Checking in daily to maintain focus #65

@zzz congrats on 3 weeks :tada:
@Lile01 Iā€™m glad youā€™ll be taking care of your sexual health :clap:t2: Get yourself some tortilla chips for your Gauc when you get a chance, that will be way better than a drink :people_hugging:
@danny81 congrats on double digits :tada:

1345 days no alcohol.
810 days no cocaine.
325 days no vape.
5 days no binge-eating.

Only managed to sleep from 5-6:40am, not for a lack of trying, it happens.

Read a chapter of the book. Did my morning routine in the actual morning.

Attended my Asthma review appointment, going for a Spirometry test on 29th May.

Iā€™ve been feeling very emotionally heavy the rest of the day. Itā€™s been 28 years tomorrow since my Mum passed away, but it never gets easier around the anniversary. Iā€™ll be meeting my brother after he finishes work, to take flowers to her grave.

Usually Iā€™d also have to visit with family too, as one of my step-brotherā€™s birthdays is on the same day, but we are gathering on Friday evening instead. So atleast I can be with my feelings and try to be kind to myself.

Hoping for a better sleep tonight.

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@BrOKenWolf how cool to not have a memory of being chained to the poison. 871 days and living a better more fulfilling life my friend. Wishing you loads of luck for your upcoming interview.
@zzz great work friendā€¦is this 3 weeks? I love seeing your creative posts :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:
@Lile01 Iā€™m sorry Indy. Yeah that would piss me off and have me feeling hurt too. You deserve better and he is not worth ruining your life over. Stay strong my friend :people_hugging:. I do hope you get some guac soonā€¦good guac and chips can be very therapeutic :hugs:
@danny81 double digits is amazing Danny! Keep it up
@CATMANCAM thanks Cam - no luck in pain reduction but luckily I can take it easy and lean into it rather than fight it today. Sorry you didnā€™t get much sleep yesterdayā€¦ hopefully tonight will be better. Understandable for your emotions to be high right nowā€¦ sending you love and hugs. Much love my dear friend :people_hugging:

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Woke up feeling super rested this morning. But wasnt happy to see it snowing :persevere: Went to the gym after i put my son on the bus and then home to do some laundry and tidy up. Not much else happening today. Have a great evening everyone!

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Oh my feeling sleepy and its so early. About to go crawl in bed. Kids were a bit moody tonight, but we managed :slight_smile: Took two days to help hubby get some prohects ready only for us to discover the wood is no good to use, as its damp and some have bugs in it. Have to treat and either find someone eith a kiln to dry it or find a way to store it for it to properly dry out. Ah, the fun of working with barn wood! Have to say he handled the setback very well, and I was glad to be home with him these two days to help him get through it and redirect his energy. Feelibg a bit disappointed in the damn thing myself, butā€¦such is running a little business.

Oh yes so sleepy. Off to it now. Just finished the 2nd season of Time which focused on women, and I gotta say it was pretty profound. Amazing show; and yet such a contrast from season 1 about the male cast to season 2. Anywho, off to bed now. Happy 24 all xo.

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Checking in day 107 AF :black_heart:

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Day 2356? Honestly Iā€™m not concerned because Iā€™m going back to Oceans Calling. Boom.

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I have a better time without alcohol. I donā€™t have regrets when I chose to be my self and enjoy life alcohol free! Alcohol = regrets.

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Tuesday night check in. Was busy at the shop so another 14 hour day and was able to get in a workout when I got home. It rained pretty much all day which is good! We need it here. Thatā€™s about it for today pretty much so going to hit the sheets. Hoping everyone is doing well. Goodnight :sleeping:

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Checking in before bedtime :slightly_smiling_face:

1 year 19 days clean and sober
19 days tobacco free

Have a great night yā€™all šŸ«¶šŸ¼

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@MrsOdh Iā€™m glad you decided to go with what makes you happy rather than what someone says will make you happy. I dropped out of college bc I didnā€™t know what I wanted to do and felt it pointless to keep paying. My aunt, who Iā€™ve never seen eye to eye with, would constantly tell me I had to go back in order to make money (half the people I know with a degree canā€™t even find jobs in their field). She started her own, very successful company and her lifestyle shows it. Yeah sheā€™s rich, but she worked her entire life, never married or had kids. Itā€™s obvious to me sheā€™s unhappy. One time she asked what I wanted in life and I said ā€˜health and happinessā€™. She never bothered me about college again :woman_shrugging::blush:

@Timetochange That really is a powerful quote. Like you, it also took me 3 years to come back after ā€˜just one drinkā€™. When an alcoholic thought arises, I replace it by remembering that horrible time in my life. I never want to end up there again.

