Thank you Twiz, I’ve only just turned 21 and have no real family support, so the idea of having a baby has thrown my brain out of whack. I’ve done lots of stupid things drunk, but never anything this stupid.
Congrats on day 11! And for going to the pool. Sounds like it did you a world of good. Keep it up friend 
Im pretty sure there is also the option of having a coil fitted up to 5 days after…
There is, but I’m not comfortable with it. I know it’s much more effective too, but after everything that’s happened, I really don’t want to be seen at the moment, if you know what I mean x
Your not losing it just paying it back. 
I had to a few weeks ago.
Would you be more comfortable with having that fitted or being pregnant is the question really? There is nothing to be embarrassed about they deal with it every day
Oh and it sux to pay it back! I’m with @MrsOdh and think they should just keep falling back. Just keep falling back till everyone is caught up on their sleep 
Fair point, the coil just freaks me out (and it’s Easter now, so I’m not sure if I’d be seen in time, regardless).
I’m praying that I’m not pregnant, and if I am, I know I have options.
(The walk of) Shame can be one of the biggest obstacles of sobriety. Can also be one of the biggest drivers.
Maybe a bit of permanent space between you and your friend would be good… I can’t say I’ve never had unprotected sex with someone whilst drunk but I can say I’ve never had sex with a woman whose blackout. I’m in total agreement with @Amy30 - I’m sure it was consensual but friends don’t do that.
It made me feel weird that “he’s in a loop”… What does that mean? It sounds like bullshit. The good news is, you don’t have to see him again if you don’t want to and as far as his stuff goes - it’s only stuff.
So much as you can, try and go easy on yourself. There’s no quick fix for alcoholism and I can pretty much guarantee that if you were to tel President Douchebag that you’re getting sober now, you wouldn’t hear from him again. I haven’t heard a word from anyone I used to drink with, not the first time I got sober or now.
Sick, sweaty and out of control - Yeaaaa that’s the alcosweats and alcoshakes kicking in! Just have plenty of sweets and energy drinks on hand and it should balance it out. Don’t bother trying to sleep until you’re absolutely certain you’ll hit the pillow and FRO cuz you’ll just be more irritable.
Also, don’t beat yourself too hard with the reality-hammer. I don’t know if you’re going to consider the steps route but my sponsor put step one to me like this.
Step 1) Do you need some more chaos? Have you had enough yet?
Ok, we will be here for you Indi, i wasnt trying to sound at all harsh lovely i just wanted you to know all if your options, sending love and hugs xx 
Thanks for this.
It’s so frustrating because I made it incredibly clear that I wasn’t drinking and he said we could have non-alcoholic drinks - have no idea how that changed, I can barely remember anything. Not how I got back to his, not how it started or ended. Just waking up stupefied and in a complete panic.
Not harsh at all - thank you as always x
Glad you’re staying with us, Indi. I agree that is not a friend or someone that even cares about you. You are worth so much more. Glad you’re on Day 2 and came right back.
Maybe speak with someone at the sexual health/family planning clinic…there are certain times of your cycle where itd be less or more likely you can get pregnant, theyl discuss it with you and it might help xx
It’s scientifically proved that the day after daylight savings time is the less productive day during the year. And with our almost 8 months of darkness through fall/winter/spring I think we definitely should be able to keep our hour all year. 
I do track my cycle but I have no idea where I’m at because my periods are irregular and I didn’t have one this month (haven’t been sexually active in years, so defo wasn’t pregnancy related).
Sorry if this is TMI, but;
One of my apps reckons it was during my fertile period, another reckons it was just before my period was due, but I’ve had nothing so far 
If you’re sure it was consensual and there was no foul play and you ended up getting blackout drunk and can’t remember it, I’d say you’re probably remembering the most important part for you right at this moment in time which was the sex was unprotected because now you’re able to address in whichever way you see fit. In terms of his moral compass… I mean, sounds like a person you don’t need a second opinion on, tbh.
Rest up, stay hydrated and sugared. Monster sugar free in the white can or the mango one is really good for the early days and also, if you can find the bags of fruit pastels that are just black current, they’re the bomb diggity 
Awww I can absolutely relate to how you feel. And it must be so frustrating knowing that the meds are working and can’t take them.
Pretty sure your doctor will find an equivalent.
You’re such a strong person.
Keep on keeping on. Wishing you all the best 
Checking in this fine Easter Saturday! So tired Im a bit delirious lol abd hubby too. Our company is here and trying to maintain my awakeness lol. Kiddo 2 is sick so a few more sleepless nights in a row and Im absolutely zonked. Still glad we have the company here for Easter as its merrier 
Wishing everyone a sober Easter weekend xo.
Hey Indi,
Sounds trite but try not to worry too much… what’s done is done now. Maybe have a bath or do something to take your mind off it, stress won’t help. Be kind to yourself, we all make mistakes. Secret is not to make the same one twice
We’re close the the timeline to the west so I’d rather have summer time all year, makes for more daylight on average here (seems strange but true). Although now I get up at 5 in the morning it doesn’t make too much difference for me no more… Tomorrow is going to be rather early for me working the early shift. I still love it when it will be still light a 8 at night tomorrow though.