I have an autistic 14 y/o.
He was obsessed with tractors and farm Machines when he was a toddler.
Later he moved on to history especially war/ military history (And a little old western/Cowboy/native American history) which is where we are at the moment.
I’m sure he even knows the shoe size of Davy Crockett and what kind of pattern he had on his socks on Tuesdays
It’s really cool. A bit sad that the school usually don’t care or use those special interests and talent because they want to make everyone in the same mold.
Checking in day 45 alcohol free. Hip surgery coming up fast April 22nd. Fighting anxiety and winning as I want surgery and to be able to start recovery.
Checking in day 26.
So close to a month! I had 5 hours sleep last night thanks to deciding to redesign our house plans for our build. Went to bed at 1 and up at 6. It is absolutely amazing how I still feel OK compared to if I had been drinking.
Guys, I’m so stoked with 26 days. I’ve told my doctor and my pysch I’ve stopped drinking. I’m going to tell some friends and family at the one month mark. I need stay accountable and I think letting people know gives me a sense of pride but also a fear of not doing something I started. I’ll be careful who I tell first so I don’t cop criticism especially from my brother’s.
I am also refocussing my attention on this app to continue my journey and not let a measly 4 weeks of sobriety pretend I can do this for the rest of my life unaided.
I’ll just second Jasmine’s assurance that yes it is totally normal. I have posts on here from 60, 75, even 90 days. Where I was in the basement exercising or even cooking some nights at 2-3 in the morning. The insomnia was bad for a while, but taking something away that’s it’s used to having to cope and knock you out takes the body a while to get used to. Everyone kept saying," don’t worry it does get easier"., and I wanted to tell them all to go to hell, because I was exhausted and miserable .
But it does get easier. Hang in there you’re doing great.
Thank you Joe! Exactly right. I want reassurance but I hate hearing it too . But I do appreciate it, just knowing I’m not losing my mind. I may start the 2 am cooking- thanks! Worst is to do nothing but be mad about it. I’ll have a list ready.
glad you are getting good sleep. Yeah to day 2! I know it is hard to not be remorseful over a relapse but I do know that the remorse only creates more of a hold for our addict mind to sneak back in. Be proud of yourself. Proud that you got back on the sobriety track. Proud that you are working your recovery and have gained 2 days. Keep up the amazing work
@Tragicfarinelli that did humour me, a similar thing happened in one of my sessions. I’m having the therapy with a charity that specialises in childhood sexual abuse, so I’m hoping it will help me to process that part of my history and thus help some of my c-PTSD symptoms, but I’m allowed to talk about other traumatic stuff too, like my mum passing away when I was 8, abusive relationships, and other sexual violence I’ve experienced, but I can’t think of any SMART goals. It’s long-term therapy for 2 years, but I know that can go very quick so I am trying to go all in with it, the sessions go so quick! @Laner I’m so glad your friends were supportive 🩵 @Lotusflower thank you and you can beat the cigarettes too, a sore throat and fatigue are common withdrawal symptoms I believe. I’m getting there with my nicotine quit but still using a small amount of prescribed NRT so doing it the looong way. It’s been 496 days since my last cigarillo though 🩵 @Noshame congrats on 11+ months AF @JonasE congrats on 2 weeks @Konrad55 congrats on double digits @Pattycake congrats on 9 months @Mindofsobermike wow, congrats again! @Davina_Davis feel better soon 🩵 @GazIrish congrats on your week
1341 days no alcohol.
806 days no cocaine.
321 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
Woke up at 2am. Caught-up here. Finished Atomic Habits. Did some meditations. Did my “morning” routine. Had a bad migraine all day. I’ve just had about 3 hours of sleep, hoping for some more now.
(I had no s left after my marathon catch-up this morning, so sorry about that).
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Just checking in on a friday evening. Enjoyed my day for the most part. Feeling super positive about where my health journey is taking me. Feeling pretty positive about recovery as well even tho i was experiencing some sneaky cravings for my DOC tonight. I apologize if this is going to be a ramble. I just really wish the thoughts would stop. Sometimes i wonder what im not doing for them to still be present at over 2 years clean. Sometimes my addict brain tells me I miss it or that Im missing out on a chance to “escape” from life for a bit. But then I remind myself of what Im really missing out on: emotional and mental turmoil, physical issues, financial debt, damage to relationships, having to go back to surviving again as opposed to thriving in life, and then of course risking my life… for what? A temporary high that in reality does nothing for me. Any thought in my mind that says that using drugs does something for me, is a lie! I know that today but yet it continues to tell me that.
Im grateful that i can now distinguish what is my addict voice and what isnt. I used to believe every thought and react on every feeling. Now i know that i dont have to react! Thoughts are just that… thoughts. I have a choice today. Whereas for many years, i didnt think i had that choice. Every thought resulted in using drugs. No matter how i felt, i was always using to adjust or manipulate my reality. Thats what my life revolved around. Finding ways and means to get more.