@JazzyS Sorry about your pain and fatigue :people_hugging: Maybe the acupuncture is the culprit :thinking: My chiropractic adjustment definitely was for me yesterday. And the fatigue :weary: I had a cup of coffee this morning and went right back to sleep! Listen to your body now and better days will come :heart:

@Englishd That is an amazing lineup, omg! I havenā€™t yet been to a concert sober, but it must be nice to truly enjoy the music and actually remember it! I hope you have an awesome time :metal:

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Checking in on day 5. I am very tired, I sleep a lot. Itā€™s probably the combination of shingles and way too much wine recently. The positive thing is that I find it relatively easy to stay sober.

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Luckily higher education here is more or less free.
Iā€™ve always wanted to be a farmer a florist, gardener,park ranger or writer. Unfortunately Iā€™m allergic to pretty much everything so that would be difficult.

Started to study religion straight from High school, realized that I didnā€™t wanted to be a preacher or a Sunday school teacher. Dropped off, started to study for a social workers degree, got it eventually. Felt so bad over all the people I couldnā€™t help, drank too much. Had some small jobs then I got a Museum guide/archaeologist exam.
Just in time for covid to hit, they industry still havenā€™t recovered from that.

Almost my entire family have been/ are teachers. My grandparents in motherā€™s side, uncle on motherā€™s side, aunt and uncle on my fatherā€™s side. Finally I gave in for that pressure and started to work in a preschool. And decided to try for a teachers degree. With the idea that it for sure would be my dream job.

Worked myself to a burnout in December. And decided that Iā€™ll never go back to that.
My doctor even said that I should aim for a job where I donā€™t work with people in that way, or need to take responsibility over Peopleā€™s life or well being like that.

So now Iā€™ve got other ideas, allergic or not :smiling_face:

Glad you followed your own heart. Money doesnā€™t automatically makes you happy. We live in a world that let us think that.

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Good morning sober fam! Life is lifey, not much to talk about.
Recently i switched from coffee to matcha (thanks @Emerrick :orange_heart:) and guess what! I dont have these frustrating random energy crashes anymore. I still drink my early morning strong black beloved one, sometimes 2nd one around 4pm. But the rest, usually 2 in between, is matcha instead of 3 cups of coffee. I really feel better. My energy is more stable, I donā€™t have a feeling that I fall asleep every time I sit down after 2pm. Highly recommend!
Also, @Emerrick, finally matcha whisk arrived! Itā€™s truly a game changer. Cheers! :slight_smile:

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Sorry about the relaps Jonathan, maybe a daily check in here would help?
It helped me a lot in staying accountable and focussed :hugs: Welcome back! :people_hugging:

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Iā€™ve been so exhausted again these few days. I almost fell asleep on the couch again last night. I made it to bed and slept like a rock only to nap for another 3 hours this morning :astonished: Itā€™s been said before, but I agree. Thereā€™s a pattern Iā€™ve noticed where a lot of us are exhausted on the same days, no matter where in the world we are. Strangeā€¦or just coincidence.

Another coincidence. I get random horoscope pop ups (I keep it alive in honor of my grandmother who truly believed them). Yesterday was 2 signs that will experience abundance on 4/16 and Iā€™m like, ā€œprobably not mine but letā€™s look anywayā€ Sure enough, thereā€™s Libra. Cool. Today, my credit card is denied trying to buy cat litter. I find out the money I transferred to pay my VISA Friday, has vanished! The bank app took the money but it never showed up as a payment. Real abundancy there :roll_eyes: Why am I having so many money issues at the same time?! Fortunately, a trip to the bank figured it out and it should be usable by tomorrow. But that didnā€™t help me today! So I tried checking balances on my other cards, and idk why I even bothered bc itā€™s been over a month, but my last unemployment payment came thru! :partying_face: Iā€™d honestly given up hope and accepted the loss on that one but, plot twist, it saves the day! Horoscope for the win :trophy: :joy:

So grateful I was able to get everything we needed with leftover to spare. I could breathe easy after that. Felt motivated to get some cleaning done before cooking a nice dinner. Headed to bed now looking forward to another day. Hope you all enjoy yours :smiley: To another 24!

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Hi @Eke :chipmunk: good to hear from you!
For me you are one of my sober tribe, you where here when I just started to try to get sober more then 5 years ago.
Our sober dates are 2 months from eachother. Glad you are doing fine too :facepunch:

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Day 298.Working 7-5 today. Not driving anywhere. Headache is still there but not too bad
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I think i just need a couple of weeks off so I need to plan that.
. Looking forward to catching up with work and then the weekendā€¦ I think itā€™s a blessing to work but I would like a break.

