Lovely words Mira. Sending love. 
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Thank you Menno, your words means a lot to me. You are one of ppl that really help me, from my day one, I appreciate it. You have your heart in the right place 
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Thank You! Dziękuję! @acromouse @Mischa84
Pink Soup - We call it Šaltibarščiai! Yes that is one of my favorite dish too 
best with warm potatoes on side plate
WESOŁYCH ŚWIĄT!
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While you lucky bunch not in the Netherlands have Christmas over and done with, over here we still have Tweede Kerstdag to deal with. No idea where that idea came from. To me personally it’s fine though. I’d liked to have stayed at home with Luna and look at the clouds outside but have another dinner date with some friends who I know from smoking together in the coffeeshops in the 1980’s. It will be nice despite some smoking might happen.
Last night’s family dinner was good too. One out of six present got a bit drunk. Didn’t make me envious or thirsty. Quite the opposite. Not a pleasant sight at all. Something similar might happen today too, as these friends of mine still smoke. Both the practise and the effects are abhorrent to me now. Never again.
Whatever I may encounter, I’m sober and clean. Just for today. Have as good a day as you all can friends. It’s one day at a time for all of us. Love from Amsterdam.
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Now you made me hungry 
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Sorry to hear about your problem @Tomek .
Change and separation is always a big deal especially when kids are involved. I’m sorry you have to go through that. The good thing doing it clean and sober is you’ll always be present and can be focused on what to do next.
There’s always someone here to reach out . Stay connected with this amazing community.
You can do it!
Sending love and strength.
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Day 23
Alcohol use to be my crutch on social events. I notice that being sober I am more aware of how I really feel. Today I’m tired and I feel depleted. I have a bit of a headache and little energy left.
I’ve been busy all week doing groceries and present shopping, cleaning, cooking, seeing friends and having family over. Plus it’s also a bit much having my son’s GF in the house, I feel responsable for her to have a good time but it’s tiring me out. Don’t get me wrong, she’s a nice girl, but more outgoing and she’ll let you know when she is bored or not agreeing on something. And that tires me out, I feel like I’m always ‘on’.
Drinking made me more sociable and extraverted, more aimed towards others. The day after I would blame the alcohol and not the depletion of energy. Now I see it’s also for a part the latter (and maybe getting older 
).
I feel I need to set better boundaries for myself. I need to schedule time alone to recharge, so today I’ll stay some time in my bedroom to relax. I am not down, just very tired. 
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Congratulations on 100 days @zzz 
I love the images you post each day, I can sometimes zone out watching them…hypnotic!
@happyfeet I see you are nearly at 5 months too, way to go and I look forward to congratulating you very soon.
Nice to see everyone checking in over the festive period, I love this community and the togetherness it brings 
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I don’t know if this is where I check in or not but I sure need to check in. 26 hours in here and I have been hit by it all. For starters the binge I set out on is killing me. I have slept just a few hours out of the last I don’t remember. Hallucinations, mouth sores making it a delight to just eat, I want to just peel my skin off. I am committed though. I can and will not live like this anymore. As I suspected to first cravings came quick, swiftly, and hit me uncontrollably finding myself on all 4’s scrounging the floor for any spect of drug I might have left at all like an animal. I had no control, I could not believe the amount of power and control that was being assertive. I know I have called with tears to my God for help during that time. Luckily there was nothing laying around to relapse on, I took that step in attempt to close the gap on relapsing. The issue of finally hitting my 26 hour mark and I am not tweaked or hallucinating or out of body anymore. Today, right now I am filled with pain. Physical to the bone of no sleep. Highly functioning I am finishing up my second night shift at work with no sleep. I am afraid to look in the mirror. I feel the chips in my teeth and the pain on the tongue precluding me from anything nourishing to enjoy. I feel depression creeping in, my mind is powerfully trying to rationalize with me that I’m not worth saving. With the fight that I rage against my battered mind I have my moments of uncontrolled tears, and desperation that I am worth it and I can and will not allow myself to do this. My last relapse my I think 46th or so. It doesn’t mattter I’m trying to pull together. There are no more relapses here. But the dread I have and fear of what may be coming my way today in the form of craving and temptations have my anxiety high. As horrific as I feel I can’t imagine how tough and what I am going to do to fight when I’m feeling slightly better. I may not be responsible for this disease this horrific deadly disease but I am sure responsible for my recovery and I want to be recovers and saved so bad. Every ounce of me wants a life free from addictions. Compounded by a Christmas without my two sons and no family in my presence other than the 2 patients I have tended to at work it was a very emotional last 25 hours. I have not made it to a 12 step meeting yet but I know this is a danger zone without it. I’m so tired. I plan on getting home and crashing as fast as I can so that I may get up and at the very least join an online format this afternoon before crawling back into work. This is it guys, I have no choice in the matter, I fight today and pray today! My LIFE DEPENDS ON IT. I know my God has watched out for me, the fact I am alive today and not gone yesterday is enough for me to pick up and save the person that is left to be saved and relentlessly fight, fight, fight. I have to for I may not have another chance. I am sober 26 hours. For part of that I cried out for a sobriety minute by minute and at one point second by second. I am here, I am safe at the moment. I am ready for another sober hour, another sober day.
