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My first sober Christmas.
It’s been fantastic 
. Winding up the day tired but very happy.
Merry Christmas everyone X
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Don’t give up. I see you trying on here and encouraging others in their journey. I suspect you are a good human and the world needs good humans.
You can give up tomorrow. 
This is a trick and not a suggestion as you can never exist in tomorrow.
Merry Christmas and keep up the fight. You’ll never get where you want to be if you give up now. 
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Days 3&4 
Enjoy your time 
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Checking in on Christmas evening. If turkeys end up on the endangered species list… I am sorry 
@zzz what an amazing Christmas present you got there 
Hope you all had a brilliant and sober day. And those of you who celebrate a sober and relaxing Christmas
Off to bed soon. Plan for tomorrow: no drink, but more turkey 
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Day 22
Another day AFAF. Just checking in 
Merry Christmas everybody 
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Checking in, still sober.
Not gonna lie, I’m thinking about drinking zylion times per day lately. But I will not cave, not today. MIL is still here and today atmosphere got dense already. It feels so unreal, how I end up with ppl like that. Those ppl can’t just chill and be joyfull or maybe it’s me who is weird? Is it normal to be so up tight all the time? Fuck them, for real. Strange people.
Anyway, I’m not so often here lately and I miss it.
Thank you @zzz and @JazzyS for remembering about me, it means a lot to me. Hope you have a pleasant holidays.
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Thanks Emilie. 
I really appreciate that. I’m not giving up, that’s just how I’ve been feeling the past few days. Lot of discouraging things happening at once, just how life is sometimes. Nice to know someone cares. I really appreciate it. As for being a good human, I’m really not, but I’m trying to get outside myself, and encourage/support people, especially on here where I feel more comfortable doing so, because in real life I’ve been in my shell and mentally/spiritually/emotionally isolated from the world for years.
Thanks for the kind words. Merry Christmas to you too, I hope you have a wonderful one. God bless.
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So sorry you’re going through this, Alden. I hope you find a way to believe that there is light at the end of the tunnel, even though the tunnel is longer than you can bear.
I am glad you’re here and share your thoughts with us. You are not alone. Sending a virtual hug your way 
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Day 2: Country here again, from my little ol’ heart I sincerely thank you for your responses. It hurts to be in dark places but the warm welcome reminded me of the light in others that understand my struggle. You’ve reminded me of a hope that lies within, a part of myself that was forgotten in the ugly world of addiction. I truly thank you for giving my tired old soul a revival!
This Christmas morning my Cowboy gifted me a silver bracelet. It has a Phoenix engraved on it. Very fitting as I feel it symbolizes exactly this moment of my life. I haven’t told him my decision to stop drinking completely but he has told me he’s worried about me. I’ll let my actions show him and others.
On the 23rd we held a gift exchange with our friends and we all went hard in the paint. I did make a speech to everyone saying that my intention was to give my life to Jesus and stop drinking. I heard laughter, I saw eye rolls, and heard yeah right. I looked around and said I really don’t care if you believe me or not, and I don’t care if you think it won’t happen. My husband stood up for me and said it doesn’t bother me none and I would actually perfer her to do it. I think that moment I knew I had the only person I needed in my corner, my husband, my better half. He’s the reason that I have my beautiful little life out in the sticks. He and my children deserve better.
Everyone here deserves better. You all deserve to be living the best life possible. Addiction is tough but we can support and encourage one another. I’m almost embarrassed to call myself a Christian because of my addiction but I refuse to let my shame keep me in the gutter. I’m not perfect and I won’t try to be but I will try my best to be the person my husband and children can be proud of. I want to be that person that set out to get sober and did it because there’s a big world out there and we all deserve to be part of it. I want to make a difference. Merry Christmas everyone
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Merry Christmas @Country and nice to meet you 
Such a lovely post. Just to say, you have all of us in your corner too
You’ve got this X
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Glad to see you friend. Hang in there. it isn’t normal to be as uptight as that and don’t you ever start believing that. Stay you. Stay sober. Hope to see you more again. Being here helps. Hugs.
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Thank you Naomi, Merry Christmas! God bless.
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Day 345.
I got through Xmas sober. It wasn’t easy. Actually, it was hard. A lot of repressed emotions/anger/pain came out to the surface and… it hurts. A couple if hours ago I was crying my eyes out and wondering what the fuck am I supposed to do with all this pain?
My family is… well… they’re ok with sweeping shit under the carpet. I’m not. And my heart breaks a little everytime I spend time with them. It’s so hard to love and hate something at the same time. Instead of stirring the pot, I smile and pretend everything is ok. Then I go home and somehow deal with my inner turmoil.
It’s… fucked. Sorry, there’s literally no other word I can use to describe it. It’s just… fucked.
Well… I didn’t exactly come up with an answer on what to do with the pain, but I drank a hot cocoa instead of wine. I also had more cake than any human should… fuck it! It’s Christmas.
Anywho… thank you for holding space for me to vent. I hope you all had a nice and peaceful sober holiday. And if it wasn’t nice, I’m proud of you for getting through it sober.
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Hey Amy. I sympathize a lot with the family issues. I’m really proud of you for getting through it sober. I’ve been eating a ton of sugar over the last few days too hahaha I suppose there’s worse things we could do 
I hope all this gets better for you. Merry Christmas, much love, and God bless you.
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Thank you, Alden. We’re in the sugar coma together but at least we didn’t drink, that’s something 
Merry Christmas to you too!
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Merry christmas everyone
our first Christmas in our own home was a success! I wrote in my caption of our Christmas post that my son got some pretty cool gifts but the best gift he got this year is a sober mom. 
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Right! I got these yesterday as a gift, among other sweet stuff and candy, and day before yesterday there was a whole huge cookie platter I couldn’t help but go to town on. Hahaha I normally don’t even eat much sugar at all.
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This made my heart happy reading this 
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Jumping on here to say that I’m so freaking proud of everyone for making it through the holiday’s sober. Fantastic fucking job
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