Just a quick check in on day 217 AF
I’ve been just so busy recently but it’s all good.
Unfortunately I can’t keep up with this thread, it’s too busy for me to follow everyone.
Hope you’re all doing well.
Welcome back @MrsOdh It’s great to see you again!
Checking in another day sober. My cold is starting to go away and I’m feeling much better. I got a steroid injection in my hip this morning. It was uncomfortable, but went well. It’s sore, but i should start getting some relief soon. I planned to take the day off and rest, but i decided to work since i took off Tuesday. I also stopped at a couple of places to look at cars. I still can’t make a decision as to what i want. I find something online, go and look at it, sometimes test drive a couple, think I’ve decided and then change my mind. I’m have extreme anxiety over the whole situation. I can’t even drive my Jeep right now because i get so anxious and worried it will break down again. I’ve been driving my husband’s jeep instead and he’s driving mine. This is so stupid, it’s just a vehicle and i need to get another one. I have good credit, can afford (within reason) to get a decent vehicle, but can’t do it. I do this with other things, too. Anyone else have difficulty trusting themselves to make decisions after getting sober?
2 years 17 days
Today has been… really up and down. Started off pretty crappy. My sons school bus pickup did not go very smoothly at all. New nurse, new bus attendant, and new driver who didnt know the pick up location. Along with them being extremely late, i had to show the new nurse where everything was. But then i went to the gym and that made everything better. Thought id grab a smoothie and a chicken wrap on the way home. Ordered. Came home with it, only to find out that she gave me a steak wrap instead. Not a huge deal, it was still good. Folded laundry and picked up my son from the bus early as it was a half day of school. Relaxed with him in the afternoon. Ive been quite emotional today but in all reality these problems are nothing like what i used to have when using. So i suppose i shouldnt let these situations rent space in my head like that lol Anyway, hubby is home. Going to make supper and do some self care. Have to work this weekend. Have a great night TS fam!
Day 60 yay!
Online Shopping, day 0. boo!
Wow, I actually did it 
Today was pretty uneventful, I worked. I bought myself a pendant tonight to go on my chain I always wear. I have a couple other pendants, but this one is a gold cat/dog paw, I assume it can be either one.
My pets 
mean the world to me, and the only ones that always stay by my side. 
(Not that they have a choice, lol)
That’s about it. Stay sober my friends 
xoxo 
@happy_trails thank you so much. That makes sense about resting. Great work on 60 days!!! Keep the days stacking up 
@Shawn1991 Great work on 60 days of sobriety! Keep that momentum going strong
@apes2020 YEAH double digits! Great work April 
@wahtisnormal Great to see you posting and coming back Zoe! I’m so sorry for your living situation. Proud that you are still working on protecting your sobriety and coming here to connect with your peers. You are not alone my friend. I do hope it gets easier for you at home. Keep showing up for yourself
@jules000 sorry that you are dealing with this so strongly. I do hope that you are able to talk to someone at the moment and get through these urges. Find a way to distract yourself – possibly use markers to draw on where you want to cut rather than using any sharp tools. I see that this was written almost a day ago – hope you are safe and harm free 
@wakikki I’m so sorry love – that does not sound like a pleasant experience. I’m sorry that you still haven’t been able to get any answers as to what is causing this. Hoping you are ok my friend. Congrats on your 2 years 2 months of sobriety. Sending you loving and positive vibes!
@acromouse Way to go on your triple digits Aga! Keep working on your plan my friend – you are making great progress with your timers.
@mrfantastik Way to go with your 3 months Marty. Congrats on walking away from the attempts. You are doing amazingly well – keep the days stacking up
@mno thanks friend! Great to hear that you are making progress – a very bit positive step today.
@mischa84 Oh I think you will love your 40’s. I see you working on a healthy lifestyle for yourself. Way to go with your 8 months of sobriety. Keep showing up for yourself Mischa – you are doing a fantastic job. I do hope you had a wonderful day celebrating you!
@kellykelly WOOT WOOT 700 days is amazing work! Way to go with your sober time – wishing you loads of luck with the smoking – you can kick this too
@sizetheday Great work on your 2 months of sobriety – keep the days stacking up
@mira_d omg girl I am so very sorry! Pushing this off for another year? I can not imagine how much your family has and is going through. Sending you love my friend – I wish I could give you a big hug and make this time easier for you.
@dazercat OMG those are adorable pictures and Gus is so worth the move! 50 weeks tomorrow 
can’t wait to celebrate this with you
@englishd Great to see you checking in and a huge congrats on your new job.
@catmancam thanks friend. Way to go with your 61 days (all your timers are very impressive). I am sorry that you are dealing with depression right now. I do hope that you are able to use the SAD lamp and possibly get out for a walk that might help – sending positive vibes your way.
@sadmemequeen lovely to see you check in with your 2 year milestone Megan! I know that it may not feel like a achievement but I think its huge. You should be proud of yourself. Sweet of your friend to get you a gift
@happyfeet so great to see you check in Anne – glad to know things are well – great work with 217 days!
@steve14 great work on your 512 days Steve – sorry about the blah mood. Sending you happy mojo and hope it helps lift the mood – have yourself a wonderful weekend.
