Checking in on day
250 no alcohol
181 no vapes or ciggs
20.93 no form of marijuana
Nothing too much going on at the moment
Good day so far 
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Hey all. Relapsed on all my addictions besides alcohol. I guess at least im not drinking but my anxiety is absolutely horrible again. Had a psychiatrist appointment yesterday that didnt do shit. They just keep pushing more and more meds on me. I think i need to try some sort of counseling. Psychiatrists dont seem to want to listen to my whole story. They cut me off and start pushing this med that med. Ugh. Day 1 for me for marijuana, gambling, acting out.
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Congratulations for the 
days, hope you dug out your marterial arts business 
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Itās good to see you Steve. One thing I do know is you need to be sober and clean for any counseling to be successful. It takes lots of (clean) time and effort to work. Hope you can find a way to have that time.
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Back when I fell into my depression, the lack of understanding, and what seemed like care or compassion from my family only made it worse for me.
They didnāt treat me the way I had hoped family would. They caused me to isolate more and not want to be near them. This began the cycle of addiction for meā¦ At least at that time it became a major part of my coping skills.
This time around with my brotherās death, Iāve been a different person. Reaching out, working through my own emotions while helping others and being there for them.
Fast forward to this past Friday, where family had begun to discuss his celebration of life.
The old ways of family really came out. We had shared that we couldnāt be there until June 23rd, due to the kids school (which is around when they were looking to kind of have it around anyway). So as tasks were assigned, we did our own thing that day. The following day my oldest sister texts and says itās been decided that itās going to be on the 22nd. That it was more important for friends and acquaintances to be able to come before summer holidays. She chose this and basically said it was more important for those people to be there than his and her own brother.
After I spoke up, she had the nerve to say I could have my own with my friends when we get there.
Like holy f.
If this doesnāt verify and affirm the feelings I had as a young adult, I donāt know what does.
Instead in this present.moment I am fighting for my beliefs values and rights that I should be able to attend the major celebration without giving up.
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Welcome back Steve. Om glad u came back right away
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19 days free of alcohol
13 days free of THC
Hi friends, brrrrr 
itās cold here although not as bad as what some of you are experiencing! Iām proud of myself for getting through a tough day yesterday. Iām learning to ride bad feelings and moments like waves. I know if I stick to my recovery plan they will pass. Grateful to be sober today. Smokey has decided he likes my meditation cushion.
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Checking in on day 442 AF
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@Frank68 congrats on 90 days 
I hope you got the snow issue sorted, thatās pretty shocking of them.
@Noshame congrats on 250 days AF, nearly 6 months no vape, and 3 weeks no cannabis
@Steve92 welcome back 
congrats on remaining AF
1253 days no alcohol.
718 days no cocaine.
233 days no vape.
Did my morning routine, slowly, but I did it.
Took a big pile of āgoodā boxes to the garage to store.
Unpacked the latest cat supplies delivery.
Caught-up with some meditations.
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Just hit 21.06
3 full weeks no form of pot
Wouldnāt want it any other way:)
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Day 43
My mood is lifted, I did some work that I postponed, so that feels good.
Played Trivial Pursuit after diner with my son. Those questions are sooo dated, but we had a good laugh. I love relaxed evenings like that with games, good company, scented candles and hot ginger tea! Especially when itās cold and snowy outside 
Today I was thinking about how Iām religiously following my evening routine: shower, make-up off, brushing teeth, creamsā¦
Aināt nobody dope as me, Iām just so fresh, so clean 
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Say 205. Just got another blo@@@y bill. Big gas bill, on top of a pretty dull day. Frustrating so off t bed early
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Congrats on the 19 days Cat.
Smokey looks good on that thing. I was wondering if it was a cat bed. I like it.
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Day 14. Didnāt sleep many hours last night but I feel ok. Iām off to start exploring and enjoying this beautiful place. Im my attempt to āreclaimā this spot, I thought there was an all day tour I wanted to do but not really feeling it. There is something else I want to do that no one supported me on doing the last time I was here. I think Iāll go for it!
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Hey Jasmine! Iām okay. This is day 10. Just super busy and tired. Thanks for checking!
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@Steve92 hey friendā¦ great work on coming back to day 1. Different counselling or possibly a different psychiatrist. Not all of them are so heavy on the medications. Wishing you luck in finding one that works with you and for you
@anon68572606 sorry Jamesā¦ family can be super frustrating to deal with. Hope you are able to find a way to celebrate your brotherš«
@Noshame way to go 
3 weeks is fantastic!!
@Happy_Trails congratulations on your 2 weeks. Keep it going strong 
@KarenKW good to see you doing well Karenā¦ Nicely done with your double digits
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We received a response from my sister in law. Sheās doing everything she can to make it work out for all.
Thank you for your best wishes 
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Congratulations Dana! Youāre such an amazing inspiration 
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Day 367.
Iām feeling depressed lack energy to care about or do anything. Tomorrow is cleaning day. I like cleaning. Cleaning makes me happy. Yes, Iām sad like that but it is what it is. Sober me doesnāt like messy places.
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