Day 1219,
Just checking in, have a good day all 
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Day 70 AF
Monday morning check in. Had a fun weekend. Hope everyone is doing well.
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Late update into day 23.
Going to bed sober and unbothered.
See you later TS-people 
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@K_S welcome back 
congrats on your honesty 
@Collins congrats on 11 months smoke-free 
@MrFantastik congrats on a new first
@NewBeginning1 congrats on your month
@wahtisnormal congrats on your week
@JazzyS thank you š©µ most of the day was okay, but from 5pm-6:30pm not so good. Will keep trying though, always. I love hearing the birds chirping too 
@suechu congrats on 3 weeks
@Maxwell congrats on all the 1s
@Seizetheday congrats on all the 1s happy anniversary 
@Seb congrats on 70 days
1350 days no alcohol.
815 days no cocaine.
330 days no vape.
0 days no binge-eating.
Woke up early. Started a new book by the same author as the one I just read. I already had it a few years but never got around to finishing it, itās an actual physical hardcover book too so it was quite nice to be able to focus on it because I never used to be able to, which is why I switched to the Kindle app and dark mode. I read 62 pages.
I did my full morning routine for the first time since the 16th.
I watched an episode of TV in the lounge.
Today should have been day 196 of no ice creams from the ice cream vans, but they got me today, and instead itās zero. Then that escalated quickly into another takeaway binge. Much shame and regret. I will get back on track.
Tomorrow is therapy day. Then I also have a dentist appointment in the same area, I am dreading it because Iāll be having a filling redone, and a clean, and I find both extremely painful and invasive. Itās a comforting thought that when I type my next check-in, it will all be over.
I hope youāve all had wonderful sober weekends.
š©µ
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Checking in and hanging on by a thread. Things are not going well. I tried planning a day for me before we got to the beach house. Nothing went right, didnāt get to do the things i wanted, had two panic attacks. It was a disaster. I just wanted to go back home, but i didnāt want to ruin things for my husband. We got to the house about two hours ago. We were the last ones to arrive and everyone is already drinking. We were given the master suite, which is beautiful, but right off the main living area where everyone is drinking. There is an entire bar set up ten steps away from our room. Half the group went to the bar/restaurant next door and the other half is drinking at the house. Itās super windy and cold so i canāt walk on the beach or sit outside. I feel trapped and on the verge of another panic attack. I gotta get this turned around or im in trouble. Im going do some reading on here and hope it calms me down.
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This is so true ā glad that you are checking in daily and staying vigilant. Great work on your 35 days friend. I so feel like being connected here is my lifeline. By writing here daily and reading the posts helps me stay focused on the journey.
@butterflymoonwoman Hope you were able to have a good Sunday friend. I know next week is shaping up to be a very trying week. I know you are a warrior and will be able to handle it. I loved what @acromouse said ā beautifully worded and something I will be saving for myself as a reminder as well. Take it ODAAT and have your tools ready, reach out here and to your HP. Be GENTLE with yourself please. Sending you loads of love.
@tailee17 WOOT WOOT 60 days Lam! Way to go with your 2 months my friend. Sending you congrats and loads of healing vibes for your surgery tomorrow 
@juli1 So happy to read that you are doing better today my friend. WHOA 82 days is impressive work! Keep up the wonderful recovery work 
@suechu Whoohoo 3 weeks is fabulous work! Love that you were able to enjoy a lunch out and not feel any FOMO. Keep going strong
@twizzlers Triple 1ās is awesome friend. Keep working your recovery friend. Excellent work! Looking forward to seeing the catio soon 
@seizetheday another triple 1ās celebration ā love it!!! Great work friend and happy 6th wedding anniversary! So much better to celebrate it sober
@lotusflower triple 2ās is great Des! Deep breathes friend ā I know I sometimes need to give myself a time out when I feel my nerves being tested. Hope you are able to take it easy and enjoy the rest of your day.
@seb 70 days is amazing work! Keep stacking up the days!
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Oh iām so sorry Shel ā sounds like a very trying and awful day. Panic attacks can be very draining emotionally as well as physically.
We are here if you need to chat. Great idea to read around too - that sometimes helps me. Are you able to do some meditations or deep breathing or possibly check out a YouTube yoga video to try? Can you get yourself a hot tea without feeling triggered by leaving the room at the moment (maybe your hubby can get it for you)?
