Checking in daily to maintain focus #64

Life in Recovery
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I’m, here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 20

Ma cancelled our planned Shopping trip when I talked to her yesterday. She said she had checked her working schedule wrong and couldn’t make it, because she needed to rest.

It feels mean, but I’m glad she did, because now I’m free from that obligated and can plan something fun to do with the boys instead. I know resting isn’t the real reason, but I’ve stopped to make her alkohol intake my problems a long time ago. She’s and adult and get to choose for herself.

Sunny day today, snows gone but it’s still cold.
Have found a Kawaii store in Gothenburg that seems nice. The boys is just as excited as I am about maybe visiting that store during the Easter/spring break.
We plan to make it an Asian day, Kawaii store, Asian supermarket, boba Tea, and end it with a visit in a restaurant called Thai moon. It’s supposed to give you backpacker vibes and has a tuk tuk you can dine in.
Not that we’ve ever been to Thailand but it had a lot of Gluten free vegan options and doesn’t serve sushi. So it seemed cool.

My husband on the other hand have started to talk about a cruise instead, so in reality we haven’t decided yet :laughing:

I might end up with us doing nothing but bbq as well. But I love the feeling of having endless choices and total freedom.

Wishing y’all a great day. :heart:

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@Mno Sounds like change is calling for you friend. Something fitting will come up, I’m sure.
@Jimz Thanks for sharing. This really changes my perspective on the few crappy nights not induced by active addiction. More gratitude :pray:t2:
@JazzyS I’m so sorry you’ve got so intense stuff to deal with. First the pain and now the fire. I hope you’ll have some relief from the pain soon.
@Wakikki Dear, this is awful. We all know this will pass, but when you can’t relax for a moment, this messes you up. Sending you all the strength to get through and very soon relief.
@Naomi :mending_heart::mending_heart::mending_heart::people_hugging::people_hugging::people_hugging:
@2JTravNZ Congrats on 18 months. That really is huge friend :partying_face::tada::sunglasses::clap:t2:
@K_S Your post are always so much filled with good family life :blush:
@Juli1 Do it the German way. It works. Had a similar situation with some movers. Stuff got replaced and repaired. Next time they’ll think twice before doing shoddy work.
@Timetochange I’m sorry for the situation with your son. But keeping your sobriety nonetheless is great :+1:t2:
@Caitilynn1510 Congrats on one week of freedom. That’s huge :tada::partying_face::clap:t2::sunglasses::star_struck: If you liked the prompts you’ve been working with, maybe you could repeat them? Often the second time around we have new insights and it’s a good way to see how we’ve grown.

118 sugar
16 UPF
2 PF
2 overeating/binge

Goals for today: keeping food journal, mindful eating, taking breaks to check in with me, learning to be in my body, surrendering to the present moment.

The sadness of the last days has subsided. It will come up again. But sadness and I we’re ok.

Today more analysis and diagrams. I love dissecting stuff with my mind. Taking mental objects apart and setting them together in new configurations. You won’t see me happier.
I have s class with the older kids today. I’m curious what they’ll come up with.
Some groceries, I might take the bike today instead of walking. Feeling more like cycling.
Yoga is a must do for the afternoon.
I feel like I could use more socialising in my life. On the other hand I find social interactions always so draining. I have no idea how to find a balance :thinking:.

Enough musing for now. For today I will keep my peace, look at life in kindness, and live in freedom. All of that to you too :peace_symbol::people_hugging::dove:

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I thought like you, wanted to give someone back. Wanted to work with kids l to show them that the world is amazing.
Ended up working myself to a burnout as you know.
My therapist and doctor said it’s better for me not to work with people in a way I’m responsible for them in any way. Because it takes to much from me, and I bring it home.

Maybe it’s a bit similar for you?
Don’t know how your work system is, but here you have the right to take some time off your current job to try work in another field. With the right to come back to your original job if you decide that you want to.

Wishing you the best of luck. Work is a huge part of our lives so it’s very important to find something that’s good for you.

Love the picture as usual :blush:

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108 days
Last of the days off, back to work tomorrow. Got a little bike ride in in the sun.
Took the kids to the gym, the oldest didn’t want to train, thats ok she doesn’t normally sit one out so happy to have her sitting with me watching the little one.
Up early tomorrow need sleep
A year and a half shot bro @2JTravNZ

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Chur! Appreciate everyones kind words today!
Went to work, gym session with a homie!

Had mean feed and a protien shake. Now im in bed heading off to sleep soon.

Thanks for making 1.5 years that little much better everyone.

