Thank you so much. Wife is feeling 100% better and can actually heal now. What a relief!
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I hear a strong need for self compassion here. Your addict behaviors were a flawed coping system and now your eyes are open to that. You arenāt a monster and you arenāt a fool. You are trying. Focus on being present for what needs to be done in the next five minutes. You arenāt alone.
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Day 48. Night check in this time because its been a crazy busy day. Blood work came back and had an appointment with my doc to discuss it. Turns out I dodged a bullet and Iām fine. Now itās up to me to stay that way by doing the nect right thing. Workimg the steps and taking care of my health.
Have an awesome day my friends!
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I appreciate that. Self compassion/self love, always a struggle.
Iām sitting in a hospital with my wife recovering, at the moment Iām at peace. I started thinking about consequences for my behavior, Iām going to table that for now. Gotta go pick up my kids soon, relieve my inlaws who are such a big help. Itās a long battle with mental illness/flawed coping systems, over 2 decades now. One day, ill have inner peace. For now, Iām just glad my wife is on the mend. Gotta get my sons together when i get home. Thank you so much for your words.
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Just wanted to check back in and say Iām feeling better 
I was kind of in denial on how hard it would be to adapt/find coping skills that isnāt substances. Iām entering my third week of sobriety now (day 16ā:partying_face:) and I think what Iāve gathered was the first week was the hardest physically, and the second/beginning of third has been more mentally challenging. But Iām proud of myself and I know itās for the better in the long run. š©· hope youāre all doing well. Hereās to another day sober guys, proud of you all
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Checking in
Day 660
Day has been okay! I didnt sleep well last night, yet i had more energy than usual in the morning. I went out first thing, got my new meds, mailed off some christmas cards, and hit the dollarstore. Then went to the gym. I played around on my new chromebook that my husband got for me for my birthday also. Im trying to organize all my photos which is going to take awhile. Ive never had a chromebook so navigating thru it is taking some time. Im liking it tho 
Going to video call with my family soon and then wind down for the night! Hope everyone is doing well today 
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Landed safe and sound. Heading to the ferry now via taxi and then across the Straight of Georgia and home.
Yay!
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Day 907. Hope everyone is doing well today.
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@smootie8220 how are you doing Lys? Hope your day got easier.
@lainenicole96 Thank you for checking in and letting us knowāgreat work on staying the course and feeling better 
3 + weeks is fantastic ā it does get easier 
@catmancam 1212 AF ā love the number sounds like a productive day ā hope that migraine goes away soon 
@jennyh I do see that we are very similar in this and I too am grateful to know that I am not alone. Hope you feel better soon. My mouth is back to normal feeling thankfully.
@mindofsobermike 3 weeks is awesome 
Congrats on your interviews and having possibilities. Take your time to list out all the pros and cons to figure out which job will be best for you.
@selflove_42 glad to hear that your wife is doing well. Hopefully you can take time to focus on yourself now.
@frank68 great news! Glad all went well with your blood workā¦ onwards with a healthier happy sober lifestyle 
@butterflymoonwoman 660 days is awesome Dana. Sounds like a wonderful productive day. Enjoy playing around with your chromebook.
@mesober great work on 18 days ā it does get easier and better for sure ā keep working on stacking up the days
@mx_elle How exciting ā the Yin Yoga Challenge sounds like a lot of fun. Thank you for extending the invitation ā will try to join in on this challenge.
checking in on Tuesday night
349 days free of alcohol and weed
764 days free of cigarettes
Not a productive day but i feel mentally at peace. Not much else to report.
Wishing everyone has a wonderful addiction free day /evening. Sending you all so much love 
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I was in bed by nine last night after a hectic workday. Getting up at a quarter past five, I do feel rested now. I did choose to work only day shifts myself right? Right. Day off tomorrow. Iām sober and clean.
On a morning like this Iām still amazed how I could drink the night before and then be out and about and work the next morning. To be honest I couldnāt. I tried and I failed. Cost me my education, my masterās degree. Iām good where I am now though. Life moves on and so did I.
On we go. One day at a time and all that. Have as good a day as you can all. sober and clean. I will. Pic is just a good summer memory. Weāre on our own roads, still together nonetheless. Love.
