Day 12 went well, worked and went to muay thai
In bed earlier than normal which is nice for a change 
Hope everyone has a lovely day/night
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156 sugar
20 UPF
27 gluten
6 dairy
5 overeating/binge
I started taking antibiotics yesterday for my infection and they always make my feel 
. Itās only a three day course though, so the side effects wonāt stay for too long. But today I feel like 
.
Nonetheless I want to work more on my game design studies, take my time with life and keep practicing yoga in all my affairs.
In the evening Iām going to meet friends for a game night about creating a tv show Prime Time Adventures
Stay in peace, love, and freedom friends 
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Busy but nice day yesterday, two meetings with experience workers in the morning, creative writing class at night. I love the stuff we do but I like the social aspect just as much. Feeling some improvement there, in looking for connection(s) outside of peer support as well. Finding it in unexpected places. I like.
Today I have another professional meeting, but itās only 90 minutes and close to where I live. And Iater Iām meeting a cousin who I only recently got back into contact with after decades. He turns out to be something of an artist, has a show in town. Curious about his art.
Iāll try and enjoy a little bit of downtime today too, as Iām working the weekend. Busiest weekend of the year is coming up here, with the kingās birthday party to kick of tonight and lasting till late Saturday night. Been there done that many times, there are some nice parts about it but overall itās a massive drunk and drugged fest so Iām not missing much by working. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love.
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Morning all!
This has been a yo-yo week for me. Struggled mentally and physically. Iāve got so many challenges in front of me but Iām facing them head on and going to go for it. Friday today and the weekend which always brings temptations. I donāt feel anything just now but itās always been my impulsivity thatās lead me down dark roads.
This time feels different. Interacting on here has definitely had an impact. I want to protect my daily counter. Itās never felt so important.
Day 5ā¦ have a fantastic weekend. I appreciate you all.
Thanks 
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Good job on 12 days and getting your sleep 
And your art is fantasticā:+1:
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Still here still sober
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Day 307.
Off todayā¦ Weather is a bit rubbish. So itās probably an easy dayā¦ Me and my dog relaxing. I may pop into town for a cake to go with my afternoon coffee. I find in addition to focusing on being sober there are moments of what is akin grieving the things Iāve done or could have done if my focus had been different in the past. Quite a few people I woukd have steered clear from.
Anyways onwards and upwards. Have a fab day
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Hey all, checking in on day 1412. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Friday morning check in. Well in bed by 11 up at 3:30. Guess I will get plenty of rest when Iām dead 
Gotta busy day today with a guy on vacation and want to get a few big jobs finished today so the weeks totals look good. Hope everyone has a good day/night. Peace out.
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39 days, tomorrow marks the longest Iāve been sober for since I was 15.
Thatās 17 years.
While I was doing an inspection today, a client offered me a beer. I told him Im off the drinks and he said he wished he could be too. Was surprised at the nice response and being so candid. Made me feel really proud of what Iām doing and gave me a great confidence boost.
Had another see you in the NT customer from a few days ago still trying to avoid signing his agreement before I send him his report. Iāve never had someone pay their bill, yet avoid accepting the terms and conditions. Iām trying to not let that get to me but here I am letting it get to me still!
Anyway, enjoy your weekend everyone!
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That is amazing hard work WW. Keep it up, as trust me, many many people wish they could do what you are doing, but not many do!! 
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Congratulations on your 2 years of freedom Billy. @Soberbilly
You are a huge inspiration to me and many more I guess 
So go on doing the good work and thanks for sharing it with us.
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Thank you mate. Feeling very encouraged by everyone here.
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Had a couple little thoughts of drinking today, triggered by hurting my back. Its only a minor strain but it was doing something that I do all the time. Not even sure how it happened.
Was just frustrated at the continued annoying little injuries thar are stopping me from improving my health and fitness. Every week its something new.
Not even sure what the next step needs to be.
Im not going to drink over it though.