You do have the strength my friend. This will pass. Drinking will not help at all and who knows what rabbit hole that will take you to if you do drink. Sending you loads of warm hugs and calming vibes. I do hope this all gets better for you very soon. Right here if you need us! 
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@Laner Idk how many days youāve got, or if that even matters for this, but I went thru a period of suffering panic attacks after quitting. Each time, theyād begin out of no where, usually when I was sitting quietly. They came off and on for probably 2/3 months, each time a little less intense once I realized I could feel them coming on and start to calm myself right away.
Oddly, I was just talking about this with a friend last night who said he went thru the exact same thing in early sobriety. Not saying that youāll experience more, but it could just be an annoying side effect of the body adjusting to sober life 
430 (yesterdayās number)
I was typing something up forever last night and didnāt finish so I didnāt check in 
Only the 2nd timeI ever missed, so not too bad. Anyway, Iāll be back later 
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Checking in day 69
A big change in the weather here but a change is always welcome. I have been sleeping well. I used to drink thinking it was going to help me sleep, sometimes I would take shots at bedtime. Maybe it helped me get to sleep but that was it. Regrets, headaches etc., always woke me up which resulted in a poor night sleep. The things we learn. Sleep well my friends. 
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Having been on the sober time app for a long time and only browsing through these posts for the same amount of time, I decided 2 weeks ago to be more a part of this community instead of just reading. Today is day 4282. For all whose posts I read over the year, Iām sorry for not interacting. For anyone who is doing what I was doing, at least say hi.
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Great to see you posting and being more active. Dang!! That is some impressive sober time friend. Keep up the amazing work 
ā¦hope to see you around
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Hey chris! Great to see u posting! Glad to see u being more active again congratulations on that impressive amount of time sober!
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Very impressive. Please share your wisdom and congrats on 4,282 days.
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@JazzyS @Butterflymoonwoman my dad had his wedding ceremony followed by reception afterwards. I thought I was strong enough to be around family and friends and not drink. After associating with everyone, I slipped and nothing else mattered. I felt bad afterwards and leftā¦came home and just told my wife.
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Checking in 14 hours. Hello, everyone. Iāve been feeling motivated to get back on track. It hasnāt been the best day, but it also hasnāt been the worst.
As crazy as this may sound, Iām really glad yesterday happened the way it did. I was able to see the growth in myself not in my sobriety but in my moral compass, I knew I did wrong, and I didnāt try to hide it, I owned up to it and now itās time to move forward again. That was a very humbling experience. On what wouldāve been 4 months sober, I fell into the trap. Iāll never āhave itā I will always be work to put in work and more to learn.
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I will sometimes have an anxiety attack but I usually can tell when one is coming on and what triggered it. This past one really seemed to come out of no where. Maybe youāre right about it being a side effect of quitting. Iām 18 days in so still in the early days.
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Back to work, back to getting up at 5 am. Iām OK. Iām not dreading to go back. Iām actually looking forward to it. Although I will miss my free time, as well as Iāll miss sleeping in. Three weeks flew by, even when not doing all that much. I did do a lot of thinking and feeling and trying to balance the two and coming up with a plan for the future. Not quite there yet but there is some movement in me. Which is good. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
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Any wisdom I have came from my OG sponsor back in 2002 (I didnāt take their advice seriously then, but do now) and from the numerous family and friends who also are in recovery.
1st: Be honest to yourself. You know why you need to be sober and what eventually happens when you stop being sober. That may have seemed like happiness, but it was really pain and a way to not feel that pain.
2nd: Your sobriety is yours, donāt compare depths of addiction or number of days in recovery. The only day that matters is today. Did you stay sober all day, if so hell yeah! If not, figure out what led to the misstep and take that blockade out of your path to sobriety.
3rd: Surround yourself with people who love and support this life you are trying to create. Recognize that they have their life as well. Part of this also learning how to live a sober life in a world that isnāt.
This is just a little Iāve figured out. Mostly, you learn by listening to the ones who have been sober awhile. In getting sober I found out that in my family I wasnāt alone. I have 4 cousins, 3 uncles, 2 aunts, my sister in laws husband, and numerous others that also were (death not relapse) or are in recovery. Addiction just might be genetic in my family. I learned how to be sober from a lot of them. We all hold each other responsible and most of all love one another with no judgment.
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