I guess i just needed to get my thoughts out right now. Im grateful for recovery and all of you absolutely amazing individuals that have supported me to get to where i am. Im grateful that i have a HP in my life to guide my thoughts and actions. And that any damage caused due to using drugs, has slowly begun to repair itself. Im grateful that its not all about me. And im grateful that i have other interests to enhance my life whereas for years n years all i thought about was drugs. I think i just needed to reassure myself tonight. That im on the right path and that theres sooo many benefits to being clean and sober. Thanks
Oh how I can relate. One of my favorite alcoholic drinks when it starts to warm up was Rose’. I haven’t craved alcohol in quite sometime but just a moment today I thought it would be nice to relax after work with a glass of wine. Then I remembered the slippery slope that I’d be on. Waking up feeling terrible, the feeling of isolation, etc. Thank you for sharing. It’s a good reminder that it’s my addict mind telling me it’s ok.
Checking on Friday night. It was a strangely long day but the time flew by if that makes sense. One dumb question after another at work and having to deal with a coworker “man-splaining” to me.
Busy weekend ahead packing up for a trip to CA to house sit and dog sit. It’ll be nice to be at the beach but the weather in AZ is just about perfect and the weather in CA is cold in comparison.
Feeling uneasy about my relationship. The 5 weeks until I see my BF again will allow me time to re-think what I want. Tho I do sense an unhealthy habit trying to creep in. I have an ex that has reached out and wants to see me. This ex is historically been detrimental to my well being. He’s almost as dangerous as alcohol is to me. I know logically I cannot drink but why to I try to rationalize seeing this person who will say and do anything to get his way?
Why am I willing to sabotage myself?
Amen sister I’m glad you got your thoughts out. That’s something worth reading right there. Never apologize for speaking your mind. We’re all learning from each other, so keep sharing the wisdom
Why is it sometimes I turn my head to look over my shoulder and my neck just goes “Oh fuck no! I don’t twist like that ” and then I’m paralyzed for the next week?! At least I’m seeing the chiropractor on Monday.
It’s been raining nonstop for 2 days and will be at least 2 more. April showers brings no one out for dinner Boring shift. I hung out with some friends after work. It was nice to be social until I realized it was 12:30am and I was still wearing my uniform Late night winding down. Hope to fall asleep faster than last night. I tossed and turned the first couple hours which was annoying, but it didn’t leave me too tired today so…eh Have a good 24!
@wahtisnormal Great job on keeping the sober streak through a taxing day @Just_Laura Sending healing vibes for your poor neck @s_unrelax Keeping stacking the days! Good to see you back on track @DanaM56 Hope you figure out why the situation with the friend bothers you so much soon. Maybe talk it through with someone? @Butterflymoonwoman Thanks for sharing. Makes my own difficult thought processes easier to spot. @CATMANCAM Hope your getting some more sleep and the migraine will pass soon @Whereswaldo Nice to have you here for the journey @tailee17 Good job on tackling that anxiety instead of using to cope @Mali The days keep stacking . I hope that job of yours works out. @JazzyS Love your Fuck It story Have fun with Tai Chi. Never got into it. But maybe the time will come.
Today I will honour my satiety and hunger signals.
Yesterday’s clubbing was great fun. The DJ was great, the crowd nice.
Saturday means doing stuff around the flat and taking care of my work tools: IT. The Easter bunny has brought us tickets for Cirque du Soleil for tomorrow and I need to plan the train ride.
The birch pollen is supposed to be really high today, so I’m not really sure about any outdoor activities. On the other hand the weather is going to be spectacular. Maybe just a short walk.
My daughter is still at my mother’s and will come back home sometime in the afternoon. From next week on she will be staying from Saturday to Sunday at my husband’s place. I hope this arrangement works out for us.
Definitely a long strong yoga session for today and I’m thinking about chilling with a video game later.
However the day may develop, I’m not going to cope with life through food, eating, or any other misguided behaviour. I can’t control stuff. Might as well let it be.
Have a wonderful day of peace, kindness and freedom friends
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. But I do appreciate it, just knowing I’m not losing my mind. I may start the 2 am cooking- thanks! Worst is to do nothing but be mad about it. I’ll have a list ready.
and you can beat the cigarettes too, a sore throat and fatigue are common withdrawal symptoms I believe. I’m getting there with my nicotine quit but still using a small amount of prescribed NRT so doing it the looong way. It’s been 496 days since my last cigarillo though 
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s left after my marathon catch-up this morning, so sorry about that).
I’m glad you got your thoughts out. That’s something worth reading right there. Never apologize for speaking your mind. We’re all learning from each other, so keep sharing the wisdom 
” and then I’m paralyzed for the next week?! At least I’m seeing the chiropractor on Monday.
Boring shift. I hung out with some friends after work. It was nice to be social until I realized it was 12:30am and I was still wearing my uniform 
Late night winding down. Hope to fall asleep faster than last night. I tossed and turned the first couple hours which was annoying, but it didn’t leave me too tired today so…eh 
Have a good 24!
Have fun with Tai Chi. Never got into it. But maybe the time will come.
