@Lile01 congrats on double digits 
Iām so happy you got your support worker back š©µ
@JazzyS thank you 
š©µ good luck for your CT today 
and donāt hesitate to chase your surgeon!
@Jimz congrats on 80 days
@RosaCanDo belated congrats on 900 days
@Butterflymoonwoman that event really does sound special š©µ
@NewBeginning1 welcome back 
congrats on day 1
@James83 congrats on your week
@Chevy55 good luck for the interview outcome 
@IamThechange congrats on all the 1s
@Seizetheday congrats on 80 days
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@Caitilynn1510 congrats on double digits and feeling grateful for life 
@beachmouse welcome back congrats on day 1
@ladybug1974 congrats on 50 days
@Timetochange enjoy your week off 
@Amy30 congrats on your cool number and yay for meeting other humans irl 
as always, I appreciate your humour 
1319 days no alcohol.
784 days no cocaine.
299 days no vape.
44 days no binge-eating.
Checking in for the last 2 daysā¦
Wednesday I was fatigued from Mon and Tues, so I didnāt manage to do much apart from reading, listening to an audiobook,and writing a schedule for my days that includes all the things Iām not managing to do. I managed to fit everything in and still be able fo go to sleep at 8pm and wake up early, so now I need to work towards actually doing everything on the schedule, but first I need to sort the flat out so I can stop feeling suffocated and stuck.
Yesterday morning I woke up feeling very sad, because Iād had a dream that I was very young and my Mum was still alive and we were in the garden looking at flowers, berries, and butterflies. Everything felt nice and I havenāt felt that feeling since she passed.
After that I really struggled to get myself into gear, but I did make it to my appointment in the city centre. Then I came home and managed to make myself do a small amount of decluttering in the hallway, and take the rubbish and recycling to the outside bins. Itās a start. I then drove to my hometown to collect my cream, but Iām annoyed because they only gave me a 30g tube, which will only last a few days, felt so pointless going all the way there for just that. So now I have to request more ready for next week when I go for my shot else I will run out.
Today is my visit to see my SIL and baby niece, I am so looking forward to seeing them.
š©µ
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Hey everyone,
This is my 4th day of sober, finally i got some sleep yesterday it is just 4 hours, nightmares are still there,
Im thinking what the hell poison i used to drink previous days of my life by spending lot of money. I never wants to look back it again !!!
Today i wakeup but I didnāt enough my sleep but i need to go office, im office now and had a very good delicious breakfast smoothie includes Almonds, Peanuts, Raisins, Honey, Milk, Dates, Oats.
I feel very energised but only problem sleep not enough, I know this is difficult in beginning days of sobriety but i never give up.
Im also noticed some improvement in my overall appearance. Im really shame to look back to my life because of the poison what are the hell things i have done.
Anyway i wish everyone peace and happiness in your life 
Letās continue this sober journey together and something special will happen in life soon
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day 751 of no self harm.
struggling with everything. for a Solid month Iāve been extremely emotional, I mean crying over a cartoon couple saying they loved each other. i know iām lonely but I donāt think thatās My issue. i feel like thereās this huge thing My body is trying to process and i donāt understand what because nothing has happened.
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So sorry that youāre not feeling in your best shape at the moment.
Itās important to remember that we donāt always do. Sometimes you donāt need to do everything your āsupposedā to do. Rest is important too.
Over here we say that if you dream about a loved one from the other side coming to visit. They are in fact doing just that. When you sleep no matter what you actually believe in when youāre awake, youāre in another state and itās easier for people from the other side to make a connection.
And thatās what our loved ones do. Or at least some off them. From time to time. 
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Thanks Jim, I havenāt actually thought about the pressure for it to go well. But it makes sense and thatās probably why everyone was so super friendly 
To be honest, me and my husband were so keen to make friends we got to the meetup an hour early. We were also the first to leave as soon as it was apparent people were getting a bit too tipsy. One bloke started ordering cognac after already having several beers and that was my cue to get the fuck out of there. Likeā¦ I donāt mind people drinking in front of me, it doesnāt bother me and it doesnāt tempt me. But drunk people are not pleasant company. 
On the bright side, I was worried my social anxiety will hit now that Iām sober and Iāll struggle to talk to people or be too boring. But nah, sober me is fun. And thereās no danger of receiving 100 insane ranty texts from me when Iām sober. That helps in making people like me. 
Anyway, itās nice just starting to have a bit of a social life agaib. Iām not looking for any deep connections and friendships, I have my husband for that. But itās nice spending time chatting to other people too every once in a while.