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Iām doing good I was proud of myself today! But Iāve definitely been craving a drink to help ease my stress and anxiety right now
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Thank you and yes I have my family and my partner in my corner supporting me. We talk through this everyday so far but itās sometimes hard to talk to people like family friends ect that arenāt going through it so they have a hard time understanding but Iām just glad to have there support! This weekend will be my first AA meeting and Iām super nervous to go. But I know itāll be for the better!
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After 4 days of doing nothing, I made today the 5th. I kept my daughter home again but sheās basically back to herself already. Idk why with everything I need to get done I chose to do nothing instead. Then itās rush rush rush.
I did work that funeral in the evening. It was over the top unnecessary insanity. My boss was stressing bc the woman in charge kept demanding more and more so we set it up so extravagant for honestly no reason. It felt more like a wedding. I donāt think Iāve ever worked that hard on a Tuesday.
My ex got out today and said he got sanctioned for having weed in his system. I meanā¦idiot. I donāt really care about weed, but if heās willing to risk that on probation, it makes me think he might be doing more. Heās in his predicament bc of crack, but alcohol was his first demon. For 8 years, all we did was drink and smoke. Mushrooms once together. If he thinks one drink is okay, and maybe he already has, I donāt see it going well once heās off probation. Idk. I went on a booze fueled drug bender after we split but Iāve known crack it whack, and thatās why Iāve never touched the stuff. I just shouldnāt think about the āwhat ifā future, but Iāve been around long enough to know I should expect something to go wrong.
Work in the morning and then making a dream catcher with my daughter. Hope you all have a good day/night!
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End of day 78 check-in:
Good mellow day today. Went to the gym first thing, hard workout today, but it felt good, Iām still feeling it. Drove to work snd just before I got to the shop my tire pressure sensor went off, pressure was dropping fast. Got out of my truck and I could hear the air coming out, huge metal chunk in my truck tire. So I spent the morning at my mechanicās shop. Needed a new tire, but luckily I had the road hazard insurance, so an hour later and I was back on the road.
Slow work day so I was home early. Started preparing to go out of town Thursday. Bought a new golf club travel case, started packing a bit and just spent the night at home. Spoke to my kids making plans for tomorrow night, we are doing a sub for Santa with my family so my kids and me are getting our shopping done for that tomorrow. Love how excited they get for it, they have more fun shopping for the sub for Santa then they do for their own presents. It will be good spending time with them before I go out of town.
Basically another good, sober day. Headed to bed, another early morning tomorrow. Wishing everyone one more sober day!
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Day 4 in the bank.
Tomorrow will be the first time I havenāt started a shift at work hungover in awhile.
My pattern would be drink on my days off and after day shifts, then have a couple sober days/nights while I was on nightshift. Repeat.
Feeling strong in my commitment.
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Checking in, Iāve been feeling a little unsettled and down on myself. So I think I will go to an extra meeting tomorrow. Itās one Iāve been to before and liked a lot.
I did a lot of Christmas shopping for my daughter online tonight. My son will mostly want spending money but Iād still like to find him some things to unwrap on Christmas morning. I already got him a shirt that as soon as I saw it I thought of him. Snazzy socks are always fun, or maybe a skull cap. I also got the cats some new toys, lol. 
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Checking in today 
I may not get my passport application sent off today as planned unfortunately (I became a dual citizen yesterday!) nor manage to squeeze in a jog before work in less than an hour, but Iāve just eaten and will use the spare time to tidy my home (which it really needs) 
After work I intend to eat something healthy and go to sleep before midnight without wasting time on my phone for anything other than guided sleep meditation. Tomorrow I intend to wake up early too! Interestingly, due to having woken up early this past week or so with my cousin visiting and organising going places with fam and/or friends, Iāve naturally been waking up around 7am or earlier which is new, but perhapse welcomeā¦ 
Anyways, enjoy &/or make the most of the rest of your Wednesday sober fam.
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I made it to two weeks. I am so happy!
Iām looking forward to a slow and focused day at the computer after all the last dayās Stress.
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Do you have anything else you like to do to relax? I used to drink when I was stressed too, I try to get outside for a walk, or stretch/do yoga at home with essential oils, read, listen to some calming (or sometimes angry music haha), swim, crochet.
Drinking is only a temporary bandaid, I hope you can lean on some things that make you feel better and lift you up 
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