Yes we are Jasmine. I think about the times I went out and drank thinking I was having a good, only to wake up the next morning not feeling well or having remorse and embarrassment over my behavior from the night before.
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I was just asking a qs about something. Like many people do when it comes to new medication. I fully intend to listen to my doctor, I also no not to believe everything I see on the Internet. I know my body may act differently then others so I still intended on working through it and seeing what happens. I also did ask her questions about the medicine before but, still like I see many others on here do I was curious what others may of experienced. I donāt think thatās over thinking things I think itās being a human and wondering about something. But yeah thanks for the advice
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Second sober check in today. Just got home from dinner. We ended up talking for 2,5 hours. Ended with a hug. I really like him and donāt want to screw this up like I always do.
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Evening Check In
Day 667
Today was pretty good overall. Had some moments were i felt super over stimulated due to noise and activity around me, but managed alright. Im feeling very disconnected to recovery tho. Its not necessarily a bad thing as im in no danger to relapse or anything. But im really not doing much recovery related things. Im not much on here anymore (which is my biggest support group), not really doing any daily readings, no meetings or anything, although I do still pray. I dont think I need to be worried. I think im just enjoying life with life being so busy. But at the same time, things are good in my life because im clean and sober. Sooo i probably should make more of an effort to participate in recovery related things. Anyone experience this feeling and what are your thoughts on this? 
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Hi everyone. Iāve been talking on here a lot about my physical ailments. However, I havenāt been talking about something else going on in my life. Iām struggling with these vivid memories of a past event that happened to me and my twin years ago. I wont disclose any details that may upset others but it was life threatening and extremely scary for both of us. I recently opened up about it to my bible study girls but also to a mentor at one of my early sobriety meetings about 3-4 weeks ago. It was a very complicated situation for a young teen to understand. Even as an adult its difficult to understand why this happened. I see the event unraveling all over again at random times during the day in my head. Itās very distressing. I notice myself squeezing my eyes shut when the memory comes into my mind as if trying to get it out of my head. Itās becoming more intrusive latelyā¦ Not sure why. I know that it has been upsetting me for some time now bc little 13y/o me didnāt want to think about it anymore so I pushed it out of my mind so far that I actually forgot for a while that it had even occurred. Then after a long time of not remembering but still having mental health struggles and not knowing why, something triggered a dream. It was very vivid and felt so real. I started seeing it in bits and pieces throughout my later teen years. but I wasnt convinced it was real until I talked to several ppl including my sister who had also recently remembered and the other person who was directly involved in the event. The involved person confirmed it was real. My sister and I were very emotional after realizing that this horrible thing had really happened to us. Iām struggling with those memories and came on this app to hear from others who have had similar experiences, not so much the event itself bc I didnāt even tell you what that was but just like forgetting about it and then remembering years later and having to cope with the haunting memories. thanks guys
-Julia
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Checkin in on Day 259
Clean & Sober
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Evening of Day 8! Went to Pilates. Something that Iāve always wanted to try but classes are at 7pm and well, by 7pm Iād be moving on to a pinto after finishing off a SavBlanv 
. So happy I went with Pilates.
Good night all 
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@dresdenlapage Thank you for the birthday wishes Josh
@dilettante I do love when we can find the time and energy to catch up with old friends. Grateful that the cobwebs away.
@ceeds lovely number 123 days is awesome! I too hate hearing the voices of doom and gloom as they try to explain financial security. Some State or City areas offer government provided programs. Libraries are also a great resource as some offer free programs for financial teachings.
So true ā it is all the little things that help. Great work on working on yourself and loving yourself ā self care is the most important part of sobriety. Cyclone sounds intense ā stay safe!
@danam56 OMG the embarrassment was possibly the worst part ā¦ trying to piece together what happened, what was said and the over all disgusted feeling with it all ā really do not miss that.
@icebear Thankyou so much for the birthday wishes Drew.
Wow Dana ā this was lovely to read. I do think as we get stronger that we donāt have to clutch onto our support systems with all our might. We can loosen the grips and start to enjoy our addiction free life. I know that we will always have to be on guard and vigilant in our recovery (we can never fully back away from this but IMO not every bit of our time needs to be devoted to this. I think itās a healthy sign to be able to enjoy life without keeping your addiction or recovery on the forefront of your mind. I think this is a wonderful question and look forward to seeing what others with possibly more sober time will have to say.
