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Day 911 AF
Went 33 days with 0 caffeine. I bought myself a decaf iced coffee this morning. I had no energy. Felt like a zombie. I needed it. I believe decaf has a small percentage of caffeine in it. So, I guess Iām back to day 0.
Woke up and went to buy the fam donuts. My mom came over to visit. Went to the park and stopped by to get tacos. I watched a baseball game, and just chillin at home with the kids right now. Itās back to the grind tomorrow.
Hope everyoneās doing well!
Take care. ODAAT. 
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I got a viral infection, shingles, and it hurts. But Iām very grateful that I donāt have to burden my body with alcohol. Day 3 begins.
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Iām here, Iām alive, Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 48
Monday, both kids are going back to school again.
Sun is shining, sports classes are going to be outdoors from today (a real sign of spring here)
Woke up from a Sunbeam (I never cover the windows I need the light)
And my first thought this morning was: āItās okeyā
So from me to all of you.
Whatever you might feel today, or whatever you might do. Itās okey.
Wishing yāall a wonderful weekend.
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Thank you so much, I truly appreciate it 
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@Joyce19 Ouch, Iām sorry you have to go through such a nasty infection. Get well soon and take good care of yourself 
@MrsOdh 
@GOKU2019 Had the decaf any effect on you?
@Axsis Where is this great real life pixel art?
@icebear Whatever you like to share, is what you have to offer. Youāll never know what might be of help to someone else 
@zzz 
@s_unrelax Good going on the meetings 
@DresdenLaPage The plague of the human mind: worrying and overthinking. Both are ways to try to control stuff you canāt. So apart from the practical advise on mindfulness and meditation Iād suggest contemplating the steps on the whatever is bothering you.
@Mira_D Hope you find some time for self care soon 
@Whereswaldo And donāt forget how your brain sorts a lot of stuff while youāre sleeping at night which it canāt properly process when youāre under the influence of any drug.
145 sugar
9 UPF
16 gluten
8 dairy
4 overeating/binge
Today I will honour my satiety and hunger signals.
Yesterdayās show at the Cirque du Soleil was a total blast. This was my third show and they always leave me mesmerised. We all enjoyed it very much.
Spending time with my husband also sent my emotions on a very uncomfortable ride. Iāve had my peace since he moved out last Tuesday for a few days and had managed to forget how much everything he comes up with will just keep hurting me. This all needs its time but Iām very glad I donāt have to go through this every day. Today Iāll just take my daughter to his place and bring some stuff for her.
Didnāt sleep well last night. Tossed and turned for two hours my brain going through all kinds of ridiculous but apparently necessary thoughts and emotions around my husband. I know. This needs time.
Today I want to work on my gamedev process. I have my class with the younger kids. Weāll play around with music and sounds. Then my delivery ride to my husbandās place.
Relaxing yin yoga in the later afternoon and if I feel up to it Iāll try an online Dharma Recovery meeting in the evening.
I wonāt try to solve my problems today with food or eating or any other unhealthy strategy. I donāt need that. I donāt want that.
Stay in peace today friends, in kindness and in freedom 
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Up late again. I got in a little nap before driving to get my daughter. It really helped perk me up. The drive was so beautiful today. The sun just started setting. Warm enough to have the windows down. Much better than driving in the cold darkness. Anyway, itās definitely time for bed. Happy to have a day off 
Have a good one!
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Iām so sorry to hear this Joyce. I hear the shingles is THE WORST. Iām sorry you are going through that. Congrats on day 3. Thatās is BIG!
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Day 296. Tinitus and banging headache this morningā¦ Will see if it improves otherwise maybe take a couple of days annual leave and listen to my body more.
I generally use my leave to just chill these days. Wirh a mix of going away.
Will take some tablets and give it an hour
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Morning all, checking in on Day 22. I have missed a couple of days here. Became really overwhelmed towards the end of last week with negativity at work (not colleagues) and then had a gallbladder attack yesterday. I have been so scared of the surgery I have been putting off getting the tests done beforehand, but need to as last night wasnāt fun.
