I love how honest you are. Good for you coming up to that 1 yr milestone and also the sheer honesty you always bring to the table.
Good luck on the test! There are some handy simple tricks to master the paralel that I found super helpful 
It makes it a simple step by step everytime if you dont already know them Im sure you can look it up You got this!
@jonase Great work on 2 weeks friend. Whats going on today? Guilt of past actions or something else? We can not change our past (especially our actions while we were in addict mode) and the only way to make amends is by staying sober and letting our actions of recovery do the talking. I try to surround myself with nature and comedy when my mental state goes to shit. Hopefully something like that would help you too. You are not alone Jonas! 
@konrad55 WOOT WOOT indeed double digits 
Great work shining through!
@pattycake Way to go friendā9 months is amazing work Patricia. So happy to have you on my journey with me. You are a shining star
@mindofsobermike Great work my friend ā you should be proud of your service stars! I can understand the fear and hopefully no one will lash out. You just keep putting in your 100% Mike ā grateful that it is being acknowledged.
@lile01 Glad you are home. Hope you get some rest and feel better soon. Sending you healing and soothing vibes my friend. Great work on day 5.
@kvee great work on re-wiring your mind and getting new Friday night rituals. 34 days and counting 
@gazirish Yeah 7 days is amazing work! Grateful to see you stacking up the days! Keep up the grate work
@suechu Glad to see you have sober plans for the weekend. We are here to help support / distract you as well ā keep up the amazing efforts friend ā 12 days is fantastic
@mira_d oh wow that has got to be frustrating. i am not a parent but do agree that common sense needs to come back. Sending you strength. Glad to hear that you and your hubby got a date night in.
Its Friday!! A lovely day and been fairly productive for me. I did not drive today (which was actually a good call) but did finally change up my primary doctor and got an appointment with new doctor for next Thursday. SO i am very happy about this. Great reviews on the new doctor - a bonus!. I am pushing through and not allowing the pain to let me sit. Got my laundry done, some Tai Chi, a little kitchen cleaningā¦ on a roll 
Had a weird dream where i was drinking (not happily) and getting pissed that it was not offering me an out (like no relief whatsoever) and then i threw the bottles out and said FUCK IT - I donāt need you anyways - to the alcohol. Woke up happy yet confused LOL.
Time for a late lunchā¦ wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love. 
Thanks 
how do i tell the shite whoās rewiring my brain to hurry up and stop giving me headaches 
LOLā Ah man i wish i had an answer for that oneā¦ just gotta keep up with our diligence and recovery work ā i do know that it does happen and you will be grateful for sticking with the recovery.
Jasmine, when will my insomnia get better? 
it did take me a few months to finally start getting better sleep. for me i had to use melatonin, magnesium, some lavender infuser as well as lavender oils on my pillow to help.
i know there was a great thread on insomnia here with great tips on how to help you get your sleep back ā will see if i can find it for you.
sorry you are dealing with insomnia. i do know how hard it is to heal when you are not well rested. sending you sleepy vibes Marie ā hope that you are able to regulate your sleep quickly soon.
Thank you, I really appreciate the reassurance. Just knowing that itās normal at six weeks sober helps. And I will see about melatonin. I have some lavender and magnesium. Iām hopeful that it will begin to ease up soon. Thank you!
yes - it is totally normal. you may also want to check out the Meditation for Serenity 2021-2024! (tips, tricks & discussion/ 3 years running woot!) thread for some night time meditations. Sometimes i have had to go through many different tricks as one night i need more assistance.
a few more ideas that came to mindā¦
a warm shower / bath before bed
a nice foot massage (the bodyās nerve endings are here and it helps calm your body down)
a mindful scan from head to toe while in bed ā you start with the toes and squeeze really hard and lightly release with your breath and continue to move up the body till you get to your head.
This is so beautiful.
I have an autistic daughter (was born son), and at 4 years was totally obsessed with the solar system so I totally get how excited you are. Dylan knew all the moons and details of every planet.
Lots of love to you and your sweet blue moustached angel
There are different strategies in place, but when Iām in that intense fight or flight mode, and the pain is piercing, I just run for the bottle shop. Ofcouse, the acute event that happens that day is not always there, but even so, I do need to do some more classes in DBT and CBT to strengthen my strategies not to run when things get painful.
