A little late congratulations on 250 days of sobriety Patricia!
Freaking awesome 
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Happy St. Patrickās day to anyone who celebrates!Although, come to think of it, Iām honestly not sure what the holiday celebrates now that I donāt drink 
I guess I never really thought about it before. My (step)grandfather was Irish. Weād always have the typical dinner all together, and it was rare if alcohol was present, as most of my family werenāt big drinkers. I feel like my family just goes through the motions of holidays and never really focuses on the meaning of it. 
Anyway. Greenās my favorite color so itās a good holiday to me. Drinking or not 
Bum day for me as I developed a borderline migraine. Or maybe it is a migraine and Iāve just gotten so used to pain I donāt realize how bad it is I think itās a combination of the sickness, all the different cold medications Iāve been taking consistently for 3 days that my bodyās not used to, and pms. Having a grand old time over here 
Definitely alot of the Bob Ross channel and Netflix today. One more episode in this series and off to bed. Have a wonderful 24 hours 
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Day 9 baby, woo!
Woke up at 3AM feeling a little unnerved. Decided that, rather than ignore my feelings and push them to the back of my head, Iād acknowledge them, tell myself I wasnāt going to drink, and re-direct my energy elsewhere.
So, I cleaned the kitchen a bit, made some food as I was too exhausted to make dinner and took my meds. I felt a lot more relaxed after that.
Went on a 9.7 mile walk yesterday - so good for the soul, but oh boy am I aching today!
Also, and Iām really excited about this one, Iāve booked a trip to see Rammstein in Athens in May!!! Rammstein is one of my favourite bands, and Athens is my favourite city Iāve been to. I tried to book tickets when they were initially released, but they had sold out, so imagine my shock when I found out they had released more!
Iām absolutely elated!!
Iām going to be staying with the same family I stayed with last time, which is lovely. I canāt wait to catch up with them.
They have their own maisonette/villa right beside the beach, and two beautiful cats, and they really are warm and welcoming people.
(One of said cats!)
A little gift to myself for staying sober, and a major incentive for me to continue this way, as I have given my family full permission to cancel this trip if I slip up in any way, shape or form.
Very excited for the future, and I cannot wait to be back on the beach, sober and soaking up that beautiful Aegean sun!
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Thank you! They are phenomenal live, I saw them in Italy in 2022 and it was honestly one of the best (if not the best) experiences of my life. Absolutely mindblowing.
I hope youāre well!
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Good on you! I hope it helped, and always feel free to message or vent here if youāre struggling!
Iām sure they went to the USA in late 2022, I think this year might be just Europe unfortunately. Perhaps theyāll do the USA again towards the end of the year/start of next year 
I do forget how lucky I am to live in Europe, so I can just catch a flight to see a band pretty much anywhere between Ireland and Turkey.
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Day 2650. Woke up from a deep sleep this morning to a nervous cat knocking something off the dresser. Nervous because he wanted to be fed and was trying to wake me up. Iād like to just once be able to sleep in and not have a cat or an alarm wake me up!
I went to my favorite womenās meeting in the park today and it was sunny and beautiful. Did a lot of small productive things and finally got the garage door to open from a button on the car mirror with my dadās help. Iāve had my new car for 5 months and somehow never had time to do this before. Had a pizza diner. All in all a good day. Lots of to you all.
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*Day 2007 
Had a good weekend catchting up with a friend who live at another side of the Netherlands. So went there for the weekend.
Visited the most beautiful bookstore of our country. Itās situated in an old church.
Had no cravings at all despide my friend was drinking at multiple occasions and activaties like this can trigger me.
Today? Work and a bit stressed because thereās to much to do. So my focus of today is to give my work 90% of my cappasity so I have some energy left for myself at the end of the day
Have a good day all
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Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 19.
Sun is shining -4 degrees Celsius outside.
Snow melted away quick yesterday so we took the boys fishing for a few hours. The took turns with the 12 y/o casting rod. Now the 13 y/o have decided that he likes fishing and wants to buy his own casting rod.
We where out for a few hours by the river, didnāt catch anything (And Iām glad we didnāt, they where out for Pike fish and I really donāt like eating that)
Went home, had some bbq for dinner, sausages, steak and store bought salmon/coalfish patties with airfryer potatoe wedges.
After that we had a family music quiz.
My brother called and asked if we wanted to go on vacation to a place I call Mosquito bay this summer. We used to be there when we where kids. Itās basically a cabin village in the woods located in between a lot of lakes fƶr fishing.
