Checking in Day 209.
It’s been awhile. It has also been a rough couple of weeks. Really missing my cat.
Had a crazy neighbour harassing me last weekend, to the point I had to call the cops. They did nothing anyways. Luckily the nut job hasn’t bothered me this week.
Husband has been away working for 2 weeks and I have no energy to do anything!
Really want a drink but I won’t!
I’m just feeling really blah. Sorry I’m not participating much here lately peeps. Just not feeling it.
Ya’ll have a great weekend 
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Checking in on Day 5! I hope all is well with everyone. I haven’t been on in a few days—I’ve being dealing with a fair amount of different emotions. Nothing bad, just home life and getting back into the program.
Just for today I will adjust myself to what is, and not try to adjust everything to my own desires .
Have a fantastic day everyone. #ODAAT 
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Oh my god these flower beds are real?!
I thought they only existed in rollercoaster Tycoon!
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Good to see you back 
I feel this is something I had been trying to do or work out in my life at the moment. And you just put it into words and that’s helped me think differently about how my days go.
Thank you. And good on you for getting back to 5 days 
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Quick check in. It’s lonely, but everything is new and different now. It will be less lonely in time. I don’t have the option of hanging out with random, crappy people since I stopped drinking. Yeah, well I could hang out with those people but they were barely tolerable when I was drinking, so, no! It will get better as I get better. Takes a long ass time. 
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Proud of you for going thru all that sober @Chuckie22 you’ve earned each of those 209 sober days. Hang in there
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There are fun, random, wierd sober folks too ya know 
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Yah I can lose the ‘crappy’ folks! You know what I mean? They weren’t even fun because they were drunk and well, basically, crappy. I would NOT have hung out with them sober. 
It’s like the litmus test. Haha. Sober, fun and weird random people are my new people 
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@danwood85 see the new avatar friend- lovely to meet you! Thankyou friend- looking forward to a restful night ahead for sure. Hope your Friday has been going smoothly thus far
@laner Oh man this sounds absolutely horrible. I am sorry that you had to experience this today or ever. I feel for you and for those kids. Crazy how alcohol can be so dominating in any culture / situation. A huge congrats to you for leaving and not giving in to the pressure. I know you feel bad for not have stayed for the kids but you are no good to anyone if you are not 100% yourself (like the parachute analogy of putting yours on first before putting one on your kids). I do believe the more days you stack up – the stronger you will be in your journey and the more tools you will have to tackle these situations in the future. Keep up the amazing work friend – hope you are doing better with the panic attack now
@pattycake thank you Patty. Appreciate your lovely wishes my friend. So happy to see you stacking the days up like a champ!
@steve14 thanks for sharing your time with me friend. I definitely needed it today. The guy showed up 2 hours passed his window. I am amazed at the restraint and patience I displayed today. Am ready for some serious R&R – hope you get a good nights sleep
@lile01 How are you dong Indy? Sending you love!
@jasty2 Yikes – that’s awful Joe – glad the worst is over. I do hope you are able to get loads of restful couch time this weekend.
@butterflymoonwoman sending you loads of strength my friend – hoping that your overnight and work shift tomorrow go smoothly. Sending healing vibes as well and hope the stuffy nose gets cleared up soon. Much love Dana – thinking of you!
@cleanheart Way to go friend – should be super proud of the 60 day mark! That is mighty impressive work. ODAAT – looking forward to celebrating 90 with you soon
@chuckie22 no need to apologize friend – just so lovely to see you popping in. I am sorry to hear about your rough few weeks. WHAT an ASS your neighbor is – I’m sorry that the cops were of no help. I do hope that you are free from any further harassment. Here for you Charlie – grateful to see you stacking up the days girl 
@zzz way to go friend 30+ days and going strong
Checking in on Friday night…
492 days free of alcohol and weed
907 days free of cigarettes
Grateful to be home and relaxing now. Today turned into an exhausting day of waiting. Luckily my mom went with me and we sat in the car waiting on the irrigation guy to show up. He was two hours late so total of 6 hours of waiting. Luckily there is a McDonald’s a block away that i was able to go to for the bathroom. My renters have started to move in but were not there today and i didn’t feel comfortable going inside the house when they were not around. Luckily all is done. So very tired and ready to call it a night. Bed is full of laundry that i did this morning so i am debating folding it now or moving it to the couch and deal with it in the morning
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day / evening – sending you all so much love
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Nice to see you, and very nice to see those numbers!
