Day 17
I will have no alcohol today!
ODAAT
-Solar
“There’s a world of difference between insisting on someone’s doing something and establishing an atmosphere in which that person can grow into wanting to do it.” Mister Rogers
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Thanks bro. For sure, just making it to work is all I care About. I said probably 50 times before actually getting up im just going to call In today. And then finally im like nope get your ass fucking up. I don’t know how some people can literally go twenty years without ever missing a day, but I will say I don’t envy them 
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Im off to start the grind myself in like 5min
We got this man!!
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After stating I would check in on this thread daily… it’s been about a week (although I have been hanging out on the forum, honest !)
I’ve got half a day off today as I had a smear test appointment. A prime excuse for a post appointment drink in the past. But today I’ve treated myself to a solo lunch out (my guilty pleasure) with my book. I feel good. Another ‘first’ without my wine-crutch crossed off.
Hope you’re all having a positive day x
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Day 20 check in, sending strength to you all
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21 days free of alcohol
15 days free of THC
I am very tired today but meditation and visualization has really helped to raise my vibration. I imagine pulling my addiction out of me and then a protective golden light surrounding me. Every day I do this to reset and recommit to my recovery.
Last night I dreamt the moon fell out of the sky into the ocean and rolled toward me (it was the size of a giant rock then). It was beautiful and shimmering and brought a sense of profound peace and awe. A very nice respite from the nightmares I’ve been having. I did a lot of really intense meditation work the past couple weeks (going into dark places) and I think it was a bit overwhelming to my body and subconscious. I’ve read that the moon symbolizes our emotional landscape and in a dream can mean needing to be aware of our emotional well being. I don’t know if I believe that but it’s interesting to think about. “There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”
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I’ve been at my job 5.5 years and I think I’ve called in sick 3 times. However the last almost 4 years I’ve been able to work remote so even on “sick” days I still end up working. Technology is a blessing and a curse 
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I’ve found that if I do something repeatedly it just becomes part of my routine over the years. Jobs are a lot like sobriety. Just keep doing it day after day and then it just becomes who you are.
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Naomi- me too! Day 10 here… I have become a showering/teeth brushing/sheets changing/tea drinking/makeup removing FIEND in the last week. In the best way! Thank goodness. Before, thinking no one could smell alcohol on me all day at work, they were probably staying at three arms length away because I stunk! At the end, there, it was at the point I would shower maybe every 10 days and who KNOWS when I changed my sheets. Yipes.
Self-care is absolutely top of mind for me, now. So glad to be here in this community… I don’t feel so alone and isolated anymore.
Thanks 
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Hmmm. This made me realize I have never seen the moon in my dreams.
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For sure man. See I dropped out it school at 17 and started working and even then I never really had a good work ethic. Granted I was in party mode all the time then too. But I am certainly trying to be a better employee, I am proud to say this is the first job in a while where I haven’t missed a day in the first month of working. I was late once but to me that’s still a win. I’ll keep trying to keep a routine, I am glad that I have a week off in between these jobs so I am going home to see my girls and I think that will help get me prepared for the hospital and keeping a good schedule.
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Not missing a day if work is awesome
The money is good too
Im happy your getting a chance to see your doughters.
Just please stay out if the bad neighborhoods
Drugs are very yucky and dangerous. No drug is a friend.
My lil boy is due feb 12th
Im so excited but very nourvous too
I just want baby snd momma safe and i think that will be the case
Take care man
Back to work me
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Everything you just said describes my last few months before I stopped drinking and my current early sobriety! Isn’t it wonderful to see the change in behaviour!
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2000 days.
Though I’m not around here as much lately, saw this special number and knew the friends I owe these days to. Thanks, y’all!
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That’s exciting man. That’s coming quickly. Very happy and proud for you. And no worries there man, I seriously have zero desire to pick up any drugs or alcohol, I know day to day that can change. But this last time I just really realized fuck this shit. I love being sober, and I like living. When I’m drinking or drugging I sure as hell am not living. And I always just feel sick and like I’m going to die.
