656 days alcohol free
305 days no cigarettes and
46 days no THC
Thats it. Just happily trundling along. Ending an old week and starting a new one. Ready for the gifts and the challenges. Fortified with two pots of coffee and some sugary cereal, I can’t lose. Stay the course soberinos.
Checking in
Day 659
Im really feeling more myself today. Ill be honest, it was a rough start to my morning. I was soo tired waking up but once i got going, i was fine. I forced myself to hit the gym. It was a struggle to workout bcuz i havent worked out in like a week. But i did it and im proud of that.
I finally got to speak with my family dr and she refilled all my prescriptions and prescribed me an “as needed” sleep med. I am sort of hoping that by sleeping better, i will wake up and feel more refreshed, although it could back fire, bcuz sleep meds can also make u feel groggy in the morning. So ill have to see.
I have eaten well today and did some self care already. Just going to tidy up the apartment a bit and wait for my son to come home. Hope everyone is having a good day/evening!! 
It was brilliant if you were a Spurs fan 
Checking in sober from alcohol. Had some good days, not perfect anxiety free but not the worst either, well some worst to but not in the same way.The anxiety have changed a bit lately, not sure what I think about.
My husband grandfather died two days ago, the kids was so sad when they hear their great grandfather passed. He was 79, had hard years last 5-10 years healthwise. I hope he now feel at peace. We will attende his funeral coming friday.
Love to you all 
Checking in day 3
A good day today a long walk this morning and got a few days work 2 days this week and 2 days next week nice to be back doing something again 
Evening check in with 81 days. Managed to get to the gym for the first time in 2 weeks, good sign I am emerging from my crash but it was hard. I have been mostly resting this last couple of weeks and certainly not dieting but had lost 3lbs. Think it was muscle so glad I am back at it. A lot harder in the winter though.
Work was hard today, stepping into my new role now and it is testing me. As with the gym I hope it is good for me.
Thank you all for being here
Day 20, I had a good night with my girls last night played around and acted like one of Santa’s elfs took over me and was talking to the girls. We laughed and had fun, once they went to bed I just laid there and reflected on my past and all the shit I’ve done, thinking about my future. This morning was good but I did take a nap after they went to school, and aroubd 230 I went down to court and got the disposition paper work for meadowbrook just in case. Idk I’m still so scared I’m gonna get fired and flagged once the background check comes through. I also did get a Interview as a environmental service tech at the hospital here and I’m doing a phone screen Interview tomorrow for that. Idk I still just feel really stuck, and also really lazy and like I need to put in more effort. Idk how to say that but idk I just feel like I need to do more, idk it’s crazy some I just feel like there are high functioning addicts who have there shit together better then me. In my addiction I’ll literally give up everything and just sit around and be lazy and worry about my next high. Well even being sober I noticed myself just kind of sitting in comfort and not doing everything possible to be get my shit together. I’m annoyed that I really have not ever been a father, really if I’m thinking about it my girls have been raised by there mother and my mom. I’ve never really put clothes on there backs or anything. The first year I got sober in 2021 was the first year I really tried and got Christmas presents and stuff like that. But idk I’m just having a hard time right now I guess. Much love
One of the worst places for an addict in early recovery to be is in their own head, and it seems like you spend a lot of time there. This would have, could have, should have stuff is going to kill you one day.
Less thinking and more action is what is going to work. If you’re still in Tupper I would suggest calling some of those dudes from the meeting I went to. They are good dudes with solid sobriety. See if you can get to a meeting. If all else fails spend the night interacting on here.
You need to do anything other than just sitting around and thinking.
“Don’t think, don’t drink and go to meetings” - Marty S, died with 46 years sober
Thanks man. Yes I am planning on heading to a meeting here at 7. I know I need to stop thinking and put in more action, it’s like I know it but some reason don’t do it… idk maybe I am doing it a little it just doesn’t feel it.
The action will come. Just stop thinking so damn much lol
Congratulations on all fronts. I appreciate your depth and honesty. Keep at it! You’re an inspiration.
Day 83.
