Wow! Congratulations on ur bonus!!!
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Thank you, Dana!
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What a long day! Feels so good to finally relax. I had an unusual amount of energy this morning and was able to get a lot more organized/dusted. I managed a half hour nap before getting ready for the party.
Got there at 5, left around 7. With everyone else. It was pretty lame but the food was really good, except their delicious ālookingā stuffed mushrooms that tasted like nothing. A shame bc they looked sooo good. I was runner up in guessing how many M+Ms were in a snow globe, which didnāt mean anything 
I decided to finally get the tree up when we got home, which included moving a lot of heavy things. It took a lot out of me and halfway thru decorating I got in a āthis just needs to get doneā mood. Forced myself to do everything I wanted to before I sat down. Iām glad I did bc even tho it was making me irritable, I feel accomplished now. Iāll finish whatās left tomorrow.
Iām grateful I still havenāt had any cravings. Even when things get me stressed and it wrecks my mood, Iād rather feel bad like that than how I would if I drank, bc the feeling is temporary. I just know, 100%, that alcohol will never be the answer to anything. Cold hard facts. Stay sober friends 
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Checking in 663 and its my husbands 50th birthday. He is MUCH older than I am 
, jk Iāll be there in 5ish years. He was not looking forward to it so we played it cool with Indian food out and Godzilla in the theater. He went out to his local bar after the movie and I stayed in with snacks and TV. Iām grateful he doesnāt ask me to join him.
Iām feeling strong and festive for the holidays but how is it I have never learned to say no thank you to invites? A co-worker invited me to a holiday get together at her house that I would love to pass on. How do you nicely say you donāt want to attend something? I acted interested when she gave me the invite because I have that ingrained deer-in-the-headlights politeness. I know that if I keep saying no people will stop inviting me and honestly that I my aim. Maybe Iām just antisocial?
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Iām really getting into this lifestyle of early nights and early days. I guess itās age. And a bit of lifestyle. Glad I was offered the possibility to only work early shifts. Much healthier this way. We are diurnal animals after all.
For now itās my holiday. Itās a pity itās still pitch black night outside. Well. Nine days till the solstice. Something to look forward to. Getting up this early forces me to do useful stuff to do as well. Iām not sure what yet. Will have another coffee and think about it.
No drugs or booze will be involved, thatās for sure. Nothing got ever better from using or drinking. It only postponed facing and dealing with my problems and gave me another problem on top of those I already had: addiction. Never again. Have as good a day as you can friends. Sober and clean. I will. Love.
@anon84358113 A full month lady! Yay You! Huge congrats!
@G-Stryfe Maybe next time just pour the bottle in the sink. No full wine bottles talking to you. Iām glad you recognise the bs your brain is telling you. Sobriety isnāt the magic cure for our problems but it does make it possible to work on them. Good days and bad ones. Glad youāre here.
@TrustyBird You donāt seem antisocial at all Emilie. Talking of myself: part of me is avoidant and itās a pretty strong part of me. Been working on it for years now and I love social interaction but 100% on my own conditions. Maybe (just maybe) you could try and find out what exactly it is you donāt like about gatherings like that. Be you and do you always. 
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Thank u Jazzy 
Thatās so sweet of u 
ā¦ Yeah there must be a day to start with
Hopefully this time I can keep it up 
BTW I like ur posts on the meme thread 
Keep being positive 
Happy birthday to you 
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Day 10 in the bank.
Longest Iāve gone in a year or so.
Today was the first day Iāve had some cravings. Today I had those nagging thoughts of fuck it just start again another day.
Today instead, I checked in here, read some posts and took in some wisdom.
Today I prioritised my health.
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Day 6 6.35 am keeping up the good work. Just about to go swimming before I go to work.Big test this afternoon,I have to see my lawyer about my divorce, normally I would go straight for a drink because of the stress, today Iām intending to go to the gym after, giving myself an aim to keep my mind off the drink
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This is the third day in a row Iām waking up with a headache. They usually pass during the day but they are no fun.
