Today was unexpectedly wonderful! I again slept very good and started off the day with my morning hike and saw an eagle. In the afternoon I got a phone call with unexpected good news that after 8 years I finally have permanent residency status! So no more crazy visa hassles and passport issues. I’m so relieved with this news and never thought I’d get it. I had nearly given up on it and was so surprised to get this news today!
After I had a very brief moment where I thought ‘I will celebrate with a drink later’ but it was fleeting and passed without much thought. I feel relief and like a big stress is off my shoulders. tomorrow my friends and neighbors will throw a celebration for me. I’m not a big fan of large groups or parties in general so I tend to get anxious about that but I’m just excited to finally celebrate this with everyone.
Anyways hope that everyone else is having a good sober day!
I really love the time zone differences here. I can chat with people god know where in the world at all times of day and night and feel connected with all humankind.
Body is calm, mind is full of Vit C today…over a third of a year sober 🫶🏼
No going back. No intention to ever feel less than I deserve again. No matter what, this is the best me. I show up, I feel, I breathe this air daily with shoulders ready to do the work and hold my head high.
More wicked insomnia. I’m not even functional. I am going to take a page from the Twizzlers playbook. Wear out. It’s like my brain is doing road construction in the middle of rush hour! I don’t want to go asking for sleep meds, I want to learn to sleep again.
It’s messing with me perhaps because of my milestone. I know damned well alcohol would not help my sleep, so no thoughts there. I’m going to clean until my head drops into the dirty mop water! I’ve gotta get nice and tired and get ready to sleep then take myself out for another bracelet. Idk, 60 days? What is appropriate? Do I get a taco, a pack of gum or a gelato? A kitten? What do I get?
I’m sorry I’m no one to give advice on this issue but have you tried any of the natural things? Melatonin or magnesium or the tea’s? I get not wanting to take prescription meds for it.
got some chamomile tea this morning and will see how I do. Supplements not helping much, Benadryl did not touch it. This is probably the worst it will get, though. Keep reminding myself this is temporary. I just want to be functional. I’ll keep trying and if nothing else time will help.
Kind of just want to curl up into a ball thinking about my schedule this week.
Trying to be kind to myself and give myself words of support and encouragement. I am grateful I have a short shift tonight.
They’d just snuggle with me and purr and make me sleepy, right? That would be their mission, right? That’s exactly what two kittens would do. Of course they would
tomorrow my friends and neighbors will throw a celebration for me. I’m not a big fan of large groups or parties in general so I tend to get anxious about that but I’m just excited to finally celebrate this with everyone.
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What do I get? 
I’m no one to give advice on this issue but have you tried any of the natural things? Melatonin or magnesium or the tea’s? I get not wanting to take prescription meds for it.
That’s exactly what two kittens would do. Of course they would 
its only Monday knackered already
