2 years 2 months 25 days no self harm
everyday is miserable and nothing feels like it helps. it’s been like those for months and I feel like i’m running out of ways to get through the day.
birthday is coming up and i have nothing but free time right now. nothing feels fun or worth doing. i’m adjusting my psychiatrist meds with my psychiatrist but so far i’m not feeling better
nothing feels fun or worthwhile. I try to engage in my hobbies but I find myself bored after a few minutes
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Super blah day. Cat woke me up too early. It was thunderstorming until about 4, but we didn’t have Memorial day plans anyway. We did some little crafts and drawing and had McDonald’s for dinner. I felt bad the weather was so crappy for me and my daughter’s day off together. It really sucked the energy out of me. Now I’m just stiff and achy from doing not much. I think I should stretch before bed. Another rainy day tomorrow, but the upside is it’s cooled down. Tomorrow’s another day 
I am sorry for you feeling bad. May you find some joy here and know we are here for you. Hope the meds change helps you get balanced.
Checking day 345 AF
The weekend started off nice. My BF came to visit. We drove to see my grandson play baseball. It was a beautiful day but he always seems to have a negative comment. My grandson is an extremely talented athlete perhaps a bit over confident but he’s a good team player. He was thrown out for trying to steal home plate and my BF said perhaps this will humble him. My baby is 11 years old. How can someone say such a thing about an 11 yr old?
This all coming from a man who supports his 36 yr daughter. We’ve dated for almost 8 months and I’m not sure this is really going anywhere. It’s exhausting thinking about it.
Hey Megan …so good to see you checking in love. I’m so sorry that you are feeling this way. Keep working on finding something to engage in. Sometimes we need different things to keep us interested. I do find myself switching back and forth to keep my mind from getting bored. This place also helps. Staying engaged here I don’t feel so alone
Here for you Megan… sending love. 
You are not alone
Congratulations on your 90 days Lam
I hope you enjoyed your BBQ and bonfire.
Meds take time to settle in, so I hope thats the case with you too. In the meanwile come here more, it helps to stay connected and it will distract you a bit. Sorry you feel so uncomfortable right now, but look at your numbers! You are doing great on that part 
Negativity is exhausting, and contagious. It consumed my last relationship. Ask yourself why you feel exhausted thinking about it. The thought of ending the relationship? Or continuing on with it?
Day 7
No Alcohol
No Tobacco.
I’m living today, I’m grateful for my happiness, Right now at office the day started without hangover, Sipping up Green tea from the office.
This is summer in the UAE, so weather is hot outside. God bless everyone 
One day at a time
Congratulations on your 150 days sober and blackout free Lisa
*Day 2078 
I 'm having a cold and so my left ear has stopped working. Nothing special, I have that often, but it sucks. The one that works is my “bad” ear. It has been operated ones and I do not hear well with it. So now I feal like an old deaf lady 
And I have a very busy day ahead involved a lot of hearing and talking 
Ok, but there are worse things in life.
Thank you. I had a wonderful day.
1816
@Lile01 Have a safe trip Indi. And enjoy!
@vagabond Nobody’s (doing) better than anybody else here. Our personal best is all we all (can) do. Hang in there and keep going.
@SadMemeQueen You’re here, you’re fighting. Hoping for some relief from your ails Megan
@SoberWalker Beautiflu butterfly Claudia, sorry for your ear, thanks for your optimism I’m borrowing some. Have a good day.
@SoberWalker Eeeh, not being able to hear well sucks. I hope your good ear comes back soon. Enjoy your activities and keep us posted on crossfit 
@s_unrelax Nice new picture 
and congrats on one whole week clean from your addictions. Well done 
How hot does it get in the summer where you live?
@Just_Laura @DanaM56 Only after my ex moved out I realised how much his negativity has been affecting me and my well being. It has always been a difficult trait of his, and I was very unhappy with it getting increasingly worse in the last years, but I did not realise how bad it was. I‘m so glad I don‘t have this kind of energy around me every day anymore 
@SadMemeQueen I am very sorry you are feeling like this. I get these miserable days due to hormonal changes and I know this is so fucking hard. Don‘t give up love. Try to connect as far as you can. I sometimes find buddhist based online recovery meetings helpful. Even if I just listen in. Whatever gets you through the day: a walk, tv, a book, a meditation, anything. Sending you love 
@icebear Hope you get to have a better day tomorrow
@JazzyS Shoutout to naps. Love em. Take them where I can.
@Mira_D Good to have you here
@Soberbilly This moment when I actually realise I am a messy human being and not somehow above all of it always hits me. In theory I know it, but somehow I trick myself over and over again into not believing it. Reality check for sure.
@SKhan 14 days! Two weeks! 
Congrats on working through all of it like a pro.
188 sugar
52 UPF
59 gluten
38 dairy
0 overeating
Yesterday at lunch I found it difficult to separate hunger from cravings and was getting mixed signals. In the end I overate. I‘m still in training. There is neither guilt nor shame though. I know from experience now this is a skill to be honed.
Back to the training grounds for today.
Woke up with a bad headache, vertigo, nausea. Those hormonal changes are driving me nuts. Coffee is my only hope. Lot‘s of coffee. 
My brain refused to work for the most part of yesterday and so I did not get to do any of my prototyping. I hope I get to some today. I have my other class today at about noon, then some groceries, and that is basically all for plans. Everything else depending on what will be doable. I have some nice anime, books and my sofa for backup.
Let’s stay in peace, kindness and freedom for today friends 
I’m here, I’m alive I’m sober and I’m happy.
90 days.
Nothing to report.
That’s all Folks.
Wishing y’all a wonderful Day 
Checking in for Day 7. Not much to report.
Still tired and not sleeping well. Trying to keep myself busy during the day and head to bed early of a night when the kids go. The sugar cravings have hit hard, so have been eating a little more than I’d like to. One thing at a time though!
Hope you all have a great day/night
@SadMemeQueen it’s so good to see you, and so good to see you with two years and your months and your days without any self harm despite all the less than ideal days that you have had . I’m super proud of you!
Come here on your birthday, we will have a party for you!
. Wishing you all a wonderful sober Tuesday 
They call your city, ‘the city of roses’, right? …
. Oh, I think it’s tulips! Nonetheless, it’s a beautiful picture of a beautiful site. Please stop and smell some of them for me! Stop and smell the roses.
I hope you end up having a good day, thanks always for the inspiration to keep going … …. coming on up on your anniversary, too, @Mno