@Jules000 I am so sorry for what you and your sister went through. Do you have someone to talk to - to help you process these memories and the linked emotions? A professional in my opinion would be very helpful in guiding through this trauma in a safe way.
This post may be useful for you ā¦ Healthy coping mechanisms for trauma survivor's? - #8 by Butterflymoonwoman
Checking in on Tuesday evening
356 days free of alcohol and weed
771 days free of cigarettes
well itās been an interesting afternoon / evening. I got a call from my old neighbor to tell me that my front door was wide open. He gathered a few of my other neighbors and did a walk through and luckily all was in order. I was able to get to the house and do my own checks and get it locked up properly. Apparently the last realtor did not close the door properly. I am glad that tomorrow my tenant is moving in so i will not have to keep checking in on the house.
I had a wonderful time chatting with my best friend for over an hour via text. She is planning to come visit me in January so i am over the moon excited.
I had the absolute best day today - felt so much love and i celebrated my day completely sober (no urges or FOMO).
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love 
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300
Another good day 
Beats those lousy days last week. Pretty lazy this morning, but after lunch I got moving. Thatās the hardest part for me. Starting my day. Especially on my days off. But thatās exactly when I should keep moving this time of year. I did get some more cleaning done before my daughters band/chorus concert.
Tell me how this happened. I let her take her flute to her dadās so she could practice more over the weekend (I usually donāt, for fear something happens to it). Concern confirmed! It came back with a broken key, which honestly didnāt surprise meā¦bc we have a 2nd flute 
They played at their school this morning and thenā¦she leaves the flute at school 
No choice but to use the broken one. In the end it didnāt matter anyway. You couldnāt even hear the 5 woodwinds over the 7 trumpets and 5 trombones! So much brass. She did have a passage to read to the audience that we both didnāt know about, and she killed it! Loud and articulate under that pressure. Feeling like a proud mama 
Anyways, I gotta move this elf somewhere now and get to bed for stupid work in the morning. Hope you all have a great night!
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Day 6 for me today. I was in hospital on the first day to detox after quitting cold turkey and had been gradually feeling better, but today I feel extremely unwell and shakey again.
Luckily, I have a GP appointment booked for today, but Iām just worried about refractory withdrawal 
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Checking in at the end of the day. Iāve been busy online getting gifts for the twins. I know how fortunate I am to have my new job and be able to buy these gifts. Hope everyone had a great sober day today!
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Nice to see you at 300, itās countdown time one day at a time 
well done
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I would love to hear your back story and any advice you may have going forward.
For me Iām using the 12 steps from AA bc itās the same philosophy for all addiction. Iāve also used game stop, donāt know if your in the UK but basically it stops me getting on 99% of sites. The loop hole is I then use my partners Email as its connected to the same address and bank account and even though Iāve put 6 months plus worth of bans on about 10 different sites I have to keep one open bc she likes the odd game of bingo now and again.
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Day 11 in the bank
Easier day than yesterday.
Not very productive but the intrusive thoughts of yesterday were quiet.
Kids finish school for the year and on holiday for the summer. Looking foward to it.
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*Day 1911 
And day 60 of social media 
Ok I walked yesterday, but it was still a stressfull day. Got the message that next week a manager is coming to our shop to ask me to temporary run a big shop in a big city as a manager.
The idea only gives me anxiety.
I slept very poorly, overthinking the pros and cons. My mind wonāt shut up 
Ps but also flattered that they asked me for such a big project 
Totday the new tillās arrive, hope we quick understand how they work 
Picture from my walk yesterday as promished @JazzyS
So today: work and goal to focus on the now instead of worrying about the future.
Have a good day all of you!
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Day 8 (+77+155)
Learning
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Day 85:
Quick check-in because its been a while. Got home yesterday from a great vacation and got caught up aroubd my house. Made it back to the gym this morning, so hard to wake up! Good work day and spent tge night with my kids.
Hoping to get caught up on this site tomorrow, a lot to catch up on. But for now i need sleep.
Happily sober!
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21, I made it to three weeks
After a hectic first two days this week, Iām very much looking forward to a quiet day in home office today. Iām going to code and think and solve logical problems. I love my work.
I had a small procedure done yesterday and I am supposed to abstain from sports activities till the weekend. Thatās a bit of a bummer. Maybe Iāll just take a walk today.
Wishing you all a peaceful day!
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