@zzz congrats on 30+ days 
@Juli1 congrats on the distinction 
Iām glad the keys got handed over without issue, and I hope you enjoyed your Thai lunch with your mom 
@MrsOdh oh wow, that is scary! Iām so sorry to hear about the young boy 
Iām glad the social services are only taking tweenie for the funeral, I hope sheāll be okay, itās so sad. Congrats on 60 days
@Laner woah that is awful, how is that even legal for teachers to be drinking whilst in the school, and hitting and shaming the poor children! 
Iām so glad you protected your sobriety. 
@CleanHeart congrats on 60+ days
@Chuckie22 š©µ
@AbbyNormal welcome 
congrats on 2 days sounds like a good routine youāve got going 
@Whereswaldo congrats on 40+ days
@SoberWalker good to read from you Iām glad the volunteer work is going well. Itās cold and wet where I am too, enjoy Spain 
@james83 Iām so glad your wife is supportive, hopefully it will become something she also doesnāt think of or miss 
@acromouse congrats again on 3 weeks no UPFs and 1 week no dairy
@Chevy55 wishing you luck and energy for your busy summer season 
@tailee17 congrats on 60 days
@Seizetheday congrats on your first sober holiday
@john_connor1337 welcome back
@Twizzlers glad youāre okay š©µ
@TrustyBird congrats on 800+ days
@SY1234 welcome back congrats on your week
@Danwood85 congrats on your week
@wahtisnormal congrats on 2 weeks
1356 days no alcohol.
821 days no cocaine.
336 days no vape.
1 days no binge-eating.
I felt too ashamed to check-in with a 0 on my counter on Friday evening, so Iām checking-in now with yesterdayās numbersā¦
I did make it through most of Friday, but when the ice cream van came round at 5pm, I couldnāt stop myself, then before I knew it Iād been to the shop and was bingeing my way through copious amounts of sugary foods, 3 big bags of crisps, and 2 bottles of coca-cola with sugar in. 
No more ice creams. No more local shops. No more takeaways. No more binge-eating.
Having all that sugar in my system has triggered a flare up of pain and fatigue, so Iām just managing that as best I can.
My dad cleared out his garage recently and I now have 3 big boxes full of photos from before my mum passed away. I havenāt been able to bring myself to look through them yet. I guess Iām scared of the feelings that may come up.
Iāve been reading a lot. Iāve managed to watch some TV in the lounge. Iāve been catching-up on meditations, and now Iāve caught-up here, which always feels good.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends.
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@Bunto welcome back congrats on day 1 sending strength š©µ
I live in a country that is very corrupt. It doesnāt matter what is legal or illegal when all you need to do to get out of trouble is pay a bribe. I hate seeing anyone mistreated especially kids but unfortunately I see it every day and in a way have become desensitized to it. Iāll never be used to it but it no longer shockes me when I see it happening. It definitely makes me angry and upset to see. Unfortunately the behavior I mentioned which I know isnāt right is considered culturally normal and is widely accepted as okay. 
Hey Bunto, great work being here! Very brave making that first step. Maintain accountability by posting on here daily. When those cravings are hitting in the afternoon, get on here. Get through that first day with us and focus on the next with us!
Checking in sober. Man i havent been able to sleep the past couple of days. Just getting 5hrs of sleep. Hopefully iāll get better sleep tonight. But ive been productive so far: reasearch for work, updated 2 months of my budget, cleaning my email boxes, caught up here, contemplated my 2yr sober share for my ladies meeting, and its only 630am. Today is going to be a good day
@CATMANCAM thank you
@Whereswaldo thank you, good thought appreciate it
@Twizzlers Wow, that sounds rough! Hope you feel better soon.
@MrsOdh Congratulations 
@Butterflymoonwoman Iām not surprised, I would be completely unable to do anything on that much sleep. I really hope you can catch a break soon.
Day 1356
Weekend of nice weather, so we had a BBQ today. My daughterās friend joined, and it was simple but yummy, and enough leftovers that I only needed to make some instant ramen at night. My husband had a couple of beers, glad I am in a place where I donāt feel any fomo at all. Had some nice grape juice with the kids, and ice cream after and that was more than enough.
Cheers @CATMANCAM sugar is toughā¦Iāve been eating loads of shit recently. Watching a documentary on Netflix called hack your health. All about the gut biome. Making me think about dietary choicesā¦have a great Sunday 
@MrsOdh Congrats on getting back to 2 months sober, Sophia. 
