Greetings sober fam! Checking in on day 120, my official 4 months is two days away but I like the 120 tooš. my kids asked to color Easter eggs today and with them being almost 15 and 13 years old I am over the moon happy!! So I am looking forward to that! I hope you all have the most amazing day!
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Day 136. Nothing to crazy going making some eggs to color and just hanging with my girls. Probably go out for a little bit but nothing crazy much love
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Checking in on day 2.
No urges to drink by myself, which is a really good sign. Seems like I only mess up when Iām with others now, which is a massive difference.
Taken the morning after pill but have been advised that it wonāt be as effective as I got it 36 hours afterwards and my medication reduces itās effectiveness. Great. So now I definitely have to take a pregnancy test in the coming weeks.
Spoken to my āfriendā who was āshocked that this could happenā and that itās āthrown him in a loopā - canāt tell you how many times Iāve rolled my eyes at that one 
I think heās lying about certain things as, although I blacked out and canāt remember much, my account of the night doesnāt match up with his, and he certainly seems to know a lot more than me!
Havenāt gotten my stuff back as I didnāt want to see him and told him that I needed space. Heās said heāll be āsupportive regardlessā of what happens or what I choose; I donāt think he understands the gravity of the situation.
Shame on me, shame on him.
Iāve been having constant panic attacks since and have been advised by my GP to start vitamin d and folic acid supplements, ājust in caseā, and I think reality has cracked me over the head with a hammer.
I feel sick and sweaty and completely out of control.
Ugh. Just ugh.
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No, itās AI generated based on a description of me and my dog as I didnāt want to put my face out there.
Hereās a real pic of the good boy:
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Heās gorgeous. I had a good boy that looked just like him. Heās still alive but my ex got him when we split up.
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Checking in on day 90ā¦ climbing up ODAAT
Itās soooo beautiful here today so I will be taking advantage of some outside time for sure today
Keep it sober this Saturday friends 
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Congratulations on 90 days! 
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Congratulations on day 90 
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Congratulations on 90 dayās 
Keep on climbing 
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Congrats on 90 days!!!
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Woot woot, congrats on 90 days. Great milestone and closing in on the triple digits!!
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Day 11 
Well, I woke up first thought was I want to drink and donāt want to wake up to the world yet. Soā¦ I grabbed my swimming bag and just went. Feel like a completely different person 
All the things that were bothering me seem less annoying and Iām my face.
Took Polly out for a lovely long play and she absolutely loved it.
Going to cook some fish this evening and then watch 12 monkeys (I think thatās what itās called) and relax with the fur babies.
My energy inside feels like itās been given a burst of healing and I am grateful for it.
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Checking in Day 10 i believe. Getting better sleep and mood is better.
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Itās so good to read youāre back on the sobriety train, Indi. To me, it sounds like your āfriendā took advantage of the situation. Maybe he insisted you start drinking with him because he knew thatās the only way heād stand a chance with you.
Hopefully youāll be fine with the morning after pill even if you took it a bit late. Theyāre supposed to work for up to 72 hours so fingers crossed.
And one last thing, please donāt think Iām judging you, you havenāt done anything I didnāt while under the influence, but you should really consider getting STI screening in a couple of weeks from now, maybe a month or so. My local sexual health clinic used to do a post service where they would send everything you needed to take your own samples at home, send them to the lab, and then the results will arrive by text. It was all on the NHS, you can check if you have any similar services in your area?
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Oh, just remember that weāre putting our click forward tonight. And will loose an hour for daylight savings time.
I belong to those people who think we should have constant winter time. I need my extra hour.
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Awwwww 
Please try to not worry yourself sick 
The chances are the pill will work. They wouldnāt give it to you if they thought it wouldnāt and would then be harmful okay 
Try to be easy on yourself, thereās no shame you should feel - we all have made mistakes we regret and wish we could go back and change.
Please be kind to yourself
2 days is brilliant, your pushing through. Donāt keep your mind in a dark place, your doing good.
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Right on Twizz! Iām happy you made it through that craving. Not engaging with the voice and just up and doing something fun- love it . Congratulations on your 11 days and your big win!
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Well done for getting back in the pool! Does wonders for your mental health. Thereās something about water immersion that feels so right.
12 Monkeys is excellent. If you havenāt seen it, youāre in for a treat 
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Oh itās brilliant thatās what I look forward to in the evening watching a few episodes - maybe a whole season even hehe. On last episode of season 1.
Oh yes the pool was amazing. Canāt wait to go again.
Thank You
@Lighter Thank you too
Itās so nice to see us all together pushing through each day
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No judgement taken at all! Youāre 100% right.
I did discuss it with my GP and have been referred forward, so all of that will be sorted.
I just feel very used and scared 
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