Grateful:pray:t5: Serene 24 TS family!
Feeling upbeat right now as my passport has been picked up by the courier and has begun it’s trip to me.
Looking forward to booking my flight out tomorrow afternoon… If everything goes according to plan. Here’s hoping 
@rosacando sorry to hear that you and hubby are not doing well. Hope you both get some rest and feel better soon 
@catmancam Awesome work on your 1 year free of cigarillos. 
Congrats on getting you got in your lakewalk today. I hope the physio exercises help relieve the back pain.
@wakikki so sorry for your loss. Grateful anxiety has toned down a bit… hope the trend continues.
@mindofsobermike Sending you luck for your interview tomorrow. Try not to worry about what may happen in the future. Live for now and do what you are doing for yourself in protecting your sobriety. You girls are going to remember you and the time you spend together… not the gifts or the cloths. Keep putting in the effort and I know it will get easier as you set up a routine for sober behavior. Well done on your 20 days! Glad to hear that you are heading to a meeting today – support is key in our journey. 
@anon68572606 So grateful to be hopeful. Hoping that all does go according to plan
Checking in on Monday night
348 days free of alcohol and weed
763 days free of cigarettes
Today was a decent day. Glad that i was able to not take a nap today. Grateful that i was able to get some computer work done. I did push myself to do a 20 min walk around the basement (just to get some movement). Not much else to report. no urges today which felt good.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
Checking in sober.
Had a really nice dinner with a friend. Therapy tomorrow. Then pre employment paperwork for the new job. My favorite coworker got promoted to replace me at my current role. So I’m really happy for her.
Feeling a bit better this week.
OFDAAT
Today is an alright day, high stress, long day . Back in early recovery (almost day 10)
A lot going on but I prefer to not vent about every little thing.
Cravings are super high today , depression levels are bad tonight. Had to pick up a bunch of candy and pop tonight to help me get through. Not the healthiest resort, but my cravings and mood was bad and I could sense a relapse .
Can’t say my life is terrible right now, but I’m definitely in a rocky wave right now just with my current stress factors . I would talk to my girlfriend about this but she has never had a drink in her life & is from a different country & culture so explaining this kind of feeling or lifestyle to her might come off differently as she couldn’t really interpret these struggles, but rather do her best to understand which to her it might come off as pointless complaining. Which isn’t her fault at all. I personally love her for who she is , and her not drinking , encourages me more to be a better version of myself and I personally wanted to date someone who is absent from alcohol use in their life .
That being said felt right now the best place to post would be right here.
Withdrawals are pretty much gone , but there’s still that switch that flips in my brain like tonight , where I get overwhelmed in my head and I can’t explain the mood of overwhelming emotions mixed of depression and anxiety I get but I know it’s one of my main triggers for relapses & stress drinking.
Kinda just locked myself in my room tonight and now I’m staring at my tv screen / mobile right now.
Hungry , but also too anxious& overwhelmed to eat and cook food . Hopefully this junk food will help.
Gotta be up in 8 hours , and got a long day tomorrow but seems like I’m not crashing for a while.
Don’t mean to come off negative tonight 
Hope everyone is having a blessed Monday !
Hey Jasmine, thanks for checking on me. I was able to rest but I’m still sick. Finally got home late last night. It’s so good to be home.
Cannot believe I made it to Day 10 without much angst. I am loving amending my calendar timings
“work Xmas lunch” was in for 3-10pm
BUT now I know I’m sober, I’ve amended it to 3-6pm.
Hallelujah. I am getting TIME back to do what I WANT to do. Which means I can still work hard (today was 9am - 11.30pm) BUT when I do get time, like the above day - I can leave after lunch and know I’ve had a nice time without having to stay another 4 HOURS DRINKING FREE BOOZE.
It was good to have a night out on sat drinking 3 alcohol free beers and actually felt so hyper because I just am an extrovert. Alcohol DULLS me into something else. Man it was great to come home WHEN I WANTED, after 6 hours instead of 10 and be at home with a brownie and a show.
This, is. Where. I want . To be.
Happy sober week everyone xxxx
