My mother surprisingly called this morning (if she’s not working, she usually isn’t ip before lunch)
She had accidentally deleted all the photos on her phone, from our vacations last year. She was really upset. Luckily my husband has backups on his phone, so I promised her to print out real photos for her until next time we meet.
I’m not really a technology fan at all, but I imagine that it must be harder being her age and I can imagine the panic she most have felt.
Anyway it was nice talking to her when she was sober for once. It’s rare nowadays.
We also decided to take the boys for a shopping trip in Gothenburg during the Easter Holiday. I still imagine that it’s good for her to get out of the house and even if it’s tiring and even of she can be really hard to hang out with, we’re still trying.
Sun is shining, March 1st, start of spring month. Everything actually feels great today.
Good to see you back and alive. I’m no expert, but she might wanna check the recently deleted photo folder on her phone and put them back. Don’t know which phone she has, but works on mine. Greetz
Good morning everyone! Checking in on day 91. My husbands mom and sister arrived yesterday. Picked them up from the airport and dropped them off on the island for some food and sand, left to go get the kids. My husband called me not even an hour later, his mom had a medical emergency and they had to call an ambulance. She is ok thank God, OMG that was scary! Super grateful I was able to stay calm for them, I wouldn’t have had a straight head and probably wouldn’t have stayed calm if I were using. I hope everyone has the most amazing day! and
Fewling a bit better today. Going to go in to work today as it was a slow week for me with my son being sick. I origibally scheduled 3 days, but it will just be tomorrow. Glad I had yesterday off already!
It looks as though the trial may be delayed anpther year. Its - difficult? Interesting? Fascinating? Mindblowing? - that the wait is so long where i live. Going through tjis i believe there should be some sort of prioritization for cases of this nature like sure we dont want to rush justice and everyone deserves a “fair” trial…but that not just for the accused. The dead deserve their day, and so do the family but alas…it is what it is and this is something I am not angry or upset about. Pondering on for aure, but in life we have to pick the things to get riled up about…and serenity now amd all that shit. Im not sure but i think that when you practice that serenity practice enough, it becomes like a muscle…im grateful for thqt today. Its not always perfect Lordt knows, but im grateful.
Something i am worried about right now is my husband. I can see hpw deeply he is effected by what has happened the last 3 yrs, and hpw its effected his outlook. He has always been the happy go lucky, things will work out and it makes sense all the loss and trauma we have been through has effected this. Now though it is time we find a new path forward, and deprsssion isnt so insidious bc its outrageous. Deprsssion is insidipus bc it reflects the dark side of reality, and is absent of things like a bit of self denial and faith/hope which is a touch delusional. But these things, self denial and a touch of faith and hope in the darkest of times is adaptive and needed. I hope to focus on my marriage and husband, and be there not as he tries to get back to his old self but as he finds his new self. For the love of fucks sakes i cannot wait for a little bit of smooth, normal ass life.
Day 107. Yesterday evening was good. Just chilled after doing some grocery shopping. Today after work I’m going home for the weekend to see my girls so that will be fun. Much love everyone
@RosaCanDo I can imagine how terribly upsetting that was. Good on you on using your tools, and I’m glad your husband was supportive and practical. Thanks for sharing.
@Butterflymoonwoman That is so frustrating. Don’t fit the criteria perfectly and you get left out, even though you would surely bring and get so much from the group. Makes no sense. Well done for trying out other things.
Checking in on Day 37. Thanks for the extra support yesterday. I feel stronger today. I can get through a short visit without drinking. And I know to keep phone charged and come here if I get uncomfortable. All will be well. Happy Friday to you.
Been trying to dial in my bedroom for better sleeping climate. With a heat pump it dries the air of all moisture, and being winter not a lot of it to start with.
Keeping bedroom door shut, have the Dyson humidifier/ purifier pumping on full all day. As well as a secondary air purifier.
Keeping sheets laundered every 3-4 days, humidity around 50%, temp at 19 degrees with ceiling fan on.
Sleeping headphones on playing thunder and rain till I pee around 1 am then ear plugs (wife and a dog snore a bit, lol)
Gotta say last few nights have been great. No screen an hour before bed, a bit of reading, then about 8 1/4 hours per night.
Not the deepest sleep as gym is stressing muscles a bit so my body is tracking a bit more stress so not as deep but I’ll work on that next with either massage or ibuprofen to help with stiffness, but I’m hopeful not to introduce drugs for it.
Anyway, it’s a great day albeit cold out there (currently feels like -20), so another gym day and prepping for wife’s departure for 3 weeks to Mexico.
Enjoy sober fam
Thx @JazzyS@Lisa07 and others for the empathy and support - I appreciate it! “I can do hard things and you can too.” You’re right. One step at a time - thx
In between moving and family visits this, and next month, we got a European vacation in the books. Gonna have a walk about in Tuscany.
And we lost our Minnie of 16 years last July
I’m finally learning to just enjoy my journey and not worry about my destination.
And I’m fuckin proud of myself.
I like this guy. I might even start loving him.
and 
. Yes both of you’re parents would be very proud of who you’ve become today.
… one day melts into another.