@Danwood85 Congrats on a full week sober.
@wahtisnormal Congratulations on 2 weeks sober Zoe 
@CATMANCAM Sorry about the binge Cam, but donāt ever be embarrassed to come on here, some things take longer than others, and your crushing your other addictions. I know youāll get this one too.
You think the fact that youāre having trouble with the feelings that might come up from the pictures is weighing on you subconsciously a little more than you realize, and causing the relapse? I donāt know, maybe once youāre able to process that, it might be easier to tackle that particular addiction. 
@CATMANCAM , youāll get this Cam, youāve got some great control over the other vices, sometimes itāll just take some more time. Glad you shared though and are still going to keep working. As for pics and associated feels, take your time, youāll know when youāre ready.
@Cjp , sorry to hear of the crappy sleep situation but nice to see you taking advantage of and getting after it. Productivity rocks and makes us feel so good on the accomplishments! It also may just tire ya out for that sleep!!
haha.
Day 114 AF
Slept decently and laid in bed a bit longer than usual. Felt good, trying to psyche myself out for my tasks ahead.
But Iām feeling great and strong, so weāll just have to tackle it ODAATā¦ that motto works in so many levels. I love it.
Get out and after it if ya can TS peeps, if not, donāt beat yourself up. Staying sober and clean is tough in of itself. Whatever way you live your day, be proud of the hard work that you all are putting in!!
Hey all, checking in on day 1414. I hope everybody has a good one 
Just checking in on day 291. 
Day 58
Starting my day over as I was too tired to get up for real. Loud storm/flooding this morning! Glad I got back to sleep. I tried a new trick again, the first time by accident. How to Get Back to Sleep at 3:
- Get up at 3:04am.
- Be mad
- Make a large coffee.
- Cry on TS
- Do some deep breathing
- Fall asleep and wake up sane
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I think I was so tired anything would have knocked me out! Canāt wait for non-early sobriety
Congratulations @MrsOdh on your 2 months!
@butterflymoonwoman how are you doing Dana? Were you able to get any rest last night. Hoping your day goes smoothly my friend
@Chuckie22 how are you doing Charlie? Thinking of you 
@MrsOdh woohoo 60 days is fantastic Sophia. Grateful to be here on this journey with you 
@SY1234 congratulations on your 1 week milestone 
. Keep stacking up the days and in time youāll find new associations to events and tasks and alcohol will be less appealing. Sorry about the staffā¦I totally agree that it seems the newer generation is more self entitled and looking for something without putting in the work. It is frustrating as hell as a business owner. I do hope you their bad attitude does not continue to affect you.
@acromouse great work on your timersā¦ yeah 1 week milestone . I do hope you start feeling better and can enjoy the rest of your Sunday
@Danwood85 woot woot 1 week down! Thatās impressive work Danā¦ keep up the great work
@MrFantastik hope your daughter feels better soon glad your mood is improving
@wahtisnormal 2 weeks!!! You are crushing it Zoe ā¦ great work friend 
@Bunto great to see you back and working hard to stay on track. A solid plan helpsā¦are you able to find ways to keep yourself busy during the peak times the urges hit? Are you able to to meetings or log on here for support? Can you stay away from triggering places/ people? It just takes baby steps friendā¦you are not aloneā¦we are here to help youā¦ stay strong
@CATMANCAM glad to see you checking in. Donāt let the shame keep you from your supportā¦we see how hard you are working and we know this is not an easy road. You have been doing impressive work Cam. Sending you hugs and love my friend 
@cjp sorry to hear about your sleep. Impressive that you are being so productive with such little sleep. Hopefully you will wear yourself out and finally be able to get some zzzās.
@Nordique loving that number ā¦ keep up the amazing work
@Lighter lolā¦ great work on figuring out a way to get more sleep. Hope you are now rested and enjoying your Sunday
Good morning beautiful people. happy Sunday
Was a rough night with little sleep and got awakened with a damn text at 7 this morning. Got semi caught up here and am going to attempt to sleep some more.
Itās a cooler rainy day here and I do love sleeping to the sound of rain.
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free dayā¦
Sending you all so much love
The rain helped me! Hope it helps you sleep, too, Jasmine.
Hey Jasmine! I was able to get a few hours sleep. Hubby and i split the shift which was helpful bcuz i needed the rest. I still feel out of sorts and pretty tired but im on my way work now. Hopefully it goes by quickly. Thank u for thinking of me 
Have a good day Dana!
