What a weekend! Very welcome after a rather tough week for my mental health - so glad I was able to quickly pull myself out of a depressive hole earlier in the week. Started off Friday with a meeting with my realtor, more of a casual conversation that ended with a job offer! Part time M-F 9-1 starting February 13th, helping her with some database management, client relations, file organization, receptionist duties (no phones, thank god) and office management (supplies, setting up for meetings, plant care wooooot my favorite!). Just basic support stuff. I love the vibe there in this small office of 3 women realtors and connect well with my realtor/new boss. We have a lot in common and it feels positive and kind and safe. Perfect for me reentering the workforce after 7.5 years out and especially so after my last toxic workplace that left me burnt out and an empty shell. I coped at that time by drinking heavily and it really was the beginning of my serious spiral into alcohol dependence and years of rollercoasting up and down fighting it.
It feels great at 2+ years in recovery, and even more time working toward it, to be at this point. Itās a fresh start. Someone asked me if I felt like I was starting over since I have a Masterās Degree and had a successful career at the executive level in a health care organization. That career is part of my history and development and it was immensely valuable to me but I have no desire to try to go back or regain something ālost.ā Iām perfectly happy to ease back into working and building from scratch. I really donāt know much about real estate other than what I learned in buying our first home this past summer and so this is all brand new. Iām excited to learn and especially to learn more about my community, which it seems I will have the chance to. These ladies are well connected and very active in the community, and Iām looking forward to learning that peripheral knowledge from them, too.
Oops, Iāve rambled. The rest of the weekend involved a lot of indulgence in beautiful foods, hard work organizing and deep cleaning my home, and hiding away from the deep freeze outside. It sure was beautiful out though. I enjoyed viewing it from the comfort of my warm home. Much warmer this morning and we are in for a warm up this week. Iām grateful! Canāt wait to get out for my dog walks again. Iām not excited about the rain and snow melt but itās a trade off.
Sending out sober strength to you all. Hang in there, amix.
Day 17 here, and I guess day 17 no vape and no pot (I only ever use last two when I drink, so they all are all in same category to me)
Feeling great and no real interest to imbibe in anything. Just concentrating on working around house and relaxing and resting.
My sleep still isnāt great. I mean Iām getting the proper amount of hours (7-8+) but my fitness tracker shows my sleep still stressful and my body battery not charging much past 50%ā¦ weird cause when I was drinking and doing landscape Iād get a recharge of like 90%ā¦ perhaps itās just the stress of my body healing and purging poison.
Still havenāt tested the water on blood pressure yet. Am waiting for a good sleep and rebound in body battery. Iām really hoping if anything I can kick the BP medsā¦
Weight is coming off slowly, which is how I wish it. Iāve done crazy diets before and dropped fast then it comes back even faster it seems. I once was 350lbs and got to very good shape of 240lbs with trainers and lots of diet and exercise over the course of 7 months. That was too fast.
I started this journey of weight loss before I quit drinking at 294lbs and am now at 278lbsā¦ so digging it. My initial goal is 220lbs as I wear weight well in shoulders and chest, but eventually long term Iād like to be 190ā¦ but those are much farther down the road goals and they are all dependent on my sober successā¦
Well as usual, TMI that no one asked for, but I do hope you all are well and had some joy over the weekend.
Day 2 no weed. Day 3 no gambling. Day 1994 alcohol free. Didnt feel the need to smoke last night. Ive been slowly weening myself off marijuana instead of just quitting cold turkey like i tried last month. I was able to fall asleep with no extra meds and havnt had to take clonopin in 5 days. Still trying to get my head into a better place. Really tired of worrying about death and dying every single moment of the day. Have a good monday.
Day
257 no alcohol
188 no ciggs or vapes
27.89 no marijuana of any form
I feel good
Happy i didnt give in yesterday to marijuanna
I wont give in today either
Im building up motavation to quit nic lozenges
They are just too expensive
Im going to start one a hour right now
@Steve92
Marijuanna is a tough one but dont let that discourage you. Being sober from anything mind altering is tough. Let it being tough motavate you.