My mood is pretty flat. Iā€™m hoping to hear about my bike from halfords today as I would be keen to get out on it and see how unfit I am. I canā€™t or donā€™t want to diet much more. We eat really well. I think i need to just burn off more calories. I walked around the shops yesterday and itā€™s a bit of a mish mash here. Keen to move away when I retire

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@Mischa84 Your caffeine posts make me curious. Iā€™ve been thinking about reducing caffeine too. Maybe this matcha thing is worth looking into? Donā€™t even know what it is.
@MrsOdh Itā€™s so nice to read about your choice to pursue your idea of a good life instead of someone elseā€™s. I was on the career trip some years ago and found out I couldnā€™t care less. It just made me stressed and depressed. I want to do my art and enjoy my life. No hamster wheel for me. And a shoutout to free education :raised_hands:t2:
@Joyce19 Take your time. Sleep a lot. Have some nice dreams :grin:
@Steve14 Hope you get some good quality down time soon.
@emc2018 Thanks for the reminder. Itā€™s easy to lose focus :pray:t2:
@Englishd I Hope you do enjoy yourself thoroughly :star_struck:
@CATMANCAM Hugs and love on such an emotionally taxing day friend :people_hugging::heart:
@Lighter Your energy will certainly pick up with time. Sending you patience (which I usually lack myself :grin:)
@danny81 Congrats on double digits :clap:t2::sunglasses::partying_face:
@Lile01 Hold on girl. Keep holding on. We are here for you :people_hugging::mending_heart:

147 sugar
11 UPF
18 gluten
10 dairy
6 overeating/binge

I slept well, asthma is still bothering me. Coughing in the morning is no fun. Will see if the new meds help or Iā€™ll have to see the doc. Woke up quite down. Will see how this might change through the day. Using certainly will not make it better.
Today is parent-teacher meeting in my daughterā€™s school. Iā€™m not really expecting anything new. But she is excited to choose her elective subject for the next four years today and meet with a friend in the afternoon.
Iā€™ll do my grocery run afterwards. My mum will pick her up for ballet later and Iā€™ll have time for yoga, maybe rowing.
I hope to sneak in some UML modelling in the morning but I donā€™t expect to get done much.

Today I will honour my satiety and hunger signals. Today I will work through my emotions with more skilful means than food and eating.

Wishing you wonderful people a day of peace, kindness and freedom today :peace_symbol::people_hugging::dove:

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Iā€™m here, Iā€™m alive, Iā€™m sober and Iā€™m happy.
Day 50.

Those of you who have tagged along with me for all the years Iā€™ve been on and off here, knows that me and my husband arranged the first Halloween Trunk or Treat in history, in our village (and in our country) a few years ago.

We paid it all out of our own pocket. But havenā€™t been able to arrange it again since then. The local stores havenā€™t been interested in helping in any way, and the city wanted us to pay rent for the space we needed to arrange it again.
So we simply couldnā€™t afford it.

So now Iā€™ve got plans on making my own Pumpkin Patch and Trick or Treat in my yard this year.

Yesterday the universe decided to get involved. Believe it or not, next week me and my husband are invited to a meeting at the City Hall.
With the mayor and all the city politicians, about arranging a truck or treat this year.

We met one of the local politicians outside the doctorā€™s office yesterday. His kid is friends with our 12 y/o. He said that theyā€™ve recently discussed our Trunk or Treat idea in the City Hall, and that he promised to invite us for a meeting to discuss that, and a few other events that they might want to arrange for the kids.

Iā€™m so excited, I canā€™t believe that this is actually happening.

Yesterday I also talked to the Village gardener (Sheā€™s hired by the city hall, to care for all the plants in our village)
They are building a new Village street along the gravel path I walk Everyday.
She stod at the start of the path, so I asked if I was allowed to walk there, or if they where doing something special.

She said that I absolutely could walk there, and that she was just there to check out the soil because the city hall wants to plant meadow flowers, to preserve the local bees and wildlife.
We had a long discussion about the biodiversity.
It was so nice.

Today kids are off to school, and me and my husband are going to pick up some auto parts for the local mechanic guy in the city. He didnā€™t have the time to go himself. We went to pick up and deliver some during the weekend as well.
As a way to thank us for that, heā€™s coming over on Saturday to fix our car for free, and make us some bbq.

Have I said that I love my village today :smiling_face:

Wishing yā€™all a wonderful Tuesday.

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Day 34.

Back at the gym. Thatā€™s twice in 13 hours either side of sleeping. I havenā€™t done that for 15 years at least and it feels great. Mysteriously still no cravings, to the point that I had lunch in a pub restaurant yesterday and the thought of alcohol didnā€™t even cross my mind. Itā€™s really weird not to feel tugged at constantly. Have I finally let go? Time will tell I guess.

Have a great day all!

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