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Awesome work :fist_left:t3:

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Good morning sober peeps! Checking in on day 109. I hope everyone has the most amazing day!
:v:t3: and :purple_heart:

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&@acromouse Thanks. I appreciate the feedback. I think I’m not done with working in mental health / addiction care yet. But I don’t want to be a police officer or a prison warden half of the time. I need to think on it. And overall I’m still happy where I work now

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@Jimz thank you James :blush: 🩵 I hope you sleep better tonight :sleeping:
@Tragicfarinelli thank you, I hope yours gets better too 🩵
@Davina_Davis congrats on 80 days :tada:
@CleanHeart congrats on 3 weeks :tada:
@JazzyS I am curious to know how/why it was there and now it’s not too, but I have no follow-up with the doctor so maybe I’ll ask when I see the Asthma nurse next month, maybe she’ll have an idea :thinking: thank you, I have never gone this long without binge-eating before, not since I first started trying to address it in 2018 so I’m quite pleased at the moment :blush: I hope your surgeon is able to offfer some advice and reassurance 🩵 and I’m sorry about the fire but glad no-one was hurt :raised_hands:t2:
@SoberWalker that bookstore looks stunning :heart_eyes: thanks for sharing a photo :camera_flash:
@acromouse thank you :blush: I’m glad your sadness lifted :people_hugging:🩵 your mind sounds like a very interesting and creative place :grinning:
@Blondie75 welcome back :people_hugging: congrats on 2 days :tada:
@Lotusflower congrats on 70 days :tada:
@Tomek meditation is great for slowing down and making peace 🩵

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@Mira_D wishing you strength for your cigarettes quit, you can do it, especially since you already feel that way about it, the book will really solidify that hopefully :crossed_fingers:t2::muscle:t2:🩵
@Noshame congrats on 8 months no vape or cigs :tada:
@Caitilynn1510 congrats on your week :tada:
@Juli1 sending extra love to help you stay above the hate 🩵
@2JTravNZ congrats on 18 months :tada: I’m proud of you too 🩵
@Naomi I’m sorry for everything you went through :people_hugging: and I’m so glad you broke yourself free 🩵
@Wakikki sending peaceful and calming vibes 🩵✨️

1316 days no alcohol.
781 days no cocaine.
296 days no vape.
41 days no binge-eating.

Checking-in with yesterday’s numbers…

Slept a bit better Sunday night, until Wolfie woke me up at 2am demanding breakfast 2hrs early! I managed to delay feeding them both until 3am. I was awake until 4:45 then managed to get another hour.

Had a bath yesterday. Which is always a good thing.

Went to therapy. We small talked for a while then I started opening up about something but she had to stop me because we only had 5mins left so she said not to go into it. I didn’t leave there feeling like she hated me this week, so that was a bonus.

I walked over 5km yesterday so that’s good too.

It was so nice to walk around in just a tshirt, and feel warm enough, but I was so cold last night, Spring is teasing me!

Fell asleep early and woke up wide awake at 1:30am. Did some reading, fed the cats at 3am again, played some of my game, and now I’ve caught up here.

Today is Psychologist therapy day, re my sexual boundaries. I really don’t think it’s something I want to re-engage with, I’ve expressed this consistently for the past few sessions, but she wants to prepare me for ‘when the time comes’ that I do. I think it’s unlikely, and I have definitely made progress from before the therapy. I keep thinking each session will be my last, but we’ll see.

Then when I get home I have a Zoom call with the professional declutterer, so I’m intrigued how that will go and looking forward to having an idea about how things will work when she comes here.

🩵

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Hey all, checking in on day 1374. I hope everybody has a good one!

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Day 269. About seven meetings today then off for a week or so (have to do a bit of work on Wednesday am but not alot)

I am going to hold off contacting my son for a while as I think that’s needed.

Have a new desk for working from home… So I’m chuffed with that. Makes it alot easier

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Hey Cam,
Thank you for your encouragement. As well congratulations on your progress. You are doing the work and it shows. Hugs sent to you my friend :pray:t5:

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Day 71 AF
Day 189 doc free
Reset ciggarettes

Hey talking sober family. Happy Tuesday. A lot of to do’s this week. I have to send in pending documents for family court, meet with the school board on Wednesday regarding my employment, along with my regular meetings, and raising three children. I continue to do my best and continue to pray for strength and courage. Trusting the process. Have a sober and Serene 24 all. Stay strong.:purple_heart::pray:t5:

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Checking in for Day 18. That’s a good thing. I’ll see you later, have a great sober day :slightly_smiling_face:

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Day 74, AF

:heart::pray::peace_symbol:

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Day 125. Morning sober fam. All is well, yesterday after work was good. On the way home i saw some girls jogging and i started honking my horn and rooting them on saying go team go lol, they were laughing and all waved. Idk to me that stuff is just fun. Old mike never would of done stuff like that. Today work is good, said good morning to my mom and always tell her to give the girls the biggest hugs and asher my puppers and sophia my cat butt patts. I miss them all dearly, im grateful for my sobriety and where im at right now. A few months ago i spent every bit of 5,000 from college on crack and cocaine. I was broke, thought i was going to have know where to go, felt lost and just no idea what to do. Today sure not everything is in place, but im not lost anymore either. Much love everyone

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49 days free from alcohol
Not sure how I am feeling today, a bit deconstructed. Will c if I find structure back during the day. :sweat_smile:
Anyway, am safe. For today.
Peace and ease 🩵💜🩵

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Day 36 AF

Had a freeze this morning. At least the sun is out, I just wish Spring would arrive for real. It is going to be a great day regardless. I am planning on some good exercise and time with friends. Two months until the grand baby arrives. Stay strong friends. :pray:

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Checking in on day 251. Love to all​:heart::heart:

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