Aw man, I’m so sorry. That sounds like a right nightmare! But the cyborg hand idea sounds cool
2 Likes
Another day sober had a chat to my sponsor last nite we have agreed to
Start the steps in the newyear as I’m going away for Christmas and newyear looking forward to going back though the program hope everyone is well
15 Likes
Thank you for putting things into perspective.
I was so focused on the events - appointment - or my feelings - confused - I completely forgot about the behavioural part of the equation: not using!
Thanks again. I’m so much better now.
4 Likes
You get to the cyborg part, definitely post the pics 
Wish you the best. Illness and injury can be a total drag on mental health.
3 Likes
This crazy human mind can be a handful 
Hang in there, at some point the sun will start shining for you again.
Do you have something to do to distract you a bit?
4 Likes
Im playing Skyrim now. And checking the forum. Trying to calm down.
4 Likes
*Day 1911 
Need a kick to prove myself I’m still worth of my profile name. Still sober but not walking much. And to say in Dutch: “mijn mentale staat is niet om naar huis te schrijven”
Short translation: I’m not feeling great mentally.
So…I need to go out today! I must.
Also started a new way of journaling with a diary filled with questions to ask myself and pinpoint how I feel and what helped and helped not.
So today? Walk, work, dentist and fill in that journal at the end of the day.
And maybe I need to check here a bit more often as well. So I promiss you a picture made during my walk of today as an extra push for myself to go outside
Have a good day all (and wish me good luck at the dentist please
)
29 Likes
Well done and let’s go for another 24 
3 Likes
Good freaking job mate. 
3 Likes
Goodluck at the dentist. Never a fun time. Bad mental day here too. We got this though 
3 Likes
Yes, just read about yours. The only thing we can change is our own reaction about how to deal with it. So I’m going to push myself outside. Do you have any plans? Ps and venting as we just did helps too isn’t it
3 Likes
Yea venting has been very helpful. Plans for the day? Im going to do some uber eats driving. I made some good money the other day working in the AM. Then, the car needs to go into the shop for the rest of the day so i will be stuck at 
home. Maybe I will get my ass up and vacuum but to be honest i will prob play skyrim til i pass out. OH and i cant forget i have a chiropractor appointment at 230pm. I will have to get a ride somehow.
4 Likes
I loved hiking Skyrim. The snow, the mountains. 
4 Likes
I also just downloaded shadow of war 
these 2 games should keep me distracted til the wife gets off work. I hate being stuck at home!
3 Likes
Thank you rob, I truly do understand what you mean. And I have prayed on it and do understand it to some extent. My problem is these guys no nothing about me, so personally I don’t feel they have no reason not to put me through to the CNA classes. I could see if I was in Tupper lake where I had burnt some bridges. But for them to flat out tell me they won’t even put me through the to the next classes where I can get refreshed and take my time just definitely did upset me a little bit. But like you said the serenity prayer is key here. Maybe discussing some of my addiction and stuff in the interview scared them a little, I’m sure they very well may have a reason. But I still don’t think they shouldn’t put me through to the next classes.
7 Likes
Hey all, checking in on day 1276. I hope everybody has a good one!
20 Likes
Day 51 
Have a great day everyone 
23 Likes
Day 1,278 clean and sober, day 7 no vape.
Boss had me come in yesterday even though I’m still positive for Covid. A lot of other coworkers were positive too and were told to come back as well. It was a little rough but overall I’m really glad to be out of the house and amongst others.
I hope everyone has an amazing day, love you guys 
23 Likes
Just playing devil’s advocate here, but would being antisocial be so bad? If antisocial just means not wanting to spend time with other people? So long as you aren’t rude or mean about it (which obviously you aren’t). But as most humans are naturally social, maybe there are certain groups or ways of socialising you don’t get along with? Maybe you don’t want to hang out with coworkers? Or maybe not a big group? Or maybe not at a house? In what ways or with whom do you enjoy company? My husband would rather poke himself in the eye than spend any time with people from work. I quite enjoy doing stuff with colleagues, but get totally drained from a gathering of more than about 5 people. It is ok to have feelings like this. Not everyone is extroverted and that is ok.
8 Likes