Day 829 AF
Sup, gang.
Got sick last night. Caught a nasty fever, and my head is pounding. Feels like a hangover. I don’t miss those days.
I’m not doing much. Just staying hydrated.
Have a great day everyone!
ODAAT.
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625, checking in.
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Hope you feel better soon JR
ODAAT
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Checking 220 days AF.
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Fuck yes Mike, its called boundaries brother. Xo. Power to you. If anyone wants to do a deep dive with you and be helpful, its called a personal message. This is a check in board, for addiction plain and simple. Xo & power to you on your journey.
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@lablover222 Welcome back to our community Amy. Thank you for your post. I did need to hear that it takes time to feel all the benefits of sobriety. I have to keep reminding myself of how much time I spent on damaging my body so I should not be able to fix everything overnight. Congrats on all your sober time!!
@catmama23 thank you for mention Lauren. So sweet of you to say. We really do keep each other going – I appreciate your check in’s as well 
@goku2019 sorry that you are feeling ill my friend. Stay hydrated and get plenty of rest – hope you start feeling good soon
@danam56 220 days – woot woot Dana – look at you kicking butt!
Checking in Tuesday night
398 days free of alcohol and weed
813 days free of cigarettes
Grateful that I am still on the mental positive kick. The roads were fairly clear to drive on by this afternoon – that ice storm was no joke. Did manage to get some work done and ran errands. Not much else as my head is feeling foggy. Don’t feel much like focusing on anything. A friend messaged and wants to catch up tomorrow – looking forward to the chat.
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day / evening! Sending you all so much love
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Day 709
This evening has been an emotional one honestly. Its just been a loooong day. Im grateful for my recovery. But i just feel tired. Ive been feeling alot of hurt lately over my past and the things I did and the things that were done to me and the people i hurt. Im usually so good at pushing things down and yes that isnt healthy, but i seem to naturally do it without having to think twice about it, and then every once in a while it all comes out. This has been building up for a few days now. I could sense something was happening but didnt know quite why I was feeling the way i did. Now I know. I will feel better tmrw. I had another good cry. Tears are healing. I will continue on with my recovery and keep fighting for a better life bcuz there is no way in hell im going back to that old way of living.
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Thank you Jasmine. It’s only with the support and compassion of this family that I’ve remained sober. I’m so ever grateful and thankful.
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day 692 of no self harm
wow can’t believe it’s been over a month since I posted, thanks for thinking of me @Butterflymoonwoman
I’m still in kind of a rut, my family is driving me crazy more and more. i just feel so trapped living with this toxic family. I’ve realized that I have no obligations to themat least. I’ve realized they don’t want me around at all so I’m not going to change myself or pretend that I like being around them. my grandpa is my world but everyone else treats me like like I’m less of a person. they intentionally ignore me and act like I’m not around or go out of there way to do things for my other family but never me. they’ll make plans and invite everyone but me right in front of me. not to mention my mom is narcissistic. I’ve been dealing with this in my counseling sessions I’ve just realized a lot about my family dynamic since the start of the year. as much as it all hurts, it’s nice to know I’ll have no guilt when I do end up uo cutting them off when I’m on my own. whenever that is.
i started college classes again last week but i still feel like I’m not doing enough. i want to work but all of my health conditions are at their worst right now and I’m in pain 24/7. now that I’ve finally let myself rest by not working (haven’t worked in 10 months) I feel like I can’t get back to it. my classes are 15 weeks so after this 15 weeks I’m going to decide if I’ll start working again. i just need to be earning money towards moving out.
wow I did not expect this to be such a rant. i planned for like a 3 sentence update, guess I needed that. thanks again @Butterflymoonwoman I’m gonna try to check in more
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Checking in day 24 
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Having my coffee at 5 am, journalling, catching up on TS. Who’d have thought this would be my daily routine 5 years ago. Certainly not me. But here we are. And I like it. Work is very busy. Doing experience expertise work is very different from nursing, it’s closer, more personal, more direct. I use more from what I learned here. People listen to me more. Of course it’s still up to them if they do something with what I say. When what I say makes sense I hope.
