Haven’t checked in for a bit, school and work has me crazy busy.
Can’t believe it’s been 190 days alcohol free. Peace and love to you all.
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Day 5 here. Feeling good and getting better. Cravings are still here but I will stay strong and not give in
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Checking in. I’m going cold turkey with smoking starting from tomorrow, so I had my last one today. Focusing on how that will improve my everyday life. I’m looking forward to it, although I’m pretty anxious at the same time. Nothing else to report, I’ll have a lot of work right in the morning, so trying to get some sleep now after setting my timer.
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Ohh yeah driving from work is a biggest trigger. Cant buy booze at 5am. So the bigger trigger for me is after work.
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That is so great! Happy 40th Anniversary! 
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40 days!
I had surgery last week. Only a small op, but was signed off work to recover and rest up. It was actually nice to have some time off work. I’m not very good that doing that.
Went to see The Pharcyde perform tonight. I had half an 0% beer, which was really just to ‘look the part’ and a water. It wasn’t a hard decision, fortunately. I didn’t feel like drinking at all. Yay for that! If anything, I was annoyed that we were so late home, as I like to be in bed three hours ago😂. How things have changed!
Bring on the weekend. This week has been a stressful one. Looking forward to a calm couple of days before a mad week of travel and press trips next week x
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@butterflymoonwoman I do hope you are doing better now love – I do know its hard to not be affected by the mood of those around us. I am currently working on this myself and not letting someone else’s mood control my own mood. Way to go with adding another month + to your timer 
@newbeginning1 day 4 and you are doing great with pushing forward! Here for you my friend – it does get easier 
LOL – this made me laugh so hard Sophia! 
Thanks for sharing the dialogue.
@techpro92 hope that your sleep keeps improving. Smart job on handing your cash and cards over to keep you from indulging in your urges. One day at a time friend.
@cleanheart Wishing you luck with the boundaries my friend – it does suck, but we do need to set them up in order to protect ourselves and our sobriety. Great work on 18 days – keep that streak going strong.
@mindofsobermike Happy Birthday Mike! Loved reading this and love that you are this “ im not caring as much as what others think, im sticking up for myself and loving myself.” Hope you had a wonderful day celebrating you today 
@trixie1 Happy 6 months of sobriety – Congrats on your sober journey – great to seeing you check in with your milestone
@catmancam I do hope your appointment went well and they can take care of the fluid in your lungs. Hopefully you can get your inflammation under control too. Deep breathes Cam - sending you hugs dear friend.
@danez great work on your 5 days! We did cover up a lot of our emotional, physical and mental pains with alcohol. It is intense when all the flood gates open and we don’t have our addiction as a false coping mechanism. Are you able to talk things through with a therapist or counselor? We are here as well if you need a shoulder. Great work on staying accountable and strong
@scorpn ooh this is exciting to read Renee – It’ll be great for you and the kids to get away and relax. 
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I believe that you can do it too love. I also think you do need support in this journey so would ask you to reconsider help. This is a hard enough path on its own and its not just the addiction that we are working on but we are changing up our behaviors, our routines and work on ourselves as we fix whatever we were trying to block with our addictions. This is a hell of a lot of work to be done and I think we need whatever support we can get to help us through this journey. Sending you love my friend. 
@efountains Do love the number – great work on 555 days! Glad to read that you are enjoy this moment in sobriety – keep it going and keep stacking up the days!
@thewolf Way to go with your 10 months of sobriety – so lovely to see you check in and share your milesonte with us
@SY1234 great work on your 40 days. Glad you got some rest and are healing well from your surgery. Love how things have changed LOL – keep thriving in your sobriety
Checking in on Thursday evening…
not much to report tonight - feeling really tired and luckily i am able to rest and regain my energy.
wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
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Its a beautiful thing
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Ugh, crappy-ish day. I woke up drenched in sweat. My sheets weren’t damp, they were wet. Pretty sore and achy, but that’s typical of most mornings. Got my daughter breakfast and layed down on the couch and was out until the 5 minute bus alarm. Then layed back down for an hour before showering. Felt okay after some coffee and getting ready, but I went downhill fast once I got to work. Definitely had a fever. I was so cold with goosebumps that I cranked the heat everywhere in the building! I’m usually the last one to touch it bc I normally run hot. I felt better after some tylenol, and luckily there was only 1 table, and a surprise health department visit 
Nothing to worry about on our end, just kitchen issues.
