1338 days no alcohol.
803 days no cocaine.
318 days no vape.
0 days no binge-eating.
Finished my cleaning jobs. Had my tenancy inspection. Caught-up here.
Then I gave in to a craving and had one of the nicest takeaways Iāve ever had, including a dessert, and after that I went to buy sweets. So all of my ED related counters (crisps, takeaways, sugar, binge-eating) have been reset again, and now I need to be stronger and get back on track. I have to believe I can do this.
I left a note on my clinic account explaining about my unreliable signal, but miraculously, I had signal when they tried again, and we were able to complete the screening. I have now been progressed onto the waiting list for an ADHD assessment. She said it wouldnāt be fair to give me a timeframe, but that it is considerable. I know someone who recently had their assessment after waiting 7 months, so I anticipate it will be longer than that now. Then if a diagnosis is made, itās the same wait again for the titration (medication) appointment.
Tomorrow I have my check-up with the dentist. Canāt say Iām looking forward to that!
Feeling quite good but very tired,
learning a lot right now. Uhf.
Itās my birthday today
Donāt have any cravingsā¦
Got a few litte presents and heart warming messages and calls. Had a good morning routine, added walking in the wet cold grass at the end of my walks through the fields. Met a very special grey cat today, winding round my legs and rolling on the road. Good foodā¦ zucchini soup for lunch and naked burger with mum for dinner.
The āapartmentā topic is not finished yet. I learned that I donāt need to react on everything. Hard thing if you are triggered. Or your decency telling you, you canāt keep messages unanswered. You can. Definitely. Especially from people with bad communication skills. Sometimes answering doesnāt make things better.
Happy birthday Juli1! Hope youāre having a great one. ā¦ Iām checking in on Day 9, bit of a wobble this morning due to bad night, however buoyed up by test results from nurse at my GP, feeling optimistic. Love to you all and this is a great site. xx
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Morning TS fam!
Beautiful weather here again today. Im really enjoying it. Had a reqlly heartfelt prayer this morning and then went to the gym after my son got on the bus to school and did a pretty intense workout. Hubby treated me to lunch so i ordered my favorite 6" sub from Subway - the chicken green goddess AND a high protien smoothie from Booster Juice. I was starrrrving. Now just doing some light cleaning at home. Its been a pretty decent day. No real thoughts of using either. @HolySquid congratulations on 400 whole days of sobriety!! What an accomplishment! @Juli1 Happy, happy birthday Julia Hope u have an amazing day!!! @Charlie_C congratulations on ur 1 month Charlie! Its always good to see u checking in! @Konrad55 way to go on ur 1 week of freedom @tifflynn07 welcome to the triple digits friend! Awesome work!!
@Konrad55 Fuck you Alcohol is a great attitude and mantra. Congrats on your 1 week of sobriety. Grate to see you stacking up the days! @charlie_c Way to go with your 1 month milestone friend. Keep putting in the solid effort @whereswaldo best of luck with your appointment today! @catmancam So grateful you were able to connect today. OOF ā so much waiting. Glad you got the ball rolling ā just frustrating for how long you have to wait. Sending you hugs. I do believe you can and will get back on track with your other counterāyou were doing amazingly well and will get that back again @juli1 HAPPY BIRTHDAY Jules!!! and congrats on your 70 days! Beautiful cat meeting you today as the universe wishes you a Happy Birthday Glad to hear that you are not letting the apartment BS ruin your energy field. Much love dear friend ā keep having a wonderful day celebrating you!
Happy Tuesday my sober friends ā a happy check in
I am feeling much happier mentally. I am not going to let my body and all the shit its going through bring me down. I am going to attempt a walk ā will have my brother with me to lean on. Just going down the street and backā¦ need to feel this beautiful sunshine. I did manage to get an appointment with an OB for next Friday so that is something. Had to really push for it as they were not giving me anything till end of next month.
Another day in the books. Grateful that i did not have any access to any DOCās last night and that i was beyond tired. I must have passed out early. I had intense cravings and my mind was trying to tell me i couldnāt sleep without giving in - boy was it wrong cause i donāt remember falling a sleep and woke up late today.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
Day 290. Another check in
I think part of being sober for me has also been about reflecting generally on my life and some decisions and almost a grieving process. I canāt count the number of times as a student I was slaughtered as thatās what we didā¦ Or clubbingā¦ Then the married scene of drinking socially. Then when celebrating or commiserating
Just always alcohol involved. Culturally itās so prevalent and crap
I am checking in on Day 192.
I am struggling. My beloved kitty that I raised by hand since she was 3 weeks old has terminal cancer and will I will be saying goodbye to her this Friday.
My heart is crushed!
Yes, I have dealt with losing many petās but this one is particularly hard. She was born on our property and she will be buried on our property.
I want a fucking drink!! I am sad, angry, lost.
The only thing stopping me from chugging a bottle of Vodka is that I am prepping for a Colonoscopy on Thursday. Who knew THAT would be something that would be of help! But, Iāll be thankful and stick with it.
I canāt make any promises after the procedure tho. Hope to hell I can stay strong and not have that drink.
Iām glad your injury isnāt giving you as much trouble now 
I hope couselling goes well for you 
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Hope u have an amazing day!!!
Grate to see you stacking up the days!
and congrats on your 70 days! Beautiful cat meeting you today as the universe wishes you a Happy Birthday 