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400
This was actually the first time that number looked big to me. I have no idea why 399 didnāt 
Flipped to 400 and my brain yells, in the voice of Phil Swift for some reason, 'Now thatās a lotta days! How bout some more?!" Crazy. Yay me
Today wasā¦a day. I donāt even know if it was good or bad. It felt like I was in Bizarro world or something. Tons of insanely erratic situations.
ā¢Earlier than usual to the bus stop. Miss the bus for the first time in 5 years.
ā¢Find out it was a half day at school when I notice 5 missed calls and voicemails, after my daughter was already at my parents bc the bus driver took her back to school when I wasnāt home. I honestly had no fucking idea! No school tomorrow either Not one note about it, no email, no text. Nada.
ā¢Had a great lunch shift. As soon as my last table left, around 2pm, my coworker sneaks in all weird and was like āis she mad?ā And Iām like 
āI was supposed to work lunch today.ā And Iām like āNo. I just worked lunch.ā Turns out we both looked at the wrong schedule and came in for the opposite shift we were scheduled for! What are the fucking odds?!
Plus more, just nutso stuff, happening around me. Seriously in awe of this day. Off to bed now bc apparently Iām working tomorrow morning, instead of night like I thought. Cool.
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Day 39 AF
Knotfest was a totally amazing day. Glad I decided to get a ticket. Caught up with old friends and most were very supportive of my stance on being sober.
Peace and strength to you all
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Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 23
The news just blurred out that the government wants to change the university education for social workers, because the studentās arenāt ready for the reality.
If the do that my PhD in social work will be a total waste, and not reliable anymore.
Annoying, but I get it. Never plan to work within that field anyway so Iām not really bothered by it.
For the first time I actually know what I want to do with my life for real. And Iām going to do it no matter what everyone else thinks.
Besides that itās the last day before Easter/Spring Break for the kids today.
And our Easter Bunny helper named Fennec The Fox plans to sneak in on Easter Island when the kids are in school. Somehow he managed to be temporary banned from Easter Island this season, until the Easter Bunny is done with the Easter baskets.
This far he brought the kids some candy, two different egg coloring sets. Make sure weāve got our decorations up by riding on our Easter chicken around the house. And today he is planning to sneak in at the Easter Island.he borrowed the boys computer to make a plan this morning
Wishing you all a happy Friday.
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Whoop! Whoop! Nice numbers Laura! 
Congratulations!
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1749
Feeling better this morning even though I still slept like, well, not very well. My first creative writing class was really fun, and Iām already looking forward to next week. We started of with some autobiographical assignments, easy for me as I love to talk about myself. Curious what the homework will be Iāll get in the mail later today.
At work I did take care of one of the biggest things that has been bothering me. So thatās a weight of my shoulders (the left one still not OK after overdoing the February pushup challenge, stupid me). And glad to see my therapist this morning after she was on holiday for a couple of weeks. Need to talk some stuff through and I can with her.
Three days off work now, and one more week of work and then three weeks of holidays for me. Not planning on a serious vacation but will be having some nice little adventures not too far from home. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love. The pic is of a big adventure, my first American road trip with my American friend back in April 2017. Diamond Valley Oregon. Wonāt get more American than this right. X
@MrsOdh You make me curious what you are planning for yourself Sophia! Glad for you 
@Just_Laura 400 days IS a big number Laura! Huge congrats!
@Seb It makes me glad to see these numbers climbing for you Seb. ODAAT friend.
@Amy30 It IS nice to have a social life again. Me going to writing class gave me the same feeling.
@SadMemeQueen Happy to see you checking in Megan. Hugs.
@CATMANCAM Hoping today will be nice for you friend.
@Lisa-B Big congrats on 12 weeks Lisa! Looking like some big progress made on lots of fronts. Good!
@acromouse Nice to see & meet you Aga!
@Mischa84 Love to see you are learning Dutch & having some nice interactions at the same time! Yay you!
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Day 8. Up early and off to play tennis (in the cold and semi rain, well this is England). Would never happen if I had been drinking
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*Day 2011 
Doing good but have to see if the things I added to my life lately are not growing above my head My agenda is getting to full and it makes me nervous. New things makes me nervous as well, new people, new placesā¦you know what I mean.
Booked a holiday on top of it as well. Looking forward to it, but it is with a friend and I hope it will work out those 10 days together.
Iām good at worrying about things that are in the future 
It has no use at all.
