Congratulations on 
+ days of sobriety!
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Is there a celebration in the house?
200 days 
Congratulations on your 200 ODAATs Patty
So happy you found us.
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Day 75. Had a very good evening with my girls yesterday, took some baths and listened to music, wouldn’t say there was any to stressfull situations. Everything was good and we went to bed about 10 o’clock. Cuddled Addie rose and autumn cuddled in with grandma. Today we’re up, and I’m gonna cook something to eat. Then they want to bath again lol, mostly just sit in the warm tub and goof off. Then they will be going with there mom at some point. But will have good times while we can. Much love everyone
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Day 125 no alcohol. Yesterday we had a family day with my son and his family. We went bowling, then had supper out. There was a bowling birthday party for one of my grandsons friend. So some of us bowled while we waited for him. He is 7 so we did not want to just drop him off.
Then we celebrated my D-I-L’s birthday. I was so grateful for the family time! Have a great day everybody.
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32 days free of alcohol
26 days free of THC
I feel like I need to unload a bit here. It might make me sound a little crazy and I try to be positive in my updates but I’d rather get it out than keep it in and let it fester.
I am at the end of my rope. My symptoms are just as bad as they were 2 weeks ago before spending all this money to get tests and treatments. I can’t see my doctor for over a month. Last night it was so bad I couldn’t fall asleep. I got so angry I banged my fists into my legs and now I have bruises. I have a bad habit of wanting to feel pain when my stress is too much. I got down on my knees and asked the universe to please not give me anything more to deal with. Then my wife came over and asked why I was crying and I guess she decided that would be a good moment to unload all her stress from the past 5 months onto me. We got in a huge fight. I managed to sleep a little and dreamt she left me and that I came home and found all of her things gone. This morning we talked it through and kind of made up but I am feeling a strange detachment, like I don’t feel anger towards her but I don’t feel love either. I don’t feel anything. Is this normal to feel emotionally blank in early sobriety? I’m scared because I don’t want “I don’t care about anything” to turn into “I don’t care about sobriety.” As of now I still have no desire to drink or anything but I don’t care about healing either.
Anyway I just wanted to get that out. I really hope this feeling of no feelings passes soon.
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Checking in near the end of day 28, shattered took kids camping we will be in bed early
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Checking in day 8 
I have flu so can’t say I feel great… but good to be sober 
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Way to go @Lisa-B on 30 days!! I liken early sobriety to getting your land lands or a toddler learning to walk as i navigated a life without coping with addictive behaviors
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Hey Lauren, it really sounds like u had a rough night 
Very emotionally draining im sure. Im glad that u and ur wife sort of made up. Sounds like it was an intense day for both of u in different senses. Where u both had alot going on 
Now i dont know if ull be able to relate, or if this will help, but I used to feel this “emotional blankness” when things got very intense emotionally. Id almost sort of “shut down”, like it was a coping strategy to help me deal with what i was dealing with. I would get that “I dont care” attitude along with that (which was another old coping strategy for me). And its not that i truly, deeply didnt care. It was my mind trying to convince myself that I didnt care, so that things didnt hurt as much. But in all reality i really did care. Id get these “emotional hangovers” the following day after a very emotionally tense day. I still get them, especially if I argue with my husband. Its just so emotionally draining. Wondering if this feeling ur experiencing is something like that?
That feeling of emotional blankness does go away. Once things settle down abit and u get back to ur normal routine, it should go away
Really wishing you peace and calmness thruout ur day today friend. No matter what, dont pick up 
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Day 56
Not feeling too good again, nauseous, tired and a headache. It’s a bit frustrating… I’m going to bed early again and hopefully feel better tomorrow. Have a good sober day warriors 
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Day 379.
I’m still here, but really struggling with my depression and it’s hard to find the strengh to… well, anything. But I’m sober and dealing with this shit without using any poisons.
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Thanks James
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Day 27 AF 
I had a slight wobble earlier the first time this month but i thought about how i’d feel tomorrow and the feeling of having a drink soon passed.
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Sending virtual chicken noodle soup and lemon ginger tea your way. 
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Checking in Day 19 af and drug free
Feeling okay today but have been thinking a lot about how I find it hard to be intimate or vulnerable with someone since my last relationship and even then I struggled with it. In my only real relationship my partner did have an STD and cheated multiple times. He always wanted a threesome and I feel like I say this to men to please. I have been tested a few times but for some reason I still feel gross and dirty and like I’m not desirable but I never judged him for it so why am I judging myself so much. I guess again it’s related to the stigma and things ppl say about it. Much like addiction and mental health which I also struggle with which as a result I guess is where a lot of my self loathing stems from. Trying to work through it and like myself again but it’s tough. I feel worthless, embarrassed and ashamed of myself. I feel trapped in this body of mine which again I think is where the suicidal ideation starts to come from. Can anyone else relate to this? I feel pretty unhinged right now but not going to use and try to work through these emotions.
Sorry if this was an overshare. Wishing everyone strength today xo
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Hey friend, i completely get where ur coming from. I dont think its over sharing. In fact, i applaud u for talking about it bcuz this can be a subject that is often kept in silence. And the emotional, mental, and even physical effects can be long lasting.
I rarely talk about my experiences when it comes to how i felt with regarding STDs. They were awful experiences having to get tested constantly and treated for them bcuz of my old “line of work” or because of my ex (who did exactly what ur partner did to u). I remember the internal feelings i had and how it clouded my view of myself and effected my relationships with other men. I want u to know that ur not alone. If u ever want to chat more, u can always message me on here You are a beautiful person and what has happened to u, doesnt define who u are
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Thanks Dana, that actually makes a lot of sense! I’m glad this is a temporary thing. I don’t think I’ve really experienced this since before my drinking days because I definitely would have picked up by now. So much to learn about myself. Thanks again for the support
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