@maxwell Way to go Maxine – 2 months and going strong. You are doing great my friend – so lovely to see you checking in daily
Checking in on Friday night
436 days free of cigarettes and alcohol
851 days free of weed
Another uneventful day. I did manage to get a bit of accounting caught up in my awake hours. Grateful to be able to work from home with this task. Pain from surgery is easier to handle today but other symptoms are very present and annoying.
I do love my mom and all that she is doing for me but at times i laugh at how much we get on each others nerves. It will be really interesting next week when we are both laid up after her surgery. Lord give us strength 
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day /evening - sending you all so much love
Day 11…
Decide to " marie kondo " the s$%t out of my house , well because, sober things lol being organised and getting sh$%t done instead of being a lazy slob on couch.
And luca is not helping at all. Has made " marie kondo" pile of " does it bring you joy or not " clothes, his napping spot for the arvo lol.
Happy Saturday.
Clean and sober Saturdays are very satisfying 
What’s going on Charlie? Talk to us
What’s going on Charlie? We are here for you. I’m glad that you have posted.
Were here if you need a lifeline my friend @Charlie_C
We don’t know what’s going on. We don’t know if it’s your sobriety or some personal tragedy or disaster. So I’m going to leave the what’s your plan link here in case it is helpful to you. You know that we have your best interest at heart and are here to support you and I hope that by reading around it is helping you and I’m glad that you came here and posted.
I’m editing to add that I do understand if it is your sobriety that that can be a personal tragedy and a personal disaster and I’m not trying to imply that it isn’t. It was just how my sentence came out.
Oh my gosh, is that Gus? He’s so big!
He’s adorable Eric 
I’m happy to see you got the house you wanted.
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@SadMemeQueen Two years is a huge milestone Megan! Thanks for sharing it. Enormous congrats. Excellent work.
@Charlie_C You’re not alone friend. Hang in there
@CATMANCAM Yes we do intervision once a month, which is almost the same as supervision. Very helpful, the good part of that morning that I didn’t share about here.
@maxwell Congrats on 60 days Maxine!
@Butterflymoonwoman We’ll be working together Dana 
@Tomek Glad to see good things happening friend. Sorry for the overwhelming feelings. Hugs.
Thank you Maxi.
They grow up so fast when you’re no where near them. Pretty exciting life changes ahead for Pop Pop 
Happy 60 days tomorrow. I think it’s 60.
Been so busy it’s hard to keep up.
Indecisiveness is my greatest weakness. 2nd to procrastination actually, but they tend to go hand in hand. I honestly think that it was worse for me while I was drinking. I’d usually make rash decisions I’d later regret. Eventually it turned to all these thoughts of ‘what ifs’ flying around in my mind and I wouldn’t know what to choose. Now it seems much easier to make the decision by looking at it logically, but then I don’t put it into action. I know what I want for many things, but just keep putting off going thru with it. Is that the same thing? Bc that just made it sound like I can’t make up my mind 
There is one thing I definitely still don’t trust myself with, and that’s relationships. Every one of mine sucked, so when it does come time to decide about someone, it’s gonna be crazy up in here 
Still awake at midnight so im checking in again. My hip is hurting and my brain won’t stop, even after taking my sleeping pill. I have a plan for a new car. Found one i liked online - make, model, color, options, price. Going to the dealership in the morning. My husband said i just need to relax and if im not 100 percent, we can leave. I don’t have to worry about hurting anyone’s feelings. We’ll see what happens.
Im beginning to think that I’ve replaced the obsession with drinking with new obsessions. I spent all my time drinking, planning to drink, hiding my drinking, recovering from drinking - you know the drill. Now i need new things to focus my brain on. I have picked up some new hobbies, but i really don’t have many close friends. I have people i associate with and do activities with, but not besties anymore. I had to end my relationship with my best friend because he was also my number 1 drinking buddy and we were so toxic together. When i tried to get sober after getting my dui, he convinced me to start again - we would moderate. It turned into another 6 years of nonstop chaos and two additional duis for him. This time, i told him i was serious and we hung out twice. The first time he didn’t drink, the second time, he got loaded. We still text occasionally, but don’t hang out.
The weather is supposed to be getting nicer in my area, maybe i can start walking again. No more hiking due to my joint issues, but walking would be good. I also got my motorcycle license after i got sober, but don’t use it much. I usually just ride with my husband because, of couse, i obsess about something bad happening because i don’t have much experience. I don’t trust myself not to do something stupid or others not to run over me.
I really need to get it together, i feel a little crazier than usual lately.
Thanks to anyone who read this wall of rambling text.
This is exactly how i feel. I had no problem making shitty, spur of the moment decsions when i was drinking. Now im capable of rational thought and plan everything out - i love making spreadsheets - but can’t actually execute. My husband still laughs about the patio furniture debacle of summer 2021. It was patio furniture for Christ’s sake and i deliberated over it for months, then went to different stores, back to online, back to stores - color, style, size. It was a whole thing. I finally bought a set and we love it, but he makes fun of me every time we have a get together. Flower planting in the spring is ridiculous. I cried last year because the greenhouse didn’t have the exact zinnias i wanted for a particular spot and choosing a different color sent me over the edge
Yeah, you know? There were so many negative traits brought out by my drinking that have since disappeared, but now it’s like I’m seeing all the negative traits that were there originally, but covered up by drinking. It’s definetly not a straight road when you’re getting to know yourself for the first time.
Checking in day 60! I almost forgot to check in as it’s been a busy day. I wish you all a healthy sober weekend!
