Milestones are tricky days, maybe that is one of the causes that your feeling down.
But besides that It’s hard to have so many people around you with sorrow and death. That hurts.
Glad you came here to vent and connect.
We are here and always listening 
Maybe a check in on the daily gratitude thread helps you? Check it out: Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #6
Hope you feel a bit better soon and congratulations with almost 1 year sober!! 
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