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Checking in on day two of sobriety. I made lots of nutritious food today, took time to rest and stuck to my game plan. Started a 30 day meditation challenge, read for 30 minutes (The Myth of Normal, highly recommend for people with trauma), took a walk and plan on journaling before bed. I also talked to a sober friend about my decision and feel like I have so much support from all of you. None of this is easy, but I’m determined. Thinking of my identity before and without alcohol is still a very strange thought, but one step and one day at a time. It’s kind of sad how much alcohol is so widely accpted and prevalent in society. Anyway, just daily thoughts and reflections. I hope everyone had a wonderful day, or is about to have one.
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Nice work Abby! Looks like you’ve got great things to keep yourself occupied. Make sure you take it easy too and relax. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself to start doing so many different activities, I found I would do the same, didn’t keep up with one then it would all go out the window.
Day 40 check in for me today. The last 10 days went super quick and I felt better than the first 30. Next stop, 41 days!
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1785 Pic is from a favourite spot in Amsterdam.
My new workweek is about to begin. It’s the national party night and day, I’ve no fear of missing out on anything. Well maybe this tiny window of a couple of hours in the early morning when the free market is nice (anybody can sell anything legal they want in the street) but I’m not much of a bargain hunter. And after a long night the party goers will take over the street again very soon, with the vast majority ending up drunk or high or both. In honor of the birthday of our king.
Some of the patients in our care probably do miss going out in all that, but all the better they are admitted. And stay sober and clean, just for today. As I will. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Clean and sober love.
@AbbyNormal Thanks Abby, for your well wishes, for being here, for your sobriety, for the book tip. Sleep well and glad to have you aboard. 
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*Day 2046 
Hi all, I’m not very active here. Well I’m here every day as a moderator reading stuff but not here writing about “me”.
I’m good! Busy with work, life and my volunteer work has started.
I’m matched with a lovely young Iranian woman who has fled from Iran.
I’m helping her with learning our Dutch language and feeling welcome here. I hope I can learn some Farsi words too. It was so special when we first met. We started to talk and didn’t quit, it went so smooth! All my worries about how difficult it would ore could be melted away 
Next thursday we go for a dinner together, looking forward to it!
And…booked a holiday with a friend. In about 2 weeks we are going to Spain. I hope to warm up there because like @Mno already mentioned the weather is wet here 
And cold too!
I deffinitely need some vitamin sun.
Above a picture of a cold freezy morning a few days ago.
Today? Off from work so going to visit some festivities for Kingsday and a walk later on 
Have to dive into my closet for some orange clothes
Have a good day ore night all! 
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Day 308. Hoping for a quiet weekend. Had some nice messages from an old colleague I use to work with, on how the teams have missed my values and care when work was difficult .
A few people I mentored have just had good promotions which is good to hear about. I think i was generally good at spotting potential and nurturing that. I’m not particularly good at anything in particular but good at seeing the talent of others and bringing people together. And weathering stuff. Very persistent
Today tho work is more in it’s place. It’s important to me but I also know how disposable we all can be at work too.
Listening to Ben howard this morning… Will make a coffee and feed the birds and focus on appreciating my life. Every day.
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88 yeah 
Glad to be sober!
Today the keys will be handover at 10 am.
Finsihing this chapter finally 
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Had a decent swim yesterday and yoga again this morning. Feeling some strength in yoga. That’s quite nice, especially for my body feeling.
Love you guys 
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Day 565
Hanging in there. Hope y’all are having a good day.
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Day 44. Nothing huge planned this weekend. The weather is awful but hopefully it will clear up on time for tennis at lunchtime.
Alcohol doesn’t feel like something which is part of my life right now, doesn’t cross my mind. Such a relief.
My wife actually finds it harder than I do. I haven’t seen her drink more than 2 drinks in a sitting in a decade and even then only once or twice a week (Friday night, Sunday roast lunch). Nevertheless she misses not having those. I’ve told her than I don’t mind her having alcohol (it’s my problem, it has never been hers even when we stayed up all night partying in our 20s) but she prefers not to. I mention this only because it’s amazing that alcohol still has that power over someone who drinks 2-4 drinks per week maximum… I realise that I am VERY lucky to have a supportive partner.
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