Day 708
Good morning TS fam! Hope everyone is doing FANTASTIC!! Just finished working out my back and now ending my workout with some light bike riding. Dont want to iritate my knee too much. Feeling good today! Have a few things planned for today. Besides exercise, just some grocery shopping at one location and then some cleaning Thats about it! Have a great day everyone!
Day 69. Well I honestly wasnāt even gonna check in today. Mostly bc I didnāt make it to work today, and I didnāt want to check in and write that. But I couldnāt sleep last night, I just laid there and tossed and turned and next thing you know my alarm clock is going off and I felt so tired. So yeah I called in, and honestly Iām not happy with myself. I know I could of just went and sucked the day up, yesterday I was proud of my self bc this was the first job I havenāt called in for the first month of two of it. And then I was excited bc Iām actually leaving on good terms by putting my two weeks notice in. But Iām not gonna beat myself up, just learn from the mistake and remember these feelings. I want to be a good employee no matter what from here on out. And yeah other than that nothing is going on for me much love
@Sunshineontheinside so lovely to see you checking in and with 1 month under your belt . You are doing great. A sponsor my ght be super helpful as youāll have irl support and someone to help keep you accountable. Keep going strong for the next 24 ā¦we got your back here @tryingthisagain sending you luck that all goes well for you tomorrow @zse totally a time for celebration way to go with your 50 days! Sober living is absolutely amazing and looks great on you @Tragicfarinelli ugh sorry friendā¦I do know how hard it is to function with little sleep. That boss can go jump off a cliffā¦ Keep reminding yourself that you are leaving and this boss has no hold over your future. Hoping itās an easy week for you @IamThechange oh Iām sorry for your doggy. I do hope everything is ok with her. Sending big hugs @Seizetheday 3 weeks is awesome Hannah! Keep that streak going strong @Mischa84 glad you are feeling better today
Checking in on Monday morning
Woke up before alarm. Didnāt get much sleep but feeling good enough. Still no Internet. Spent a half hour with customer service and now will have tech come by on Thursday.
I managed to take time and dye my hair ā¦feels good. Enjoyed some hot coffee. Going to be productive if I can and get some baking done.
Just watching Ted Lasso in the background as I did have it downloaded.
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day sending you all so much love
Day 50
Just came home after a long, tiring evening walk. Doggo gets hyper when itās windy, jumping from left to right and barking at every dog in the vicinity. Now he is exhausted and me too, so the couch it is. Dog Tea Laptop
Getting some work done and off to bed early, as tomorrow Iām hosting a webinar.
Have a nice sober day/night sweet folks!
@Mindofsobermike Iām glad you checked in. Its the tough days where we donāt want to when we probably need it the most.
Day 705 no alcohol. I woke up to a text that my uncle was in hospice and will probably pass soon. He is 6 hours away from me so I started my morning crying over coffee while making him a video.
He was my Dadās best friend from 3rd grade on and they married sisters so he has known me before I existed. This guy is cool. 60s counterculture, partied with Alan Ginsberg, makes his own stringed instruments cool.
Iāve been pretty guarded of my time in sobriety so I am not sure if I will drive in for the funeral. I hate funerals and have a trip planned with my Mom to go visit that family in February. He will probably be gone by then. But my Mom is 80 and shouldnāt drive 6 hours on her own. Lots of thoughts, thanks for the space, hug the people you love. There is nothing in this post that couldnāt be made absolutely 1000x worse with a drink. Stay the course folks.
First congrats day #50 together celebrate it with joy maybe add something delicious - dog, tea, laptop and maybe some good candy which you love
Good luck tomorrow, fingers crossed hope that everything will be by plan and waiting for update enjoy your sober 50th day
Thats about it! Have a great day everyone!
. You are doing great. A sponsor my ght be super helpful as youāll have irl support and someone to help keep you accountable. Keep going strong for the next 24 
ā¦we got your back here 
way to go with your 50 days! Sober living is absolutely amazing and looks great on you
ā¦I am looking into maybe adding some streaksā¦will see how this week progresses 
Tea 
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celebrate it with joy maybe add something delicious - dog, tea, laptop and maybe some good candy which you love 
hope that everything will be by plan and waiting for update 
