Had a very good meeting. Got to see some familiar faces. And even some new ones of people I knew. Grabbed a new number. I did speak and it felt nice to just get a little of what’s on my mind off my chest. Couple guys talked to me at the end that I knew from when I first started going. One thing that is hard and makes me feel confused is just wondering what to do. Keep and take this job at meadowbrook and stay working in Plattsburgh and create a life there, possibly get the environment service job in Plattsburgh and take that. I also applied for a job here in tupper, so if they call do I take that and come back here with my girls so I can be a father? But If I come back here there isn’t really any apartments, not much to do here, no gyms and just idk it feels like a dead end. So idk I just feel a little lost but I’m just gonna try to keep moving forward and not think about it to much
I hope Plattsburgh pans out for you, Mike.
@drew95 hey friend – I am sorry today was a hard day. Great job on pop and candy – I went straight for the ice cream. Your body is trying to get back all the sugar its loosing from the alcohol. It does taper down and go away in time.
Don’t feel like you can’t vent here — this is a safe space and anything (however small / big) that is troubling you is ok to post and get off your chest.
It is harder to communicate the addiction struggle with those who are not familiar. This is where this community, meetings and/or a sponsor come in handy.
hows the evening treating you – hopefully now you are fast asleep and in dream land. Just know that we are here whenever you need 
so good to hear from you. sorry you are still sick - hopefully now that you are home in your own space you can rest and heal up. Sending you healing vibes.
The mind is a wonferful and downright annoying as hell thing.
Glad youre meeting went well & that youre sticking with it. Our past pain, and that downness on ourselves is killer. I know your bud here said it best, getting out to your meetings & being around others…
Just wanted to add too something i find helpful in my times alone with my mind are things that help it be quiet. Before bed I like to read (sometimes watching a show usually a doc so its not so interesting I stay up all night lol). Hope you find your fun, creative & quiet activities too that help your brain hush up. I used to be a champion nihht thinker and the reading really helps. Xo. Hang in there & dont stop fighting.
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My daughters fever was still over 100 this morning and she had no appetite like I did. We had things due at the library and needed milk so we had to go out late in the day but other than that, nothing. I wish I had done more around the house but it was also nice to relax after this weekend. I’m still battling the on and off headache that came with the sickness but now I think it’s morphing into my monthly. Yay! A couple more days of discomfort 
Just feeling a bit blah I guess. Hoping to light the fire tomorrow morning and be more productive before work. Off to bed. Goodnight
Hope your daughter feels better soon!
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Coffee and SAD lamp and journaling and checking in here. My way of starting the day these days. It works. Funny how writing it down reminds me of the cigarettes that used to go with my early morning ritual as well. First addiction I kicked over 8 years ago. Changed my life.
Some heavy cases admitted at work yesterday. If it wasn’t work I don’t know how I’d deal with it. It’s good to have some of professional distancing at times. I’m a little bit anxious about the question how I’ll deal as an expert by experience instead of the nurse I am now, how I’ll keep the right mix of empathy and closeness as well as a little bit of distance so I’ll be able to do my job? Only time will tell I guess.
One we go. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. I will. Love.
Day2:
This is soo hard anxiety is brutal
But you made it to day 2 Lys! Excellent work! Keep going. It does get easier day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute. Hang in there so you’ll never have to go through this again. Glad you found us and welcome to Talking Sober and this thread. Wishing you all success on your journey.
Thank you so much for the support!! I can do this! I hope it gets easier.
It does get easier just as long as you stick to it! Community has been the most important support for me. Don’t go it alone. We’re in this together. 
That’s why I came here to be around others that understand what I’m going through too!!
This is my first post. It’s 13 days for me. I have a stressful day today and I’m anxious to get through the day without using food to manage my stress.
You can do this!
Day 164. Back playing up. May take two days off work so I don’t just aggravate it more so. Full of painkillers. Not had this before. 
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The side effects of the Escitaloprame are kicking my butt hard at the moment. No appetite and nausea are problematic. I had to take meds for the nausea yesterday evening and this morning. So no taking blood. I had a short chat with my Dr and he told me it’s no problem to wait some more days. The fear was almost not there this morning, I was nervous but that’s okay.
So, no need to stress me. All is going to be good.
Now heading home to sleep but first I’ll get me something delicious to eat later when my tummy is more friendly.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
I remember those side effects well. They did settle for me and I hope they do for you. I found my appetite regulated and I actually lost weight as was more disciplined. More importantly my anxiety hugely improved. Hope you get there soon 
Welcome, great to have you here. I hope the day isn’t too bad. We are always here if you need to talk. Nearly 2 weeks, well done!
Hi all, checking in on Day 82. Not feeling well with a cold - how many are there of these floating around? Just had a shower and now totally wiped out. Thank goodness I can just work from home, there is no way I could work FT without that option.
Yesterday was a hard day, and for some reason in the middle of that I started looking for an evening job!? I am about to start a new, FT role that is a promotion, have just started to recover from a chronic fatigue crash and I honestly thought an evening job was a good idea 
I have got to work out what I am trying to “fill” with this need to prove myself all the time. I discovered I had a core belief that I was lazy when on my recovery from chronic fatigue course, but not sure why I am so driven to battle that.
Anyway, totally waffling on. It was 4 years ago today that I ended up in hospital with stroke symptoms due to intense stress manifesting physically as FND. It was a turning point for me, having to walk with a stick for months. Pleased to see how far I have come.
Hope those that are ill feel better soon. Have a good day everyone.