At 2pm I get a call from my daughter’s school saying she has a fever and I had to leave work early and take her home. I ran out and bought all of the medicine we could possibly need to prepare for anything and everything. Her ear started hurting to the point of tears so I thought maybe we should go to urgent care bc it was 6pm now, but her doctor was on call duty and gave us some advice to make it thru the night and we’ll see her tomorrow to see if antibiotics are necessary. With the on again off again nature of this infection, I’m thinking yes, but we’ll see.
Having to care for a sick child trumps your own sickness. I kinda just threw it on the back burner until I got everything done for her. She went to bed early, willingly 
Now that I’m settled I can feel it creeping back. I haven’t taken any fever reducer in 7 hours bc I’m holding out for the Nyquil. Which, almost always is a good nights sleep. No thoughts of alcohol thru any of this. I know that would just add unnecessary stress to the situation. Gonna make a light snack and wind down for a bit before crashing. Take care everyone There’s a nasty bug going around 
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Checking in on day 3. Today was a lot of honesty with my husband but more importantly being honest with myself about how bad things are. I want to get away but we just can’t afford to move right now. I feel like the family toxicity is just too much at this point.
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This sounds rough 
hope u and ur daughter begin to feel better quickly hugs
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Yuck!!! Hoping you both get some good rest and feel better soon 
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Congratulations on your 10 months of sobriety Wolf 
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Yea I was the same. Got to break that habit of stopping and picking up.
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Chilled day after a busy nightshift. Back on tonight, see how we go with a rainy night in the city.
@SY1234 I’d love to see The Pharcyde, missed them last time they were in NZ.
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Made it one week without overeating 
Now I want to keep that up.
Goals for today: keeping food journal, mindfulness practice while eating, practicing HALT through the day. Listening to my body over my frantic mind.
Woke up with a headache. Hope it will pass soon. Today is groceries day, time to start designing some objects, and my regular gaming night this month. Have been thinking about extending this kind of socialising. I’ll think of something.
Have a good day everyone 
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
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Still raining, now I’m started to get tired of the rain. The weather forecast says it’s going to be sunny on Sunday. The good thing with the rain is that I don’t feel obligated to do garden work.
Have added some extra protein to my morning routine. Plan to bake some Easter cakes today and see of any of the recipes we’ve found is any good.
Ma was supposed to call a few days ago because she wanted to go to the city tomorrow. She haven’t called so I’ll offer her to come with us during the Easter/spring break instead, she calls.
I could mostly call her too of course, but she always seems so bothered when I do, so I’ll just wait instead.
Wishing y’all a great weekend.
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I did too, during those moments it’s sometimes hard to be a parent.
When the kids does something hilarious but you have to stay serious. Either to explain or when it’s something that’s not okey.
Luckily it’s not like the boys ever really done anything that’s not okey, they are very calm, compassionate and understanding.
Sometimes they do fight or wrestle with each other of course, and I go “Stop it, you’re brothers you shouldn’t fight, you should love each other”
They stops look at me and goes “We can love each other AND fight, that’s what brothers do”
And start all over again. Most of the time they aren’t even mad at each other, it’s like they hust have to try it.
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My bike ride yesterday was great, my speed is a bit less, I guess it’s a combination of age, of not having done any spinning classes this winter, and of the wider tires I’m using now. My longevity is still there though, and building further each time I ride. Rode 146 km, 91 m with some wind and through the dunes. And feeling pretty good this morning. I feel the Korean take away I got to reward myself after riding helped with that. Feeling good enough now to consider riding my bike to the dairy farm and get some, well, dairy.
Let’s all have as good a day as we all can friends. Making it sober and clean is an excellent start. One day at a time and all that. Love from my ride.
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