Soā¦Iām going to focus on today instead: work!
And goldsmith class tonight.
Have a good day/night all
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@MrsOdh Your Easter setup is soooo cute . You are so creative! How old are your kids?
@Just_Laura Congrats on 400 unbelievable days! This is so great 
Your posts and the way you share your everyday ups and downs are such a great example how recovery works: ODAAT, no matter what life throws at you. Thanks for being such an example.
@SadMemeQueen Iām sorry you are having such an emotionally difficult time Megan. Sometimes we are going through old stuff cause it still needs processing. I remember once being hit by grief for my dadās passing for several days more than ten years later. Take your time, maybe do something nice for yourself 
@s_unrelax Wishing you a good nightās sleep soon Sarath!
@Mno Glad to hear things are a bit better on your end
@CATMANCAM Sounds like youāve finally gotten some sleep
@Lisa-B Congrats on 12 weeks 
Your words about silence sounds very true. Have to remind myself next time.
@SobrietyForMe Hang in there dear. Your body will adapt. Sending you strength and some comfort 
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5 PF
5 overeating/binge
Today marks my four months freedom from sugar. This feels sooooo good I accept that sugar is a drug for me and that I am truly powerless over it. I just have to keep away from it for today, one day at a time.
Goals for today: keeping food journal, mindful eating, taking breaks to check in with me, learning to be in my body, surrendering to the present moment.
Yesterday I had two small panic/anxiety attacks and my mind is trying to find a ,solutionā to this imagined problem. But Iād rather give up this false sense of control. Today Iām going to let it go.
Iām feeling a bit slow today but turtles can get stuff done too. They just take their time. So Iāll be in turtle mode today.
I want to finish some work from yesterday, do groceries, maybe bake something, do some yoga. Iām hoping for a friend coming over in the evening to play some games. That would be nice.
Enjoy your peace where you can find it, look at life in kindness and stay free everyone 
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Checking in day 2, AF. 
Thank you so much for the welcome (back) 
@CATMANCAM
@JazzyS
@Mno
@RosaCanDo
@Butterflymoonwoman
@tailee17
@Twizzlers
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Day 3 
Up early since 6am. This was normal for me the past 2 and half years. But the last few weeks - especially the last 3 days I have been waking up at 12pm, and glad as it meant half the day was gone.
I can feel today is going to be mental cravings and I have to remind myself that by the time I could spontaneously act on them - they will have passed like a wave.
But I am not going to think too hard about what might pop up, because it will pass. Or might not even pop up.
I know this isnāt going to be easy but I know I can do it.
I can see lots of milestones throughout the threads and I just want to say Iām proud of all of you, congratulations on your sober time 
I am recovering in my early days right now, so sometimes itās best to read more and keep it simple so thatās what Iām doing 
I am here and Iām really happy to see everyone here 
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Thank you Menno @Mno
Your words carry much weight
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111 days
Quiet night at work. Got to watch a bit of the league game I wanted to see and also watched a fighter from my gym fight on tv.
Still got 8hrs of work left so plenty of time for it to go bad 
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Good morning sober fam! Checking in on day 112. Had a blast at the beach yesterday with my family and my brothers family, days like that I wish I could put on repeat. I hope you all have the most amazing day!
@JazzyS thank you doll, I appreciate you, always so so thoughtful. Good luck with your CT today, thinking of you 
@CATMANCAM thank you love . Iām sorry about the emotional rollercoaster the dream about your mother took. I can relate to those feelings when I have a dream about my dad, mostly upset I couldnāt sleep more and have that feeling last longer. Have fun today with the fam
@acromouse congrats on your 4 months!
@Twizzlers and we are happy to see you here
and 
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@Mno your pic reminds me of an old TV showā¦ āRawhideā. Glad you and your friend got to experience something similar, first hand sort of like being in your own movie.
Also glad some things taken care of and off your mind.
Yay for the creative writing. Nice replacement for the old bar of long ago.
@SadMemeQueen so nice to see you. You are cared for and loved here. Hugs for your hurts and your unknowns. Hoping better days soon.
@Twizzlers Good way to get half the day done. Lots of people have said theyāve just tried to sleep through the beginning. Super proud of you for your new beginnings. Proud of you. And grateful you are here.
@Just_Laura 400 Days and More!!! Soooooo happy for you!! Congratulations 
Congratulations to @ everyone for each day you havenāt used or partook in your drug, drink or behavior of choice.
To those who have and are wanting to stop the help and community is here for you.
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