Very sound advice 
Good to meet you and happy youāve decided to participate! We definitely learn the best advice from others like us.
I often wonder how many there are out there, silent in the background. I was for a long time during my relapse. Thereās no need to feel bad for not interacting. Thereās so much going on here. Just reading helps immensely. Looking forward to hear more from you 
Day 918 AF
Hey, fam.
Threw my lil manās bday party yesterday at the park. Heāll be turning 5 on the 24th. It was a chill day. Then, I got home and watched a boxing match. Went out to breakfast with my sister this morning. And chilling at the pad right now.
Iāve been triggered by my sonās Minecraft music. Back in our mid-20s, when my wife (my girl at the time) was a few weeks pregnant with our first. We threw a party for her at my in-lawās. I ended up getting really drunk. We got an argument, and I called her names. I took off all mad. Her mom came after me and grabbed me. She was gonna hit me. I ran away and ate shit pretty hard on the dirt. Anyway, my bro-in-law found me and took me home. The following morning, I had no memory of what had happened. When I woke, I thought my wife was sleeping next to me. I was wondering where she went. We were living at my momās at the time. She got to the apartment with her brother and started packing her stuff. She took everything. I thought she was done. I couldnāt remember what or why. I had blacked out. After some hours passed, I started having flashbacks. I felt bad AF. Started shit at her bday party while she was pregnant. Smfh. We stopped talking for a minute. I didnāt wanna bother her or make things worse. I got super depressed and started drinking heavily at night. I tried distracting myself by playing video games. There were nights I would black out and wake up around 4 am. while the Minecraft menu music was still playing. I would wake up thinking she was still there. I missed out on my wifeās pregnancy. Didnāt get to take her to the doctorās or anything. After 7 months or so, we got back together. Told her I was gonna change. It was the same bullshit story over and over. I took a couple of months off from booze after my son was born. Thought I could handle a couple of beers here and there. But nope, it was back to the same shit with me. Iāll regret this moment for the rest of my life. It took me to a dark place. But Iāll hold on to this memory, knowing I can never moderate. Iām just glad I can live through my kidsā bday parties and my wifeās, without starting shit. Making the best of them. Those fucked up moments are over now. Gotta keep pushing forward. I thank each and every one of you for being here. I know I couldnāt have done it without you.
Love you, fam.
Take care. ODAAT
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Chaotic shift at work. For perspective, I was the only server and made $200 in 2 hours on a brunch shift! I despise it while Iām in it, but love it when itās over. I really needed it and went to pay some bills straight from work. I carried that energy home and got some annoying clean done, like sorting thru old paperwork. I hate paper, and itās always everywhere 
Not anymore!
Around 4:30, my ex text to say one of his neighbors was trying to jumpstart the other neighbors truck and, please help me understand how this is possible, it started on fire right in the driveway! Iām grateful him and my daughter made it out of the house safely before it got this bad. (Sorry, itās a screenshot of the video he sent me that he apparently recorded with the very first camera phone 
)
I got there a few hours later to see the end result.
Justā¦how?
Luckily everyone and everything else was left unscathed. Interesting day. Very tired now and glad to have a couple days off. Hope you all have a good Monday 
Iām here, Iām alive, Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 55.
Sun is shining -3 C outside. Itās said to go up to +3 today. Still very cold in my opinion.
Tried to mix the protein powder with water instead of veganmilk this morning. I like that better, and it takes down the kcal with about 50 kcal/drink.
Thereās no way I can have 1900 kcal/day and feel good about it. It just feels wrong.
Sister called yesterday and invited us for my nephew on Saturday. He turns 2.
Donāt really want to go, but like most family gatherings I have to out of obligation.
My brother called again about his supposed trip to Stockholm, he said he was going to decide for sure this Friday. Not to be mean, but I joe he decides not to. I have no urge watching Taz and his Baby sister for two weeks.
I said okey to a few days,then it became a week. And now weāre up in two weeks.
I could probably do one kid, but both of them is too much. Iām too old I guess.
Wishing yāall a wonderful Monday.
So glad that everyone is safe.
Hope youāll get some well deserved rest.
Take care.