I have a doctorās appointment today Iām not looking forward to and I feel a lot of resentment building up in me. Iām not sure what to do about it. Afraid it might lead to a binge.
Yesterday I was in a social gathering where I feel I talked too much - which is often the case - and now I feel bad about it, which also is a reason I feel unstable and confused today.
Anyways, I think I could use a few kind words
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Day 7
Checking inā¦
The little change in supplements is realy calming the addictive mind and helping through cravings.
Heard a lot of inspiring podcasts.
Had a virtual RR meeting yesterday.
Much love
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Hi Mike, thatās some great news. A totally understand your feelings about the situation with the hospital not wanting to cooperate with the quick route. It would be hurting my ego etc with thoughts like who the f*ck do they think they are etc. But what if you would place yourself in their shoes, have they some reason to hesitate to hire you? I sure would understand if my next employer would hesitate to hire me, in the last years I dropped out mostly within 6-9 months when I started a new job, before hitting the breaks fully to work in my self. Just like you my background is luckily still clean. I havenāt worked for 1,5 years now besides some voluntary work. As said I get your feelings as I can feel them right now, but wouldnāt it be time for some serenity prayer. Wouldnāt the long route (taking the classes) be giving you more time and the possibility to refresh yourself and to come prepared. Just my two cents.
p.s. this is not about the other people they hire. Turn it to positive, they say you need to prove yourself. Maybe they are a bit clumsy with their expression or your head makes something out of it thatās not just there (mine would) and they mean take your time Mike, we have our concerns and we want you the take your time and take care of yourself.
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The addicted part of our brains will take any possibility to try and talk us back into using. Happy: celebrate by using! Sad: console ourselves and forget it all by using! Feeling in between: letās bring some sauce into our lives by using! Itās always and all lies. Never again. Iām glad youāre here with us all as we are in this together. One day at a time and all that. Huge congrats on 20 days. Youāre doing so much better than you think
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Day 37. Iāve had a few up and downs but had a conversation with my Dad and I feel really good. Heās so smart and always tells me what i need to hear.
I am starting to realise that I am who I am and it doesnāt matter what others think of me, I am trying my best to make friends as sober person. I know that I am a good person, I donāt hurt people, I take care of my Grandpa and I love my family.
I am really trying with my studies, it has been hard to motivate myself, but I am getting better at it and I am setting the foundations for my future, so I can have a family of my own.
Wishing you all the very best
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Checking in early on day 153. Canāt sleep. Again. But this is familiar territory so Iāll handle it. Happy Tuesday, everyone!
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Morning 
Today itās sunny and I had my coffee which means I can start my day 
Now I will read my book The Alchemist 
ā¦ it has been ages and I havenāt finished it
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Have a peaceful day
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Checking in. Clean of all my addictions for another day.
Not a good mental health day for me. I am absolutely freaking out about every little thing. All i can think of is death and dying ans how it will happen.
Today/tonight sucks complete a$$
Hope everyone has a good tuesday.
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For the life of meā¦ I canāt figure out what Iām lookinh at? 
Itās rehab for my damaged medianus nerve. It was cut on the end of 2019. Surgery was unsuccesfull. Somehow they did not noticed the main Medianus Dex nerve was cut. I was told that everything is good to go. After about few months I returned to other doctor and he saw that there can be big problem. Later one of the bests neurosurgeons made test and said that we need to do surgery ASAP or I can loose my hand. Few days later Corona Lockdowns started on the day my surgery was planned and the surgery was postponed. 11 months I lived with totally cut nerve. 2020 next surgery was done, but the prognose was that is almost inposible to fully recover. I am still recovering to this day. Living handicapped in a way, but itās alright. Some people have worse problems.
Maybe one day I will get one of those Robotic hands. I would be officially a Cyborg 
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