Checking in day 100 AF 
i canāt believe Iām in triple figures, Iām so happy and proud. I canāt thank everyone enough for all your comments, likes and encouragement 
xx
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Thank you for writing that. I am so glad you got what you needed from your family. It is interesting how they can make you feel grounded just from being with them. It is nice that you have found a way to make it a regular thing. I have to say though, it continues to astound me how far people in the US will drive as a normal thing. We didnāt drive down to Cornwall with the kids for years because it was ātoo farā and that is only 6 hours. We broke up our trip to Scotland with multiple stops and an overnight stay (again 6 hours) 
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Amazing, well done. So many inspiring people oj this thread today. Massive congratulations 
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Sounds great Rosa. Happy for you 
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Hey hey itās your century day! Congrats to you! Hope you donāt mind a repeat gif in celebration.
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My fam is tight! We didnāt have extended family growing up and I count my brother as one of my best friends. I have another brother and thatās a different story! But my parents and he and his partner mean the world to me. I think itās a bigger deal because I donāt have a network where I live. I left friends behind when we moved and have had a hard time making any as a 42 yr old childless adult here. Havenāt tried very hard and am working on that also. You have to remember the USA is huge! Lots of us are used to driving long distances. And in middle America (which is the bulk of America) there is no option for transit other than driving. I so wish we had a better train system. I used to take the Amtrak train from college in Ann Arbor, Michigan, back home often. What a lovely way to travel.
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- Things are tight. Depression is high. I am thinking about dropping all things community, taking out PFLAG. Anyone who knows me, knows that giving that up means I sank. I am sinking and I havenāt quite figured out how to get myself back up. I am generally a high-end person, happy thoughts, big plans, oofta. I am talking way too much in the other direction in my brain.
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Lovely to have such a tight unit, a family like that is such a gift I totally understand the difficulty making friends, my recent friends have all been made through the children, and that is hard to keep up as I just get more tired!
Yes, I can barely get my head around the size difference between England and USA. It makes sense how you are used to the travel, think we are just not used to it and so it makes us wimps in comparison. I do love a train journey, would love to do Europe by train!
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Grrrrrrl! Donāt give up completely. If you need connection, which is sounds like you do in this depressive downturn, at least use us. Maybe keep one group?! I will be messaging you! Hugs from not that far away. Love your way, sister.
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Our world around us that we are accustomed to makes a huge difference. I wish I lived where things were closer!
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Excellent post. I like what you said about family. Just about to start making a 10 hour drive to see my brother whoās moving to the mountains, but Iām excited about it. Iāll probably just move there. Staying sober opens up all kinds of possibilities. 
Thank you Rosa
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Evening check in, just made 17 days.
Today was a good day. I had a bath and got into pjs straight after work, then had homemade soup. I didnāt have much in the way of cravings but wanted to be sure. In fact, my cravings consisted of getting into bed with a candle and big glass of water Obviously making new routines!
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Ooooo candles! I love that idea! Hope you get good sleep. 
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Iām so sorry @Chuckie22 itās so hard to let a beloved pet go. Give her a big hug and let her go over the rainbow bridge in peace 
You have all rights to feel sad and angry and devastated.
Allow yourself to scream and cry and grieve.
But Charlie please donāt pick up the bottle. It wouldnāt make anything easier nor better. It would make everything worse. Donāt ever let that happen.
Sending a big virtual hug 
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Take a week off it all, donāt drop it. Sometimes depression or lows ask us to isolate, then that causes extra depression and lows. Isolation is a lack of connection and a lack of connection can create a craving or turn towards addiction . Sending love
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This is a condition of six months of accident displays. My brain and body lack and I am struggling with it. Though cravings are missing, I still wonder if it could just shut up my brain, which isnāt right. And connection when you are really different is hard. At 55, I am working on relearning what and how to be, with a different brain.
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Is it frustration on your part causing the question of whether to withdraw, or something else?
You will know best, just stay connected however you can.
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And just a little tidbit, hospitalization was a month in the Fall. At their grandeur they have verbally denied my thought to disengage. Good people and I am, even now, a solid fighter for the rights of people who need it. I just need to remember that.
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Sorry about your fall, I didnāt know that happened 
Little steps, you are still young at 55. Keep fighting 
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It was a fall, in the Fall (Autumn). Thanks. That actually gave me a chuckle.
I donāt remember it and was alone for a day, but they believe it was down the stairs, in a home I had just moved into.
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