I could feel myself slipping away from here as I have done in the past, before temptations to moderate creep in. It is hard because stress elsewhere makes me shut down, but then I know how it always goes so need to find the time and prioritise.
Have a good day everyone.
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Plop. Just logged on. My work diary is full. So I will work 8-3and see how it goes. Maybe book next Monday off
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Day 45
Itās 2 am. Iām thinking of all the night creatureās current activities for entertainment. Little pre historic armadillos and albino possums, stumbling around blind, digging up my garden looking for tasty insects. 
an entire, stumbling crawling ecosystemā¦ 
Insomnia absolutely sucks. But I did sleep some. All will be well. It always has this anxiety along with it. Iād rather do anything but toss and turn so I made coffee. This will get better. Iāll go gather the laundry. Mop.
Good morning Europe 
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Still here still sober over 5months just in the process of writing my step 4 hope everyone is well keep fighting the good fight
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Morning! Kitties are also night creaturesā¦
We were up and running around at six. They had breakfast then crept back to bed, the little shitebags.
Sleep is such a strange privilege and need. Comes and goes for me, good and bad.
Enjoy the coffee!
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My friend down south is ill and cancelled our date. Weather prediction is awful for the coming days. Having a bit of a hard time getting my day started in a positive vein. Will work on it. Will do some writing. Cook some healthy food later. Posting here is a no-brainer. Being here, feeling part of something, caring for you lot, feeling cared for, it makes so much difference. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
@JennyH Alone weāll make the wrong decisions. Glad youāre here. Hang in there.
@Timetochange Listen to your body more. Call in sick. Or something. Be better soon friend.
@Joyce19 Sorry for the shingles. That sucks. Healing vibes your way.
@acromouse Hoping for a peaceful day for you. You gave me an idea, I might go and do my first Dharma recovery meeting tonight.
@Axsis Itās good to see you friend.
@icebear Your presence is an offering in itself Drew. Weāre here for ourselves as much as for each other, in equal measurements. Itās always good to see you.
@K_S Glad to see you, congrats on 116 days, no need for apologies Kenny.
@Maestro Always good to se you check in Marty. Congrats on 532 days.
@Tomek Missed you friend. Sorry for another postponement. Hang in there is all I can say. Hugs.
@Chevy55 I guess itās 101 by now. Huge congrats friend, awesome numbers. Thanks for being here.
@Lighter Good early morning USA!
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- Nice to be in these higher numbers, feeling so good on my sobriety lately. That true belief that alcohol is totally shite and a nonsense waste of space is really kicking in. I felt like this last time for my year plus sober, the fight to drink goes out like a damp candle when you work at it and face reality and all the good that being sober gifts you. And it is a true giftā¦ When you think of all those in pain (whether they even know it) and struggling, you can only do your very best to cling on and worship this freedom from that endless, awful, disgusting and humiliating cycle.
Running my 5k today and will watch Oppenheimer later. Hoping for a big exercise week and clean living. Invite what you want to attract. 
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Think we are due wind, rain, wind, rain and some hail perhaps. Was cold again last night. I know this as fact as both cats were snuggling hard.
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Not all days can be good days.
Sorry about your cancelled trip, if you have days off anyway you can always do something else instead I guess.
Or just take the time and do whatever makes your soul happy.
Beautiful picture as always, is that in your city?
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Itās a five minute walk from my place, on Amstel river. It won most beautiful wisteria in town a couple of times. Not at its peak this year, it had to be cut back as they had to do renovations on the facade. Still not bad right.
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Thank you, Iām starting to think that I should make a list of all the amazing places you post from your city, so I wonāt miss anything if I come to visit.
Love flowers that climbs on buildings,trees and things like that. Iāve tried to make my roses climb on one of your trees, but they decided that they wanted to be ground roses in twirling the grass instead
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