@JazzyS thank you so much for the advice. I am trying allowing myself the grace to listen to my body.
Second check in- still day 2 Today I took a couple of naps. It was very helpful. Focusing on being alive and present. I read a quote “Grateful to have woke up instead of coming to. Free from the burden of guilt, shame, and remorse.” Amen!
Well, I just got a text from a coworker explaining something going on tomorrow afternoon thinking 'why’s he telling me this, I work at night? ’ except I checked and actually do work in the morning! If I didn’t get that text I wouldn’t’ve shown up! That’s never happened to me before and apparently won’t yet, but…what are the odds?! I would’ve been at the laundromat with all my work clothes washing when they realized I wasn’t there! Anyway. Going to bed to rest up. Wtf!
The funeral of my friend’s dad was OK as far as these things go. I’m getting at an age where it’s a good opportunity to meet some old friends. Some pretty close ones from back when I still drank. Talking with these old friends it’s remarkable to notice how much I have changed through my journey of Discovery and how hard it is to explain that to them. Or maybe how hard it is for them to understand. It’s probably both. Anyway. We were lucky with the weather as there was a crazy amount of rainstorms around but the burial itself was done in the sunshine.
Today I’m not at the clinic, but still working the morning as I have a meeting with my colleague experience workers. That’s half a day, than I have my homework to do for writing class which is tonight. Cook a meal and do some chores in between. Busybusy but I like. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
I’m grateful for living today, Because of grace of god i’m improving all the day without alcohol, My mind is happy always and my boss is happ to me also.
Last time i thought i will lose my job but because of god my boss gave me last channce, All the problem happen because of alcohol.
I will continue my sober journey, I will attend AA meeting today night. I wish a wodnerful day to everyone.
Stay sober !!
One day at a time
@CATMANCAM Ty. It was my father-in-law’s bday. More like Master Roshi than Goku, lol. Yeah, man. They charged me $75 just to cancel the appointment. They got me good! Keep crushing it with those numbers! Congrats on triple 3s off the vape.
@JazzyS Ty, Jazz. The lil man woke up fussy from his car nap, but it was a chill day overall.
The weeks are whizzing past now I am back at work. I am basically enjoying being busy and feeling useful, but also have made a couple of mistakes that made me feel pretty crappy. I hate how reactive I am. That a tiny bad thing makes me feel rubbish, and then a tiny good thing makes me just crave more of that good thing. I don’t feel self-contained, if that makes sense. But sober. From the AA group that I don’t join much anymore, a member sent me a slightly odd message at 2 in the morning. He had had “one drink, but it was ok”. I hope he doesn’t slide back into regular drinking, but I think many of us know how easy that is to do one the line has been overstepped once.
I’m here, I’m alive, I’m sober and I’m happy.
Day 58.
Still frozen and cold as heck outside.
The protein powder I started to try last week, isn’t good for my stomach at all.
Not going to try a new kind. I feel like I’m doing just fine without it.
Don’t need to add another thing to stress about.
Also discovered that my new plant protein (Pea based) “milk” is containing a lot of sugar. Masked as “healthy Sugers”
So back to unsweetened oat milk again.
I want to decide by myself if I’m going to eat sugar or not, and I preferably have that sugar coming from something sweet that I like.
Still having a hard time with the calorie amount. Probably going to tell my health coach that I’m done with this.
I’ll keep the exercise up, but I’m not doing this anymore.
Stress is worse for your body than anything else. So I’ll rather be stress free from all that than trying to reach a goal I’m not comfortable with.
@Soberbilly Huge congrats friend. So happy about your two years of freedom @s_unrelax You are doing a great job letting that sober streak @Mno I definitely will need a cycling vacation in the Netherlands if you keep posting those teasing photos @Just_Laura Good to know the universe/world has your back @Jeanine Alive and present is the way to go @Butterflymoonwoman May the gods of hot showers, salty waves and letting go give you strength and ease @Scorpn @Shel75 It really is amazing to see how you are successfully navigating those people drinking all around you. Very impressive @Whereswaldo Happy ninja day @JazzyS Get all the rest you need love.
More game design studies today: systems and behaviours. I feel like I’m getting closer to understand key parts of game design I was missing and need for my own design work. I still don’t have a good process for turning game ideas into mechanical systems. With this course I hope to get more structured.
Still a coughing and sneezing party here at home.
Want to pick up a prescription for HRT later in the day. Relaxing yoga in the afternoon. More catching up on my finances.
Whatever life will bring: Mindfulness and yoga all the way today. One day at a time.
Have a good day in peace, love and freedom friends
Day 306. Working 8-5. Quiet morning but alot of meetings in the pm then off till Monday
. Tinitus is bad. I’m finally getting better at pacing work and what I will or won’t do. (was invited to a conference which I’m not going to… Would have been a six hour round drive)… Going to focus on what’s going on here.
Today I won’t drink alcohol. Just probably too much coffee:) I often wonder where life would have gone if I had stopped alcohol sooner… And some of the toxic people I would have walked away from in the past. Just keep moving forward I guess
Congratulations, @Soberbilly !! Yay!!!
Two Years of Freedom and going forward! I picked this for you because it is very chill like you and also very beautiful and peaceful… I know you have helped many with their own recovery journey while you have supported and enriched your own freedom from your DOC!
Thanks for all you have given me. You are a pleasure and a treasure! Plus you are Gramps to Blake w his pancake and Maddie w her wonderfulness… Wishing you all good days my friend. ‘Be easy’.
145 days
Up early for the dawn service. Was a nice morning, last one I was at it was raining and cold. After work picked up the kids from the grandparents then later in the morning went to the museum, was busy with quite a few ANZAC day activities taking place.
Home for lunch and a nap before watching my team lose, maybe its not our year
Thanks Jazzy, your 490 days is inspiring! And great news getting your house rented. The friends thing is tricky, I’ve known them for years, mixed with business and we stay in a village… and they’re mates. I get it though, my family and my health are far more important. I need to keep that in mind. Feeling better today. Spring has eventually made it to Scotland. Have a great day!