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Welcome to the check in thread Joshua. Glad you’re here as we are in this together and the more the stronger we are, whether we’re in one hour or twenty years doesn’t matter. You’re not alone.
Huge congrats on making it through the first day. It’s the hardest one to get through by far and it proves you can make it through another one as well. Just as long as we take it one day at a time we can’t and won’t fail. You’re here, you’re alive, you’re ready to fight another day. Between you, us, your God and the other help you’re going to find we are going to make this friend.
We do all have a choice. You have made the right one 26 hours ago. Let’s make sure we stick with it. Together. Welcome again and all success to you.
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Glad you’re here!!! Stay strong this is the last time you will ever have to go through this if you choose to. Proud of you and it absolutely gets better with time, well done!!! 
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4.5 days for me. Struggling a bit as Christmas is a really difficult time for me and I’ve had some family issues so spent Christmas with a friend, but still trucking through.
It was quite nice, I ended up cooking Christmas dinner (boo! 
) and my friend made sure that there was no alcohol in her house at all, which made me feel much safer.
The vivid dreams have been a bit gnarly recently, but I’m doing okay beside that.
Going to be kind to myself and work through my alcoholic booklet to keep myself on track, then go shopping for some chocolate and soda and play video games tonight. I find that shopping during the daylight and not taking my ID really helps avoid relapsing.
Have a good day all 
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Day 1,292 clean and sober today. I was reading so much here that I just realized I have to get ready for work!!! 
Have a kick ass day today, love you guys
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Proud of you friend, it only gets better from here on out.
I have found this community so helpful in my recovery. Please keep checking in.
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This is exactly the place to check in. 
We can share and support each other daily. Congratulations on your first 26 hours. Online meetings can be a good option if you don’t feel up to an in-person one.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1290. I hope everybody has a good one!
@RosaCanDo I hope you feel better soon!!
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@Alden my husband and I love that candy! I have definitely had a major sweet tooth since giving up alcohol.
I just made 90 days. Continued success to you!
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Day 42. Good morning everyone, work was good yesterday. No complaints, then I went and got some Chinese food for dinner which was really good. Got home, I ate and was going to play some Xbox but just laid down for a min and fell asleep. Woke up around 7 and my girls face timed me and they opened their presents at my mom’s. It was very nice to watch, they were sad bc Santa didn’t bring them the electric scooters they wanted. But little did they know Santa dropped the electric scooters off down here with me so it will be nice to givr them to them on Thursday when they come down. I can’t lie Christmas didn’t feel very christmasy yesterday, I think I got like two merry Christmas from family and then yeah it was just me sitting home. But idk im still very grateful bc things could be much worse. This morning on my way to work, I seen two guys sitting out front of Burger King at 6 in the morning, one was flinging his arms all over and babbling about something and the other was just sitting there smoking a cig, they look like they were bundled up pretty good so idk if they were homeless or out all night on a bender. Either way it may be grateful and relaxed that honestly that was just me a month and half ago. I’m hoping I get my phone call from the hospital soon, the lady who is supposed to call and hire me is on vacation so hopefully she’s back soon. Idk much love everyone, have a wonderful day and I hope you all had some awesome Christmas and got everything you wanted.
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