Hello, its been a while. Ups and Downs and everything in between yet still sober. Attended an in person meeting and felt a sense of strong connection to the people and belonging in the room. Contemplating a sponsor as well as the difference between learning to live sober and recovery. Curious.
Frightened at times. Inspired, determined and hopeful during others. Pondering a need or maybe a want for treatment without knowing what where or how and the cost. Funding? Resources? Feeling really tired, not sleepping well and having wake ups ofrom meshing of dreams and past memories. My brain has been foggy and scatterbrained all week. Grateful for you all and another 24. 
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day 17 here! nothing too bad happened today, still getting some mild cravings and thoughts of using but i think theyāre fading away a bit. iām starting my new job tomorrow, and am very terrified for some weird thing to go wrong that prevents me from starting(this would force me to move back in with my parents). but i honestly think iām mostly just over worrying, and that things will end up being fine. i hope it all goes well tomorrow.
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Iāve been to a couple of gigs in the past year in between relapses where I was sober and they were great. I saw Idles, with some non drinking friends and also Wu tang and Nas with some heavy drinking friends. Both were awesome, I remembered all of it, didnāt spend half the show getting booze or taking a piss and with the Wu show I was able to look after my mates and drive everyone home at the end of the night.
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Checking in sober Iāve decided to stop counting days I just donāt drink and today is all that matters hope everyone is well going through the steps with my sponsor on step 1
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Congratulations on #50
Keep stacking the days
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Book of life. You are reader, but You also are the writer in a way. Everyday is a crossroads. Everyday we can pick a turn. Whatās is gonna be ?
12 years ago I thought it was the end of the story, but it was just beginning of the new Chapter.
Mistakes. It is impossible to find the answer when you do not know the question.
Light. It is the brightest in the Dark.
We become strongest in our hardest times.
Keep goingā¦
Donāt stop.
Next Chapter is on its wayā¦
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I feel like a sleep deprived zombie at the moment, night after night of not enough sleep 
Hoping for a kind week where my employer doesnāt try to hit my knee caps out. My end date is February 26th so itās near but still five weeks. The boss from hell has already started the passive aggressive micro management. Heās such a sad douchebag.
Have a good one all.
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Day 13, longest streak since August 
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Zdrasti Greta, Dobur Den 
. Chestito!! 
. ( Did I do that right 
).
50 days is amazing, Iām very proud of you my friend , keep it up. 
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Good morning guys checking in on day 131 SAF, and 117 smoke free. I had a very long work day yesterday, but I plan on finishing out today and really trying to catch up sleep tonight. Other than that all good over here. 
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Good morning! Checking in on day 52. Havenāt slept yet been at the emergency vet with my dog all night, this is my heartbeat and omg if something happened to her I donāt know what I would do. Not thinking of using only thinking of ways to make my fur baby better.
and 
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Zdrasti, yess you did it correctly 
thanks a lot - blagodariya mnogo 
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Dobro utro Joe, bravo
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Checking in Day 13 drug & alcohol free
Thinking a lot about my dad today
And what would come out of his mouth
When he was drunk and angry
And Iām starting to realize
Itās most likely things that were said to him
By his dad or his brothers or even by grampa
And it made him feel less then
It made him feel like he had to be tough
And strong and āmanlyā
I guess Iām just missing him a lot today
And I hope wherever he is
He knows how much I love him.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Goodluck to everyone today 
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Thatās rough. We have 3 of them, and theyāre like our kids. I hope they get better soon 
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Day 373.
Iām not in the best mental spot ever, but it isnāt the worst either. Anywhoā¦ Iām here. Sober.
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Day 21 today
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Hey all, checking in on day 1317. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Iām alive! Fever is gone! After 5 days of nightmare I am finally feeling better.
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