Are you contacting your kids as well and initiating contact? I don’t know the whole story around this, but just wondering if you are trying to contact them and meeting no response?
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Hi
On the back of my divorce my kids. (23 and 18) blame me for not giving their mum a chance after she had an affair. So have pretty much sided with her and cut me and most of my family out. I have tried to keep in contact, offers to meet up or visit me here but no takers. They do know where I am when it’s birthdays. And Christmas. But I think I’ve not received a Christmas, birthday or father’s day card in over four years? All of it is sadly not something I can blame on drinking and nor can they as I wasn’t drinking at the time
It’s mainly down to I didn’t want to stay with their.mum and their mum actually has alot more money than me (inherited)
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Hard one, sorry to hear. All I can say is that it can be really hard on a kids mind to translate adult actions and if it’s not explained explicitly then it leaves a whole space for their own narrative to fill in gaps. Who knows what they REALLY thought around that time. I would honestly say don’t give in, keep sending the supportive messages and cards and being there. You will need to do this with no thoughts of reciprocation (which I can imagine is really horrible for you, sorry). But you send out what you want to attract. Maybe one day they are ready to fill in all those blanks. I know they are adults, but really inside and around family units the brain can be a child still, a really hurt child.
If you can, resolve to be the relentless dad. You love them. Sending good wishes. I know this is hurtful to you. 
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Thanks. I find it hard as I’m so close to my parents and see so much of my new partners family and mine are just invisible. It’s time none of us get back
Anywayw have a fab day
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That looks Soo nice, now I have another thing to try 
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So true. This forum is amazing in that way (and many others) 
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Yeah it’s good that here im Germany most serious therapists don’t work with someone who is still in active addiction.
They just say it doesn’t make much sense due to all the manipulative behaviour that comes with it.
Exept for addiction centered therapists of course.
So yeah staying sober is the only way in which I can actually make progress. Otherwise it’s just a huge waste of time.
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I was good at begging
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Day 99 AF
Nothing new. Be well.
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Checking in on day 6 
I am still so drained. Dizzy, lightheaded and nauseous. I suppose it’s to be expected after everything I’ve put my body through.
No plans for the weekend, so I get to relax until I feel better 
I would like to go for a walk as the weather is so lovely, but my dizziness has escalated to a point where I feel like I’m going to pass out even when I’m in bed. I don’t it would be safe for me to go for a walk by myself at the moment.
Have a lovely weekend all.
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1 year and 2 months booze free 
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Punishment for your alcoholic sins, Laura lol
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Hey did you have headaches after quitting caffeine?
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@james83 Huge congratulations on 30 days!! Great work 
@danny81 great job on 1 week!!
@Dan.h84 fantastic work on 2 weeks sober!!
@BrOKenWolf Hey Richard! Always nice to see you checking in friend Hope ur able to get some rest after not much sleep.
@Joyce19 welcome back
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2y2m0d
Good morrrrning TS fam! It is a BEAUTIFUL day here in Alberta! Just on my way to work now. It was really nice to be able to do a little reading on here today. I miss that. I find things get sooo busy during the week, but Id like to make the time moving forward to make sure I get my reading in.
Today consists of work and then home to make supper and get things ready for tmrws visit with my parents. Im super excited to see them. Hope the visit goes well. I find i can get overstimulated with too many people around or too much noise, so I may need to take little breaks during their visit. We will see.
Health wise - I have planned my meals for work today so that I am eating healthy. I also left my wallet at home so that I didnt have money to purchase anything on the go.
Recovery wise - I am doing well. Will make sure I pray this morning and focus on gratitude
Have a wonderful day everyone!! Much love
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Checking In 48 days.
Sick again but this time with aches and a fever. No other symptoms though. Took off work yesterday because I could barely get out of bed. Feels like sweated most of it off though. Feeling better today though!
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Checking in Day 14, hi all. Been a hard day, finally slept at around 4am, woken at 7.30 by workmen. Trying to keep busy, nevertheless had The Voice in my ear (left one only, strangely enough) telling me how s–t I feel anyway, what have I got to lose, sooner or later I will pick up again, why not just cut to the chase, etc., etc. So another cup of tea then some shopping. Thanks for all your inspiring stories, so helps to know I’m not alone in my struggles.
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I heard 99 cent stores were closing! 
Such a bummer. Where will I get birthday wrapping paper now, 
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Checking in on day 276. Whatever our numbers are, today we all get to add another day Of freedom to our counts, so let’s all rock this
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@butterflymoonwoman When I think about something 2 years from now I am like whoa that is so far away but when I look back and think how far I’ve coming in the past 2 years I am shocked that I have gone through so much in such a short time. Weird how the mind works. You have been doing a lot of healing in this time and your mind has not caught up to the body (that’s my thinking) like the mind doesn’t know that this is the new life style and it does not need those stimulants to survive. No need to ever apologize for the ramble – your processing through this stuff also helps us process. We are in this journey together my friend. Grateful that you were able to see what you were “missing out” from and none of that sounds appealing. Much love to you dear friend – you are on the right path and crushing it! 
@danam56 I know right now you are already feeling a bit uneasy with your relationship and for me I would not put myself in a situation around a toxic environment that could lead to a relaspse or worse. The fact that you do see that he is almost as dangerous as alcohol then I feel like you have answered this for yourself. You have come a long way friend. We are here for you 
@s_unrelax great work with your 6 days and all the recovery work you are doing. Keep up the amazing energy and efforts!
@acromouse OOH Cirque du Soleil – abosultely loved seeing a show a few years back. Hope you enjoy! I do hope you can enjoy a short walk without any allergy attacks.
@juli1 Ah hell friend – the mind is a wicked bitch sometimes. You are beautiful and a badass woman! Do not let your mind play tricks with you. The addict mind knows this is how it got you to buckle the last time so is trying its games again. You know better – you know no good can come from the poison and you are crushing it Jules! 74 days and going strong
@joyce19 Welcome back Joyce – great work on your day1. Check out the What’s YOUR plan? thread for some inspiration and tips. Glad you are here with us
@james83 Way to go James — 30 days aka 1 month is amazing work. Glad to see you pushing forward with your new healthy mentality and strong efforts. Keeps tacking up the days
@foxmccloud 77 days is amazing friend. Sorry you are feeling lonely and frustrated. Are you able to go to a meeting? Do something fun for yourself? Meet up with friends for some sober fun? Hoping your day turns around for you. Rural living can be lonely at times. Sometimes I video call my friend and we just do a similar activity like cooking or watching a movie together—just a thought 
@mrsodh I loved reading your post. Grateful that you are not feeling triggered and happily stacking up your sober days!. Your pancakes look fantastic – glad to see you making the pancake tower and that everyone is enjoying them. 
OMG – all this talk about pancakes has got me craving some LOL.
@dan.h84 WOOT WOOT 2 weeks is amazing Dan. Glad to see you doing so well in your journey -keep up the amazing work
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