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@Shel75 youāve smashed this! Congrats 
safe journey home 
@Scorpn congestive heart failure? Would it be cheaper to get some insurance so you have access to medication? Sorry to hear this š©µ
@GOKU2019 oh haha. Geez thatās extortionate! I hope you can get treatment for a more reasonable price somewhere else. 
Thank you 
@Soberbilly congrats on 2 years 
@wahtisnormal love the photo 
and your drawing is amazing 
@Chevy55 congrats on all the 1s and good luck for your bloodwork results 
@PsychoDramaQueen congrats on reaching out for help and also for 3 days
@Twizzlers so glad you got through your urge and went in your garden instead, and that youāre staying connected here 
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@Doreen1 congrats on 7 months
@Lighter congrats on getting yourself out of there
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@james83 congrats on your sober business trip
@Hayleylujah congrats on double digits for no cocaine or weed also for pushing forward good luck with your applications
@JazzyS I hope you wake up without your headache and that the spinkler gets sorted
@acromouse I hope the antibiotics take effect and that youāre feeling better soon š©µ
1354 days no alcohol.
819 days no cocaine.
334 days no vape.
3 days no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterdayās numbersā¦
It was late by the time I got to sleep Weds night, because I was watching BGT on catch-up and didnāt realise how long the episodes were.
Yesterday I read a chapter of the book Iām reading.
I drove to my hometown to collect my meds.
When I got back home I read some more of the book.
At 18:30 last night, I had decided I was going to binge, and again today, so that all of my counters would be multiples of 5 at the same time. 
Itās so ridiculous how my addict mind works. Thankfully, the next thing I knew, I was waking up at 11pm in the dark with my curtains open, so Iād fallen asleep very early, before Iād had chance to go to the shop. The Universe must have stepped in because I had already made up my mind about going.
Today the voice is already trying to convince me to binge, for the same reason, but Iām telling it thereās no guarantee that Iād be able to get back on track right away and Iād just be in the shame/binge cycle all over again, with really no relief from how Iām feeling.
I keep feeling like I need something , Iāve also reduced to 3 nicorette lozenges, down from 4, so it could be partly to do with that, as well as the 3 days without engaging with my most recent addiction. I am also having occasional cravings for a cigarillo still, but this whole cessation journey would be for nothing and Iād be right back at square one, so, not today Satan! They also taste disgusting and last less than a minute, and again, no real relief from how Iām feeling.
Iām going to read some of my book now, catch-up on some meditations, and do my morning routine.
š©µ
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Totaly get the frustration. Iāve been having some kind of cold/infection/whatnot for about two weeks. Added to that a sick kid and my moods are down, I canāt move and workout or even think the way I usually do, and the frustration is really getting to me.
Letās make a deal friend: You hold on to your part of the globe and I will do the same on my side. This way the earth will not spiral out of control and fly into the sun and we both will be real heroes 
How about that?
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Just a quick little follow up hereā¦
Does anyone else feel like they can spot someone whoās a drinker? Either in their writing, behaviour or something else?
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Day 112 AF,
Slept well, feel great. Sober life is my only life. I was pondering my call with drunk cuz, and Iām not even sure now what the appeal ever was. The sloppiness, slurring, argumentative, then the topperā¦ the hangover 
. I am finding it harder and harder to understand why I did it, and for 40 yearsā¦ lord what I put my body, my friends, my family throughā¦ it disgusts me now.
Today I awoke at 4:30am, sun shining, a planned hour gym session, then head in to get a couple more heavy rubber mats for gym and arrange delivery of the new piece of gym equipment. Iām very excited. This is my treat for all the saving and time Iāve accomplished since that last day back in Janā¦
I hope you all can enjoy a sober day and weekend TS fam!
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I can tell you that my husband who is a neurologist and sees people with all kinds of alcohol related issues on a daily basis in the hospital can spot a person with an active alcohol problem from miles on and usually can tell you how far they have progressed in their disease. Even if this person thinks they donāt have a problem with alcohol and donāt consider themselves alcoholics or are trying to hide their addiction.
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