a coffee now, inhaled 4 oat cookies and, after showering, Iāll check my tiny freezer for something with more nutrients than cookies.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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@Mindofsobermike congrats on 3 weeks 
and a successful interview 
@Frank68 congrats on healthy bloodwork 
@JazzyS thank you 
when I first opened it this morning it was 1212.11, I hovered for a while but gave up the wait 
the migraine isnāt quite as bad today.
@MrFantastik welcome congrats on 4 days
@EFountains congrats on 15 months
@ForrestKump welcome congrats on 171 days
@HolySquid congrats on 9 months
@NJR9876 welcome congrats on 3 days
@Mira_D sending strength 
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@Jules000 sorry youāve struggled today sending strength š©µ
1213 days no alcohol.
678 days no cocaine.
193 days no vape.
Slow start but eventually got through my morning routine. Had to wait in for a delivery, it came around lunchtime.
I finished a chapter of the book Iām reading. I also did my ake walk.
cPTSD is firing some very bad and painful memories at me today, been meditating more to stay grounded.
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I also battle cPTSD and am so hopeful seeing your clean numbers 
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@smootie8220 great that you have the support at home. It is harder for those that donāt deal with addiction to know the struggle and how much work goes into staying sober. I am glad that you are here and are planning to go to a meeting ā surrounding yourself around supportive people that understand really does make the journey easier. Wishing you luck with the gym or home workouts. I relied a lot on Apps for HITT workouts or Youtube. Just keep going strong
@kareness How are you feeling now? Hope the extra meeting does help.
@acromouse way to hit the 2 week milestone 
Keep going strong
@efountains Congrats on your 15 months. I do love the āfive hundred times 24 hoursā so impressive! Keep up the great work
@forrestkump Welcome to the community John. Grateful to have you here with us ā this is a wonderful community to be a part of. Congrats on your sober time!
@rockstar24777 sorry that you are dealing with Covid and will miss your guitarist play. Hopefully they will have another performance soon.
@rosacando sorry you are dealing with so much ā sending you healing energy to get well soon.
@holysquid Way to go with your 9 months! Woot woot - Keep up the excellent work
@bomdhil How are you doing Thomas? Been a while since we have heard from you ā hope you have recovered from your sickness.
@njr9876 Great work on day 3. Our sober journeys are ours alone. It is unfortunate when our loved ones or close friends can not see the damage alcohol is inflicting on us or see us having a problem. No one knows you like you. Grateful to have you here with us and for you staying the course of sobriety. 
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@chosen2001 Whats going on Chris? Anything you want to talk about?
@mira_d SO sorry my friend. That has got to be a lot to think through and process. I hear on you toxic people and some have a way of controlling the thoughts of our loved ones. Sending you strength and comfort 
@jules000 glad that you are starting to feel hopeful. Sorry that the day started off as a struggle. We are here for you when you need to process the feelings /urges.
@catmancam oooh that would have been a super catch LOL ā¦ Sorry your cPTSD is acting up friendā¦ hope the meditating helps
@binx Hey lovely - how are you doing?
Checking in on Wednesday afternoon
Been an off day. Didnāt sleep well last night and had a hard time getting up and moving today. Need to run some errands and hoping to get a shower in and the strength to get those done.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
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Wishing you strength. It helped me to do as much research on gaslighting and narcissistic mothers and people that I could. Books\Podcasts etc, educate your brain even if your heart isnāt ready to take it on. Eventually it will filter thru that this isnāt your fault, despite the hurt that will remain. Itās so hard and I send you strength. 
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Thank you soo much mean more than you think to have all the support and kindness
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Checking in
Day 661
Wow am i ever behind on this thread 
i really like to read everyones posts and i fell behind there. Will catch up shortly.
Ive had a very relaxing day! Honestly havent done much. But i did sleep better after taking my sleep med last night. I havent slept so soundly like that in ages. I played around on my new chrome book this morning and then did a little clothes shopping with a gift card i received for my bday. Got 2 items and both were 60% off! I love being a thrifty shopper 
i did some cleaning in the apartment and made some appts for my son. All n all today has been really nice! I dont feel that urge to have to be doing something all the time. Its strange, but i like it! Not sure what ill do now. Maybe some self care
Health wise i have actually done really well at eating healthier foods and with proper portions. I havent late night snacked or binged. So thats great. I didnt workout today tho but for sure will tmrw. Am thinking of making Wednesdays my day off from the gym.
Recovery wise i am actually doing pretty good. I started praying more and connecting to my HP. I had a good cry today while praying. I guess i just needed to release all my emotion and worries onto my HP. I actually also feel really disgusted by the thought of drugs. Which is a good thing of course. I dont crave or get triggered to use and in fact really despise what drugs and alcohol do. Im in a good place recovery wise but dont want to get complacent. Its still important to keep on top of things.
Anyway, hope everyone is doing okay today! Hugs TS fam 
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1800 days ago i started my journey and i did not regret it one second. Grateful for 1800 days sober. Best decision. If i can do it you can do it as well with the help of this fabulous community. Thanks to everybody who was part of my 1800 days
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Checking in sober.
Today has been a better day. Iām glad I didnāt give into the temptation to drink yesterday.
OFDAAT
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#ThrowbackThursday
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Day 4
Had diner with family this evening, everybody was drinking wine and my mouth was watering big time.
Driving back home I had time to reflect on my feelings and craving. Social events in the evening are more tempting, especially diners and especially when Iām tired. I used to drink alcohol as an upper/stimulant to keep me alert and engaged. I need to prioritize my sleep to avoid getting so tired that I want to drink.
Thatās also why I prefer lunch dates, thereās less temptation to drink and I have the evening for myself, to unwind.
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Day 327.
Itās 1 am and I canāt sleep. I still feel like death warmed up and tomorrow Iām flying. I really donāt like flying, but Iām looking forward to sleeping in my own bed.
Iām also quite upset and disappointed about certain things on here. For some time Iāve been taking a step back from TS, but after tonightā¦ itās gonna be a larger step.
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Impressive 
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Wowzers! Well done and Iām glad youāre a part of this community still after all this time. Love to see that. 
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Day
210 no alcohol
131 no vapes or ciggs
0.88 no form if weed
I only have 0.88 no weed but im ok. Atleast im not drunk walking the streets like i used to do.
My wife is happy i came this far. And comming this far i know i have to quit for me. I will always be around pot and alcohol. I can get both at any time. My problem with pot is revolved around me and my weaknesses.
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Checking in on Day 253!
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Blessed!!!
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Feeling much better after attending the extra meeting today. My headās not all over the place as much, thanks for asking!
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Checking in
Day 661
Its late (8pm) and i just sat down to eat. This evening has been hard. Just super rushed. I put a frozen lasagna in the oven to cook at 430pm thinking it would be a nice easy supper. 2 hours laterā¦ at 630pm it was done butā¦ it was absolutely disgusting and inedible. Idk what went wrong with it. It took forever to cook when the box said 1 hour max 
So we couldnt eat it. Ended up giving my son a quick bath before bed instead, gave him his meds at 730pm and then had an omelet and hasbrowns for supper that hubby made instead. I felt super overwhelmed and frustrated tonight. I was starrrrving also and trying not to binge eat before supper bcuz i was getting overwhelmed. Butā¦ i am proud of myself bcuz i managed to slow myself down a bit by telling myself out loud to āSlow Downā and it worked. It reminded me to take some deep breaths and just pause when agitated. Now im feeling much better Hope everyone is having a good night!!
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