That’s the best gift you can give yourself Mike! Have a great day today. Happy Birthday!
And I just thought this gif fitting for your 34th 
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Had a tough time thismorning on day
309 no alcohol
240 no vape or ciggs
111 no thc
I took on responsibilities and didnt keep my word with it. I fell through but it was a serious wake up call. I got lucky though. I got disciplined for not keeping our room. I got called out gooood. I accepted responsibilities and didnt keep my word. All i can do is correct myself.
Imagine if it was something worse… no good. So i kept out of site to come down and let everyone else come done. Then i cleanned.
The problem is fixed
To be hounest about it all i had a trash bin filled to the top. And mh grandparent in laws warned me to not let that happen anx take it out evetyday. Thats all it was a easy fix. I even cleaned the rest of the room.
If i accept a responsibility then i have to keep my word
No thoughts of picking up 
So thats my speal for the day
Just keep my word
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Checking in
2y 1m 1d
Feeling much more rested today even tho it took me like 2 hours to fall asleep. I ate quite abit more calories yesterday bcuz i felt like my body needed the fuel, and it certainly helped with todays workout! Had a healthy lunch and now sipping on some coffee. Not really much else to report. Juat enjoying this beautiful day!
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Day 74… checking in 
Phew, I’ve really been trying to power through this month it has been a doozy for me.
Finallyyyyyyy my days have slowed down a bit, the weather is beautiful and may rain tonight but I need it to drop and drown out the things that are slowly killing my eyes and throat.
Much 
to all of you. I really need to play catch up on some of my favorite threads. I try to read this one every day no matter what but have slacked on some others.
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Day 11 
Have a great day everyone 
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Checking in day 73 AF 
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My first Dutch lesson in library went good, I like it. People in the group (4 ppl) are at similar level like me, 2 helping Netherlanders are super nice older people, they gave me good vibe. Definitely gonna do it weekly. They add me to group chat on WhatsApp so now I don’t have a choice 
It was beautiful weather today so I went with my twins to our local playground and I met other mother with twins same age like mine (they are also together in the playgroup) and we had nice talk for an hour or two while kids were playing. All in Dutch
What a nice day, socialising with others, bravo me 
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Day 521
I booked a trip (impulsively) to Florida in the summer.! I can’t wait to take my kids on a vacation! I’m excited. Now I have to figure out how I’ll afford it. But I mean I have already paid for the house I’m renting. So hopefully everything else falls into place
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Thats sooo exciting!! Hope it all comes together for u!
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Checking in on day 5.
Not feeling very good today - I don’t feel the need to drink at all, and day 5 tends to be the worst for cravings.
Just feeling very lonely, scared, isolated and anxious.
My support worker has gone as she ‘can’t provide the level of support I need’ and I’ve refused to go to more advanced services.
I had the whole spiel of ‘You get too attached to support workers, they’re only doing their job and don’t care about you personally’ from the mental health team, which only hurt more. I know it’s true, but still. Ouch.
They were also skeptical as Fridays tend to be my ‘trigger days,’ so no one believes I can stay sober over the weekend… apart from me, I suppose.
I felt angry earlier in the week, now I just feel sad. I had the fleeting thought of ‘What’s the point? May as well drink,’ but figured that wouldn’t help my case at all. So here’s to staying sober and messaging her next week to prove that I can do this. I’ll be on day 9 by Monday. Will it work? I don’t know, but drinking certainly won’t.
In better news, I’ve started to work on cleaning up my home, one room at a time. I’ve neglected it because of the drinking, so now my hoover, washing machine and oven is broken. Great, until you’re sober.
Hoping to get that all fixed up next week, and in the meantime I’m going to continue to declutter.
Have a good evening all.
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Good advice for us all, friend 
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I know for me it was the things I refused to do that eventually got me sober.
“I don’t want to group IOP” turned into 4 months of 4 days a week group.
“I’ll never live in a halfway house” turned into 3 months in supportive living.
“I dont need to do the steps” turned into a lifetime of commitment to my recovery.
And eventually those 30-50 day stretches turned in almost 6.5 years of sobriety, and counting…
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Just two things from me:
Don’t go it alone. We all need each other. Trying to solve our problems on our own is what got us in the hole in the first place. So wherever you find us, find us. I found us right here, but in the beginning meetings helped me too.
Don’t shy away from professional help either. Whatever may be helpful to you. I’m in therapy for 3.5 years now, tuned it down a little bit recently but still invaluable to me.
And finally: I’m some sort of support worker too, and it’s impossible not to care personally, not when you take your job seriously and do it well. Of course some professional distancing is needed or I couldn’t do it. But it’s far from ‘just a job’. Take care friend 
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My husband and I just did the same thing, for our 40th anniversary.
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Checking for 555 days. I like the number but more the life I am enjoying at this moment.
I am a sober man, that is enough.
Kind regards.
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@Noshame congrats on all the 1s for no THC 
@Sunny11 congrats on double digits
@EFountains congrats on all the 5s
1312 days no alcohol.
777 days no cocaine.
292 days no vape.
37 days no binge-eating.
Had a delivery this morning for the cats’ supplies so waited in for that.
Caught up here.
Did some reading of a new book.
Did my morning routine.
Collected my Asthma prescriptions.
Went to my GP appointment. He has referred me for an X-ray tomorrow, he said there should not be any fluid on my lungs, and that we need to get to the bottom of why it’s there, so he will then have to write to a Respiratory specialist, and go from there. Trying really hard not to panic over it.
I am hoping to drive to the city centre for the X-ray, I am anxious there won’t be any parking so I’m planning to go there for when it opens at 8:30am.
Then I’m hoping to do a bit more decluttering.
🩵
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44 days AF
Latenight second checkin…
As announced.
Feelings turned better.
Had a flowy nice swim, some conversation and a nice omlette with tomato tuna y mozzarella.
Missed today’s meeting cause of time change lol will go tomorrow.
Take care 
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Double check in for me as well. I’m a little down but it’s very gloomy. Making a cup of tea and a sandwich and settling in for some reading here. 
Day 13 getting close to a milestone
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Hell ya! Congratulations on 10 months!!
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