@laner for me I do deep breathing and my meditation is a combination of deep breathing and inhaling / exhaling the lords name (a combo of meditation and prayer). I do also play a meditative prayer in the background that I have on a constat loop (low volume). Let me find the link of something similar online and I will send to you in a PM. You may also look into some meditations on the Meditation for Serenity 2021-2024! (tips, tricks & discussion/ 3 years running woot!) thread that may help you. I am sorry that you are also dealing with sleep walking and the nightmares ā the combination of the two can be scary. Hope that you are able to find something that helps.
@maestro Oh man the man-flu is a bear to deal with ā¦ sending you healing vibes friend ā hope you recover soon 
@tailee17 sending you peaceful vibes Lamā¦ hoping you are able to find calmness and peace and not let yourself get anxious over Mondayās surgery. Hope all goes smoothly for you and you will be on your road to recovery very soon 
@juli1 HELL YEAH ā 80 days is amazing Jules! Sorry that you are working through a dark mood ā here for you if you need to talk. Drinking will not solve anything ā you are showing some impressive strength in stacking up the days and working through lifeās lifey moments.
@wakikki So good to see you checking in my friend. Amazing sober timers girl 
Glad you are feeling good at the moment. I know we have to hold onto the good days and make the most of them when we get them. Hope you have a wonderful day
Thank you for the help! I will try nearly anything to get through the nightmares and get a non scary/non-sleepwalking sleep. I get so freaked out with the sleepwalking that I end up barely sleeping. Then Iām tired all the time. And the dreams (mostly memories made more intense in my dreams) get me all out of wack during the day.
totally understandable and iām sorry that your dreams / sleep walking are keeping you from getting rest. I do hope that this helps
Checking in day 109 AF 
Yes I will try it! Thank-you. Iāve tried a lot but am always looking for new things to try
Checking in another day sober and vape free. I think i have everything straightened out at work. Iāve been working on it all day and just did a final check in with my boss. Another hour and i will officially be on vacation. I have nothing packed and we are leaving first thing in the morning. Iām not feeling the usual stress to get everything done RIGHT NOW, which is good. Im looking forward to having a week off work and time at the beach, but other parts of the trip im not looking forward to. I have a plan to deal with all the drinking that will be going on around me and im not worried that Iāll drink. It just gets awkward at times. Itās definitely a reminder that i donāt want to go back.
Hope everyone is having a great sober Friday!
Checking in on day 178.Hope everyone is well!!Happy Friday!!
Day 33 check in. Itās Saturday morning 6:30am. Have a great weekend!
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Idk what to do right now. Im feeling very overwhelmed. I just received a call from my sons overnight nurse scheduler and there is currently no coverage for Mon, Tue, Wed, Fri and Sun. Thats 5 overnight shifts im expected to stay awake for. Im overwhelmed and actually feel really nervous and scared about how my mental and physical health will become after not sleeping. Thankfully i dont feel like using drugs when being awake all night (like I used to) but i do tend to binge eat bcuz im tired and im trying to keep myself awake. This will certainly be a test for me if they cant find someone. They are reaching out to another organization to see if they have potential nurses that can train over the weekend and fill those shifts. Im praying that they can do their job well and that someone can cover. Its sooo last minute tho so idk. We shall see. I just needed a place to vent about this. Im tired of literally being tired. I need to really lean on my HP right now.
I am so sorry Dana - this is so very frustrating. I do hope that they are able to come up with some solution for at least some of the days.
I am surprised at how these folks operate. They know how essential it is to provide the service and they seem to leave you hanging quite often. Really burns me to see it. I am sorry that you have to deal with it first hand.
Grateful that you do not feel the urge to use after the all night shifts. They of course take a lot outta you. That is totally understandable. Sending you loads of energy and hoping that things work out in your favor. 
Day 1.5 free.
Tomorrow morning will be 2 days.
I looked at my history and my average is 100 days now between relapses. Recently itās been more like 30 days but running past 5 relapses is about 100 days average.
For that Iām very grateful.
Iāve also decided that a weekly meeting is what I will do no matter what and keep at it.
Checking in on this Friday evening. Glad the week is over and tomorrow will be a short day at work. Just a few things to finish up that I didnāt get to today. Sleep has been bad this week and itās hitting me today. Only got a couple hours last night. Hopefully tonightās better and Iām able to sleep in a bit tomorrow. Not much else planned for the weekend as of yet so maybe just avlow key couple of days. Hoping everyone has a nice weekend.
.1662. Today, for the first time in 4 years, I wanted to get drunk. I donāt understand where this comes from. Drove these thoughts away from myself.
Glad you were able to shoo those thoughts away! 4+ years of sobriety is amazing work ā great to see the tools are still helping you.
Beautiful view 
Checking in 6 months today!
Iām going to repeat this from the āGoing to a meeting 
ā thread
I thought I was just being rewarded today with my blue 6 month chip but my reward was so much bigger because today, by the grace of God, I witnessed a damn miracle.
Step 1: āAdmitted we were powerless to alcohol - Our lives had become unmanageableā
A couple months back, there was a woman who came to this meeting who was quite badly physically injured from one of her drunks. I wouldnāt put her past 40, she was visibly tired, in pain and an emotional wreck. She came twice and then didnāt see her again - spoke to her both times briefly and just found her to be a sweet nature. Anywayā¦ Someone said to me today āI wonder if sheāll be back this weekā and I said āShe hasnāt been for a while but letās hope soā. I was chatting to someone at the coffee table and as I look to my left, there she is walking through the door with a half broken right foot and fully broken soul making a b line for me. I asked her how she was and how her weeks been - Not great. Without prompting, she said āIve had enough, Josh - I donāt think I can do this on my ownāā¦ She was definitely in the right place.
Iām proud of my 6 month chip. But being the first person someone makes a b line for in a room which can be bloody daunting in someoneās toughest timeā¦ my god, that is an absolute honour.
End of day 105 AF
Finally home and headed to my own bedā¦ such happiness!!
Two days at fatherās building his stage one of deck. My wife and elderly aunt helping. Got it almost as far as I wished too but couldnāt do the top decorative pieces on top of posts to tie them together nor get spindles out in on railing but they are all cut, 60 of them and ready, but next time. Ramp is temporary as that side needs to be excavated for better drainage and then will put a deck about 8āx 50ā right to his shed so he can wheel right back there. Thatās another time and I will need more labor for building purposesā¦ now the wife wants me to put a lower deck off of our waterside deck, oy No good deed goes unpunished I guess.
Anyway, did I say exhausted 
, but gym day tomorrow to hit er hard as well as weigh in day in morning. Not sure how this will go being away for two days, but I tried to eat as well as I could considering.
Today was a start at 6am, home at 9:30pm, 15.5hrs going hard so hopefully that bodes well for scale as had about a 13 hour go day day before.
Enjoy your night TS fam, a parting wave from my father enjoying his new deck in the sun shine!!
Day 558
Getting ready for bed. Itās been a long week. No days off until Wednesday though. So I guess Iām halfway through
Nice job! It looks great.
You can get a sponsor day 1. Dont wait. Getting a sponsor and working the steps does miracles!
Congrats on the job!!