Day 8
The first few hours of work was really stressful, crazy busy and I was the only one on the floor so no matter how fast I moved, there was always people waiting on me. Put me in a defeated/pissed off mindset for the majority of the shift but Iām feeling better now that Iām home. Going to try to relax. Annoyed because i feel like i cant spend a lot of time relaxing/foing things I enjoy without it resulting in a lack of sleep for the next day. But it is what it is I guess.
83 days AFmfA
Checking in.
New week, positive thoughts 
Love you guys 
336 days no alcohol and over a year vegetarian. Lost effortlessly some kilos and really enjoying this new healthy lifestyle. Feeling much much better. Happy and grateful! Hope everyone has a wonderful day!
Checking in after work, Day 31. Feeling good and bad. Feet are very sore and am very exhausted at work recently. Not using has brought back some pains and that is the reasoning sometimes for wanting to use again. Although I can admit 1000-1200mg ibuprofen at a time helps tooā¦ Anyways I hope everyones day or night is good.
@wahtisnormal 8 days are looking good 
I hope you can get some downtime and do something nice for yourself soon 
@Just_Laura 
on the money 
on exploding cars! Really glad no one was hurt.
@GOKU2019 Thanks for sharing friend 
@SubmarineMonkey Thanks for putting it so succinctly together. Helps the mind stay on track.
@K_S Thanks for your openness and your honesty.
@Rookie Donāt forget that sleeping while drunk is not real sleep for your brain. The brain needs sober sleep to reorganise itself, to learn, and to consolidate. We actually grow and learn while we are sleeping. If you go to sleep while drunk, your brain canāt do that and you yourself stand still.
@Juli1 Glad to see youāre feeling better
@Shel75 I very much hope you can put a bit distance between yourself and the panic attacks as well as the drinking. Reading sounds good. Maybe a walk or some other physical activity? Helps me a lot after a panic attack.
@NewBeginning1 Congrats on a whole month! 
@CATMANCAM Fingers crossed for your therapy session and your visit to the dentist. And really good to see youāre getting back into your routines.
152 sugar - 5 months
16 UPF
23 gluten
2 dairy
1 overeating/binge
Today marks my five months freedom from sugar. What a freedom that is. Makes me very happy
We are still nursing our respective colds here. Me with the coughing, my daughter with her running nose.
Iām not sure what Iāll get done today. I cancelled my class for today and any other appointments.
I wonāt use food or eating to change how I feel. It wonāt improve anything. Only make it worse, make me miserable.
Stay in peace today friends, in kindness and in freedom 
Good morning! 
Checking in for day 24 over here. 
Iām currently sitting at the doctorās office to get my permit for behavioural therapy. I donāt think itās gonna be DBT specifically but definetly something along those lines.
Kinda anxious tbh but at this point, just staying sober isnāt going to cut it.
There are some marbels on the floor and they can cause a nasty slip. Letās put them back where they belong.
I hope you dear people have a good start to your week and that you can keep going ODAAT.
Have a good one!
Thank you so much 
x
Thank you so much it felt really great to be sober x
142 days
Was at work again today. Was a quick morning but the afternoon seemed to drag on. Kids came home after spending a few nights at the grandparents house. Glad I get to spend the day with them before I go on nightshift tomorrow. Weāre into the 2nd week of their term break at school
Day 52
Good very early morning. Insomnia is back to ruining my life, but luckily itās only half the time. Then I have a good sleep and feel amazing. At least itās a quick cycle, 50/50. I need to do better to function well but thatās where Iām at. Healing all the damage takes a while. Iām all set up to get through this.
Have a good day!
Day 15 (2 Weeks )
Iām grateful for living today, Getting good quality of sleep, Saving money,
attending online AA meeting daily. and Physical meeting on every thursday
Everyone saw your growth and morale compass and weāre glad you came back here so quickly.
Good morning everyone! Checking in on day 143. Been busy busy. Still have some house construction going on finishing flooring and everything in the new room, Iāll be happy when itās complete!
@K_S very happy to see you back and back on the road recovery.
I hope everyone has the most amazing day!
and 
Welcome back to the light my friend!
Thanks for sharing your insight Chris, and great to see you activated .
That is an amazing life of sobriety you have built and I look forward to hearing more.
Best