Anyway. Back to nursing today. Which is good too. Teamwork. I’ve only learned to cooperate well once I quit using and did therapy. Again I could never have done this alone. I needed and need you lot. Forever grateful. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
@SadMemeQueen Good to see you Megan. Keep ranting and keep venting. And moving forward 
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Checking in day 22. Went on the tour today and it was awesome. I had no trouble asking for a diet coke when alcoholic bevs were offered. It was definitely a plus that they limited everyone to 2 drinks. Not sure it was enforced (not my business) but all the guests were very nice and no one seemed to be trying to get drunk (like I might have if I wasn’t sober). It’s nice to not even think about drinking and to know I am sober.
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Felt great today! Slow morning, but once my daughter got home we went thru every piece of her clothing and got rid of more than half that was too small. Did a little cleaning in every room actually. Making more space! It feels good. One more week off work so I’m trying to make the most of it. Getting to bed early now. I’ve been sleeping good again so I hope it lasts 
Happy 24
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53 days in the bank
Busy day at work. Training in the morning, we were working at heights so everyone needs to be switched on. Then had a busy afternoon that had some pretty hectic moments, good outcome in the end.
Would have definitely picked up some beers on the way home in the past ( although that would be true after any day at work) but today i drove home and was able to reflect on the day, grateful for the outcome at work and grateful that I was going to be sober tonight and tomorrow for work again in the morning.
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At night before you go to bed, get a journal and write down all your thought, everything your thinking just write it down. Its called a brain dump. It should help relax you and take care of some of thos thoughts. Hopes it helps
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Hope you feel better soon @GOKU2019 , time for some “me time” then
I read that you have difficult days
@Butterflymoonwoman and a good cry and venting will release a bit of the pain I hope. You are a though lady who can show fulnerability as well. That’s really something I admire in you. Respect!
Wow! That is a lot of time 
And with a nice commend for everyone, thank you for being here as wel @CATMANCAM
Welcome at day 7 @Hopeful32 
If you play your cards right you have your first week sober in your pocket tonight 
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63 no sugar, no binge
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Yesterday evening one of those hormonal waves came over me. I felt icy cold and then feverishly hot. A cloud of fog descended over my brain, I couldn’t think properly. And an extreme urge for high fat food. I already had had supper und was not hungry. I ate nonetheless and obviously overate. Did not feel good, did not sleep well.
I hope next time I’ll be able to stay with that feeling, breathe through it, instead of eating. Explore it more.
Eating does not feed this kind of ‘hunger’. I hope I’ll be able to discern between those two feelings in my body in the future: the physical hunger for food and the hormonal hunger. I don’t need food to deal with the later.
We have a stormy day ahead. I want to experiment with sounds and sprites today. Maybe some animations. A fartlek run in the afternoon and relaxing Yin yoga in the evening. Let’s see what the day will bring.
I wish peace and freedom to all of you wonderful people here 
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*Day 1953 
Difficult day yesterday.
It was my dad’s birthday, but I haven’t seen him in more then 15 years (very long story).
I do miss him despide all he did ore said.
And yesterday a year ago was also the day that we found our beloved cat drowned in the water behind our house. I still miss my buddy.
So yes, yesterday wasn’t a happy day. I had the day off so that wasn’t helpfull either
I tried to distract myself by keeping myself busy.
Also lighted a candle for my cat Buts. I had a headache all day and no painkiller helped. Glad that day is history, it’s all in the past and today is a brand new one to make better. In my old days I would have drank to “fix” my day, but no more.
Today? Work. A very busy day ahead. So in a second ore two it will be tonight
See you!
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Going on 4 hours now sitting in the Emergency Room waiting room. The jaundiced areas have multiplied to three spots now, but it doesn’t seem urgent given the response I’ve gotten from the staff here at the hospital.
Here’s hoping that when I finally see a doctor, the news will be nothing to be concerned about.
5 hours now and have finally been moved into a room, but still waiting to be seen. Wishing I brought an energy drink or coffee. I’m passing out in here. The only thing keeping me from doing just that are these really uncomfortable chairs.
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day 19! day 20 tomorrow. still doing my job orientation, which went well. unfortunately im still just wracked by anxiety over the next few weeks with everything else going on. i know weed withdrawal can have pretty strong anxious side effects, and I think that’s mostly what’s happening. i hope tomorrow is a bit better
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