Thank you for replying
Just checking in, day two.
Itās early here, but I had a good sleep.
Still feeling remorseful for breaking my sobriety the other day but trying to look forwards.
I put a job application in for a different job yesterday. If I get it it would change my life! No more night shifts, yay!!
Have a great weekend everyone 
Thank you my friend.,A calmer mind is a very worthy goal. I will try this meditation for sure. May we all rest well this weekend!
I have an autistic 14 y/o.
He was obsessed with tractors and farm Machines when he was a toddler.
Later he moved on to history especially war/ military history (And a little old western/Cowboy/native American history) which is where we are at the moment.
Iām sure he even knows the shoe size of Davy Crockett and what kind of pattern he had on his socks on Tuesdays 
Itās really cool. A bit sad that the school usually donāt care or use those special interests and talent because they want to make everyone in the same mold.
Checking in day 45 alcohol free. Hip surgery coming up fast April 22nd. Fighting anxiety and winning as I want surgery and to be able to start recovery.
Thanks very much Patricia and congrats on 9 months
Checking in day 26.
So close to a month! I had 5 hours sleep last night thanks to deciding to redesign our house plans for our build. Went to bed at 1 and up at 6. It is absolutely amazing how I still feel OK compared to if I had been drinking.
Guys, Iām so stoked with 26 days. Iāve told my doctor and my pysch Iāve stopped drinking. Iām going to tell some friends and family at the one month mark. I need stay accountable and I think letting people know gives me a sense of pride but also a fear of not doing something I started. Iāll be careful who I tell first so I donāt cop criticism especially from my brotherās.
I am also refocussing my attention on this app to continue my journey and not let a measly 4 weeks of sobriety pretend I can do this for the rest of my life unaided.
Have a great weekend sober family!
Iāll just second Jasmineās assurance that yes it is totally normal. I have posts on here from 60, 75, even 90 days. Where I was in the basement exercising or even cooking some nights at 2-3 in the morning. The insomnia was bad for a while, but taking something away thatās itās used to having to cope and knock you out takes the body a while to get used to. Everyone kept saying," donāt worry it does get easier"., and I wanted to tell them all to go to hell, because I was exhausted and miserable .
But it does get easier. Hang in there youāre doing great.
Thank you Joe! Exactly right. I want reassurance but I hate hearing it too 
. But I do appreciate it, just knowing Iām not losing my mind. I may start the 2 am cooking- thanks! Worst is to do nothing but be mad about it. Iāll have a list ready.
glad you are getting good sleep. Yeah to day 2! I know it is hard to not be remorseful over a relapse but I do know that the remorse only creates more of a hold for our addict mind to sneak back in. Be proud of yourself. Proud that you got back on the sobriety track. Proud that you are working your recovery and have gained 2 days. Keep up the amazing work
@Tragicfarinelli that did humour me, a similar thing happened in one of my sessions. Iām having the therapy with a charity that specialises in childhood sexual abuse, so Iām hoping it will help me to process that part of my history and thus help some of my c-PTSD symptoms, but Iām allowed to talk about other traumatic stuff too, like my mum passing away when I was 8, abusive relationships, and other sexual violence Iāve experienced, but I canāt think of any SMART goals. Itās long-term therapy for 2 years, but I know that can go very quick so I am trying to go all in with it, the sessions go so quick!
@Laner Iām so glad your friends were supportive š©µ
@Lotusflower thank you 
and you can beat the cigarettes too, a sore throat and fatigue are common withdrawal symptoms I believe. Iām getting there with my nicotine quit but still using a small amount of prescribed NRT so doing it the looong way. Itās been 496 days since my last cigarillo though 
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@Noshame congrats on 11+ months AF
@JonasE congrats on 2 weeks
@Konrad55 congrats on double digits
@Pattycake congrats on 9 months
@Mindofsobermike wow, congrats again! 
@Davina_Davis feel better soon š©µ
@GazIrish congrats on your week
1341 days no alcohol.
806 days no cocaine.
321 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
Woke up at 2am. Caught-up here. Finished Atomic Habits. Did some meditations. Did my āmorningā routine. Had a bad migraine all day. Iāve just had about 3 hours of sleep, hoping for some more now.
(I had no 
s left after my marathon catch-up this morning, so sorry about that).
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