I donāt share his wonderful memories from those vacations since I used to be in charge for all the kids together with one of the elder boys from another family. And I donāt want to go back, ever.
I didnāt told him that because I donāt want to ruin his memories from that place. So I just said that we have other plans for the summer. And that we happily can meet up somewhere close and hang out Instead of going on vacation together.
No need to cause any drama.
Still at peace with everything.
The boys goes on Easter/spring break on Friday.
And our Easter Bunny helper (Think Elf on the shelf but Easter version) came back today.
Wishing you all a wonderful week.
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@Lile01 Your words inspired me just now Congrats on nine days and those tickets!
@Just_Laura Fingers crossed youāll feel better soon. Meanwhile get the most out of your down time. You are always so much on the go.
@JazzyS Sending you bucketloads of patience
@CleanHeart Three weeks! Way to go! 
@2JTravNZ Wishing you a good day free of vaping.
@Davina_Davis Congrats on 80 days 
@CATMANCAM Sending you strength and hugs for your session. And hopefully you get some sleep soon. 
@Charlie_C One week is huge 
@tailee17 Hope your mood will improve soon. I hate it when I hate everything 
@Dan.h84 Hey there. Howās it going?
117 sugar
15 UPF
1 PF
1 overeating/binge
Goals for today: keeping food journal, mindful eating, learning to be in my body, surrendering to the present moment.
Iām very sad and down. Letās see how Iāll handle these feelings today. I donāt want to use food to numb them and I donāt want to make them go away. I want them to unfold in their own time. I want to believe it will be alright, and be patient and surrender.
Iām going to work on more design analysis today. Maybe try some UML for modelling. I have a class with the younger kids later. Due to some miscommunication it has only half the students in it. That makes it easier but also a bit boring sometimes. Yoga is going to do me good. I havenāt decided on a session yet. Letās see how the day will go.
Peace, kindness and freedom to all of you 
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Glad to have the one day off. Right now most of the patients at the detox I work have ADHD or ADD or something like that, unmedicated and sober and clean, and damned they are loud and present! Not sure how come but I get overstimulated quite easily these days. It was all a bit much this weekend.
Anyway. I had a decent nightās sleep and Iām pretty well rested now. Letās make this day off a productive one. Got some ideas to pursue and things to do. Have as good a day as you can all. Sober and clean. Love.
@Lile01 Great going Indi! Rammstein played a festival in Belgium I went to years ago. I didnāt make it it to the podium in time but it was more than loud enough on the campsite 2 miles away to enjoy it. Bring your earplugs!
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What are these stand for Aga? And UML?
Have a good day too despite the challenges
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This sounds amazing Indi. Please protect your sobriety and plan how this Athens trip and concert is going to be so enriching and exciting. You will be a couple of months sober by then, imagine how amazing you will feel walking through those hot and dusty streets and swimming in the sea! I love Athens too. You got this girl, Iām proud of your efforts. 
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Look at all those blooms! To me you @Mno live in a paradise of sortsā¦
I know itās cold and dark and rainy lots of the time but your spring really springs in a beautiful way. Thanks for the pics.
Have a nice day.
Everyone else, @everyone have as best a day as you can! ODAAT
Hugs for everyone.
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I speak in secret code 
UPF = Ultra processed foods
PF = Processed foods
They both trigger my eating problems right now too much.
UML is a completely different beast and stands for Unified Modeling Language. It is used a lot in software development to visualize the design of a system/software, their structure, behaviours and interactions cause software is complex stuff. And as my games become more complex I want to use more tools.
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Wow, where is this? I love book stores and travel to NL quite frequently so would love to visit it sometime!
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Day 4. Amazing sleep, sunny morning (rare for England), busy week ahead which I need to be sober for so I damn well will be.
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Itās in Maastricht, a city well worth the visit anytime (except during carnaval). Enjoy your sober week sober James!
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Hey all, checking in on day 1373. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Relaxed day. Gym with the wife in the morning, Then a trip to the supermarket for a big shop. Back to the gym in the evening for the kids. Wifes at work tonight. Got to get to bed at a early hour
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My boys decided to clean the window with baby wipesā¦ Canāt wait for the sun to see all those streaks. Iām not even mad, they had a good intentions 
Tony finally is feeling better. He is extremely clingy when heās ill and Sacha is jealous for all this extra attention so it was a bit of a mad house here during weekend.
But itās over now 
Have a good day sweethearts
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