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124 days af (four months!)
17 days vf
I’ve also taken a break from candy and desserts for the month of January and one thing I’ve noticed is I have much less inflammation in my joints.
Of course I WILL be taking myself out for some damn fine dessert on February 1st!
Xo
T.
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@wahtisnormal I’m sorry that your work schedule is so out of whack these days – hope that you are able to find that balance so that you can also focus on you and your hobbies. I am super proud of you and I do feel that your bf is also by your side and very proud of all your accomplishments. Day 3 is amazing friend – keep giving it your all. 
@shybert so good to see you checking in. Sorry for the insomnia and the anxiety with the exams. Sending you calming positive vibes to help you through this period. Best of luck with your exams. Way to go with your sober time!
@anon84358113 Always great to see you posting. Way to go with your 66 days! I do hope your youngest is doing better now. Life continues to be lifey but I too find it easier to handle the ups and downs easier being sober. Yes, still have the anger moments and loads of frustration but much easier to navigate and they do not last as long. So grateful that you are here with us and actively working on your journey 
@blondie75 WOOT WOOT –3 weeks is amazing Sarah – look at you go… as your comment says — Keep it up 
@earnit Sorry for the sleep bs – I do hope you are able to find good sleep very soon as I know how frustrating it can be to walk around in zombie mode. Excited that you are possibly starting to taste / smell again – fingers crossed friend that this progress continues for you. 
@mindofsobermike Oh man I can so relate Mike. Have severe fatigue I do know how different the tired is and I have literally had to fall in place and slept on the floor till I was ready to get up (I do know the signs now and am able to get to bed or couch now). Do not push yourself as that is what causes more harm. Do see a doctor as they may determine if a vitamin deficiency. I do try to keep some healthy snacks on hand so that at least I am limiting the sugar intake when I am not moving so much. Sending you energy and hugs Staying sober and getting to work daily is a huge accomplishment and you should be proud of that!
@louloubelle Look at you creeping to 200 days! Love how you celebrated – a book and a good meal is a lovely way to treat yourself
@catmama23 check you out girl – 3 weeks AF and over 2 weeks THC free 
@cat10 love the double digits! Love the self care and your positive journey! Keep it going strong
@eke WOW 2000 days!! That is super impressive and thank you so much for sharing this lovely milestone with us! 
Checking in on Wednesday afternoon…
It a beautiful sunny winter day - thankfully not snowing today. I have managed to drink a coffee and realized i am not ready or fit to face the day. Will be doing some light stretching as my body feels swollen and stiff and getting some more sleep hopefully.
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
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Thank you for all the supportive words yesterday, friends. Today is a new day and a bit lighter. I managed to do some journaling and self reflection, which helped. Feedback from you all helped me gain a perspective on how the last month+ has been super challenging. This polar vortex has prevented me from my usual time outside, especially daily dog walks because it’s been so dangerously cold for Lupe. But I also haven’t made an effort to gear up and get out even for some fresh air. I wasn’t able to eat or sleep much last night, but I am feeling hungrier today. I have my meeting Friday morning regarding the potential job with my realtor’s office and it’s really important to me that I show up and follow through with this, even though I’m anxious, actually because I’m anxious about it. Several reschedules of it have compounded the anxiety, I think. So, today I have fresh eyes on what is going on with me and that is progress. I’ll feed myself, get some fresh air and sunshine (while it’s still out there!), hopefully take a shower, the basics. Onward. 
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Major congrats on that milestone! Thanks for coming to share it.
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Checking in Day 8 af and drug free
Trying to focus my energy on my mental health
And self care but am still fighting this voice in my head that is saying just fuck it all.
Most likely my inner addict talking.
Really wish she would shut up already!
Goodluck to everyone facing today sober. You can do it 
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@SolarEclipse this was a first for me! I’m glad to be having vivid dreams again (taking the good with the bad)… this was something I missed out on when drinking. Wasn’t really even sleeping either, just passed out 
@JazzyS thank you, and I’m inspired by how you listen to what your body is telling you! 
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