Everything is going well right now. Pilates two days a week was good for me. Workload during the week, walking in the evenings, family dinner, chatting with the children. In fact, the steps to return to the order I have established in the last three years…
Day 62. Barely handling the work/household/parenting combo this week, and I’ve had to cancel the ‘fun’ things in our schedule this week. My wife is probably getting tired of me being a zombie in survival mode all week.
Just trying to focus on doing what I can - even the small things like making the bed, doing the kitchen clean up, and keeping positive energy around my daughter - I hope are at least keeping our home afloat.
It is a nice mini-break to scroll through some posts of yours on here for a few minutes.
Checking in
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Woke up with no voice I guess i caught whatever cold my son had earlier this week. Im just thankful my son is feeling better. Once he got on the bus for school, i went and had a nap until 1pm. I guess i mustve needed it. Had a using dream during my nap so that wasnt plesant, but i woke up clean and sober and thats all that matters Just doing a few chores now and then will prep for supper. Hope everyone is doing well!
Ok, this is too cool a number to not check-in. I’m ok, been working on spending less time browsing my phone and more time doing productive stuff. The new meds seem to be working. I feel less depressed and so far, no side effects to write home about. AND I started making friends with real-life actual humans. Like… meeting people in the flesh and talking to them. I mean, you guys are real life actual humans too, but most of you are too far away.
My husband joined this social group for expats and we met a few couples like us, where one person is local and the other is a foreigner. It’s nice putting myself out there and hanging out with people for the first time in ages. On the flipside, I seem to be the only one not drinking alcohol. It’s cool. So far, no one asked why. But someone might at some point.
I’m thinking of maybe answering in a jokey manner something like, ‘I don’t have a problem with alchohol, I actually love it. BUT you all might end up having a problem with me if I start drinking again.’
Checking in. Today was ok, had a good therapy session, went for a run, had an evening walk and spent some time with my kids during the afternoon. It seems that the non-stop overwhelming feelings are over for now, and I’m extremely grateful for that.
Made it through some rough little bumps today.
Glad I pushed through instead of not doing them and then feeling even worse.
I know how this goes, for me, I have to just get up and push on and then slowly with each effort and accomplishment i start to feel better. Helping my self be in a stronger more positive mental state to keep going sober.
Today has been an orite day, that’s good enough for me.
It’s better than the last few weeks we’re.
Man, I feel ya on feeling like a zombie After working all day, after both me and my daughter were sick for a week, I’m just laying here, exhausted, looking at this trash pile we’re living in and I don’t even care Nothing has been fun for too long Hoping some energy and motivation comes my way soon. And yours too!
Evening …. Checking in on day 38. Everything is going great, pretty weather certainly helps. Looking forward to a good nights sleep and a hangover free morning.
I haven’t checked in for a little while. Today I reached day 84 AKA 12 weeks. I’m in bed about to go to sleep as I’m wrecked from a long day however I’m brimming over with joy. If my heart had a mouth it would have a huge smile on it.
My first 4 weeks were horrific.
2nd lot of 4 weeks was a struggle.
The last lot of 4 weeks were easier in one way but worse in another. I’m settling into being sober but also trying to go out of the house more. That’s when the discomfort comes in & I can’t rely on my “old medicine” to help me out with alleviating the discomfort. So I’ve sat in the awkward silences telling myself that the other person must feel it too. And then telling myself that it’s not always my job to fill these silence.
Becoming sober felt a million times more uncomfortable & I managed that.
@mno sorry that you are loosing sleep over this friend. Glad you are working through this in a healthy way. What a beautiful picture – lovely sight to see Hope you have a wonderful time with your creative writing class. @just_laura Oh man this sucks hard – I do hope you find some relief soon and are quickly on the mend. Many healing thoughts and vibes your way. @lile01 WAY TO GO – sober and another day of being in control! Our addiction truly is a bastard that bring nothing but heartache and sickness. Keep up with your amazing efforts Indi. You are making great use of your tools my friend – keep pushing forward – I did sleep away many of my urges. @newbeginning1 Congrats on your day 1 Matt and your amazing positive attitude – YES—lets stack on those days @james83 1 week milestone way to go James! Keep going strong @iamthechange Love the number Ami – 111 Keep going strong my friend. @chevy55 OOH good luck – an outdoor park job sound perfect for you. @lotusflower Wishing you luck my friend – hope you get some good news soon. Way to find a release through manicure and talking with your sponsor and NOT giving into that urge. Shows strength @lighter I treated 3 weeks like an official milestone — treated myself for each milestone in one way or another. You are kicking ass and should be proud of your progress. Sorry the sleep is a bitch – it did take some time for me to get it regulated. If I am honest with myself I am not sure the sleep in my drunken state was actually good sleep. I got from night to morning but don’t think my body did any recovery / healing or even got REM sleep. So proud of you girl – Keep up the amazing work @charlie_c yeah day 11! I too think one should have a minute to get situated at work before the shit storm hits. Sorry your day started out that way. We have a right to be grumpy sometimes… hope your day turned around for you.
@smkygal UGH I hear ya on wanting to fast forward. It took some loved ones a month to finally see how serious I am about my sobriety and finally come around. Give it time my friend and let your actions do the talking. @button83 great to see you Julia and with your 32 days! Keep plugging away – here if you need @caitilynn1510 YEAH double digits. Looking forward to celebrating many more milestones with you @beachmouse Welcome back Julie! Great work on day 1 @ladybug1974 YEAH day 50 Izzy and stacking up the days! Keep up the great work. @aybee That is an awesome looking number friend – very impressive! @PositiveThoughts Great work on 62 days friend. You are juggling a lot and I’m sure its on little sleep. Hope you give yourself some grace. Some things can go undone like the bed for instance. You and your family are first priority. Just keeping doing what you can … sending you love and energy!