Checking in day 23 AF
Just checking in this AMā¦
Very grateful I get to be sober. Wishing for a good day today & for you all too.
Day 15 and 2 weeks in the bag
Good morning! Checking in on day 54. Doing good, my fur baby had a good recovery day yesterday. I had to take to head wrap off yesterday to change the gauze and it was awful, she has drains in her head and stitches everywhere. Once again grateful to be sober and take care of her properly in her time of need.
Have an amazing day everyone! and
@JazzyS and @CATMANCAM i really appreciate your well wishes to us, itās means a lot. You both are always so thoughtful and amazing human beings
Hey all, checking in on day 1319. I hope everybody has a good one!
Day 71. Good morning fam, another morning woke up to some snow, I really love these bike rides bc it feels like riding in clouds. Had a good evening, my boss yesterday talked to me at the end of the day yesterday and was just saying they are seriously going to miss me they seriously hope to find some one who works as hard as me and asked if Id be interested in possibly doing a part time evenings for them, I said I definitely would think about it. And also did say id come in this Saturday, so that means no meeting Friday but Iāll work Saturday until about 930 and then my mom will pick me up with the girlsā¦ My oldest last night expressed to me that their mommy, told them that if they donāt start going to bed better at night that she is not going to let them see me again. I stayed calm and reassured my daughter that daddy is not going anywhere, I told her do not argue with me mommy or talk back, just understand I will always be here and will always be able to see you. I never repeat these things to my ex bc I know she will take it out on the girls and then autumn or Addie wonāt feel comfortable coming to me. And I want them to always be able to express their feelings to me, especially when they are older in case there are any problems with addiction or anything at all. Had another hard night falling asleep, im really weird, Iāll have about 5 days where my brain is wired and I just cant shut the thoughts off all day long, some days Iām more impulsive then others and do more risky things. And Iāll just be thinking of everything in the book all at once and I think thatās why on the days I have off I crash so hard. Iāve asked my therapist about this being possibly manic but she says no. Iām going to tell the girl that Iāve been talking to today that we need to stop, yesterday at work a co worker came up to me in the laundry department and asked if I had Facebook. I said yes and she said hey well this girl wants you to add her, so I didnāt think anything of it and said ok, when I got home I added the girl and she instantly started talking to me. Just started simple with thanks and then kept going and then eventually started getting kind of risky, and me and my ego liked it and it made me feel kind of confident and I knew better then to engage but I did sort of. So for that reason I donāt feel like a good person, mostly I feel like a fuck boy. But so for that Iām going to tell the other girl I need to stop talking bc one Iām not going to be that guy and two I seriously need to work on myself and then three I need to just tell this girl that started talking to me the same thing. My dad got ahold of me last night, said he loved me, we donāt talk much at all. The last time he came up I kinda put a resentment towards him bc he said he loved my sisterās baby his grandchild more than he loves mine. Idk it just broke my heart a little. I know what he meant, he gets to see my sisters grandchild more. But honestly he doesnāt out much effort into seeing me or my daughters. Maybe in their lifeās he has seen them like 7 times. When I was ten my sister was born and my dad pretty much just gave up on being a dad for me. Idk not going to carry this shit on forever today. Much love. Iām going to get shit right and Iām going to be a better person.
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My first 30 days of no form of pot cant come quick enough
Thatās one thing that makes it beautiful though. All that effort just for another day
Its worth it though
Im super excited for ur 30 days!!!
Huge congratulations on ur 7 months!!!
Day 24
Happy to be a part of this fine group. Thus I will not use alcohol today!
ODAAT
-Solar
Day 710
Another beautiful morning here where I live! Feeling a little more myself today. Woke up to a really supportive message this morning and it really helped me to feel not so alone. Todays plans are to get my son on the bus for school and then hitting the gym for leg day and a little cardio. Then some cleaning in the apartment and doing a load of laundry. Thats about it! Its a more relaxed day today and Ive been looking forward to it Have a great day everyone!
Day 19, beautiful and cold outside. Hit gym for first time in a while yesterday and will do again today.
Son is coming for dinner and to take cat for another visit for a month or so to his place.
Sober life is a good life!
Be well everyone
Thank u
Awe thank you so much! Thank u for ur kind words I do feel better this morning actually. I think sometimes a good cry is needed. Hope u have a wonderful day!
Hey Jazzy,
I am doing ok. Thanks for checking in. I have 134 days clean from my doc but I drank alcohol over the holidays back on Day 16 today. Felt shame but know it doesnāt serve me any good. I am keeping at it. Not giving up! I appreciate you and this community and will stay!
Thanks for this, was nice to wake up to! Yes, excited for a week tonight. Today is my 3rd AA meeting in 3 days. The last 2 and a half years I have tried everything except AA. So glad I am giving it a chance it seems to be right for me. Have a good day everyone!
Way to go Charlie on 20 days! Glad to see u checking in!
Checking in on day 196. Best wishes to all on this hump day.
Nearly at a month again, whoop.
Will be frantically doing my tax return as yet again Iāve left it until two days before the deadline. Itās one of those things I like to do every January, dance with the diablo.
Keep trucking.